The night before the opening, I cannot sleep.This is not surprising. I have known for two weeks that I would not sleep the night before. I have made peace with it the way you make peace with things you cannot change, acknowledged it, and set it aside, and now here it is at two in the morning exactly as predicted, and I am sitting at my desk with my charcoal and my sketchbook and the city below doing its late-night version of itself, quieter than day but never fully quiet, always something moving.Edmund is in his hotel three blocks away. Patrick is in the guest room down the hall. Alexander is asleep behind the closed bedroom door, or was when I got up at one thirty, his breathing slow and even and entirely unbothered by the fact that tomorrow is the most significant thing I have done in my life so far.I do not resent his ability to sleep. I find it, actually, a specific comfort. The steady, reliable fact of him asleep in the next room while I sit with the insomnia of the night befo
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