All Chapters of I'll Survive This Time (A MXM DYSTOPIAN ROMANCE): Chapter 111 - Chapter 120

SebastianRyder had thought I was kidding. But despite how flustered it made me feel, I scooted forward and gestured for him to come in with me.The water had turned bloody and for a moment, I thought he was hesitating because of that.“Is it the water? I'll just—”“No, no.” He muttered, his voice a little strained and I glanced up at him to see he still wasn't staring at me. “I'm worried I'll hurt you.”“But my wounds are healed already. It won't hurt.” I muttered, my brows raised in confusion.Why was he acting as if I asked him to do something extremely hard?“Seb… are you sure you don't want to rethink this?” He whispered and my brows only furrowed even more. “There's nothing to rethink. I can't do it myself anyway.” I said, my voice softer than intended and he let out a sigh, his throat bobbing nervously.Was there something I didn't understand?He finally nodded and moved to get in with me but I stopped him.“You'll get your clothes wet. Shouldn't you take it off?” I asked with

Sebastian“Stay with me, Seb.” A voice from afar called for me and I tried to open my eyes but I couldn’t. “Please stay with me. I’m nothing without you.”Ryder?“Don’t drown in guilt anymore. It wasn’t your fault.”A hand grabbed mine, a warm contrast to the coldness that had seeped into my bones. “Come back to me.”The warm hand dragged me off the ground and my eyes slowly flickered open. It took me a moment to realize that I was back in the room I had fallen asleep in earlier, and I was still caged in Ryder’s arms.I sniffed, noticing that my face was stained with tears, which meant I was actually crying for real. My body was without scars, however, even though the pain I had in that dream was real.I let out a soft sigh as I turned to Ryder who looked so peaceful sleeping with his arms wrapped tightly around me. He didn’t look as troubled as he was earlier when I just woke up and a small smile crossed my face before I even realized it.“I’m here, Seb.” He suddenly whispered and m

Sebastian“I’m not talking to you.” I grumbled, prying my hands out of his and Ryder’s face fell again.“Mn, lovers' quarrel.” Buis suddenly said and I nearly choked on my spit as I glared at my beloved system. “I’ll be back when you need me.”With that, it turned off, making me facepalm in embarrassment. Ryder was still standing in front of me, looking like I had just stolen a jar of candy from him.“I’m really sorry—”“What exactly are you apologizing for?” I finally asked with a sigh, rubbing my forehead gently. “This?” I pointed at my bare skin covered in hickeys and he slowly nodded with a sulky expression.“I went overboard— Seb!”I literally smacked him with a pillow, making him flinch in surprise as he stared at me in disbelief.“Try again.” I hissed, my eyes narrowed at him and he paused, seeming to realize something.He opened his mouth to speak, but then closed it again as if he was trying to find the right words to say.“Why are you mad at me then?” He finally asked, and I

Sebastian“Hey, hey, look at me.” Ryder muttered as he grabbed me by my shoulders but my eyes were fixed on his bleeding arm. “Seb, look at me.”“Y-you’re bleeding. Why are you bleeding so much? It won't stop.” I babbled as I placed both hands over the wound to stop blood from pouring out but they only made my hands bloody instead. “It's my fault…”“Love—” “I'm sorry. I'm sorry, it's my fault you got injured.” I whispered, staring at my bloody hands as panic coiled tightly around my neck like a snake.“Seb, please. Breathe. Look at me and breathe.” He begged and I tried to suck in a sharp breath but nothing came through.My lungs were clogged, my throat was tight and everything started to get blurry.“So much blood…” I choked out, trembling as I tried to push him away from me. “Why won't it stop?”I suddenly felt Ryder grab the back of my head as he connected our foreheads, and then sucked in a sharp breath, forcing me to do the same.Then he let it out like a puff of air and I had n

Sebastian“I just don’t trust him, love.” Ryder said softly and I let out a sigh, nodding in understanding. “Bradley was a spy and so was Arnold. What if they sent him for the same purpose?”“I know, I’ve been suspecting that too. But Buis says he’s telling the truth.” I mumbled, rubbing my forehead gently. “Call me crazy, Ry, but seeing him alive again makes me happy. And to know that Elio and the rest could live too—”“No, Seb. No.” He said with a shake of his head and my shoulders slumped. “You know it’ll backfire, right? You can’t walk into his traps again.” “I know, I’m sorry. I just…” I buried my face in my hands and then felt him wrap his arms around me. “I want to see them again. They deserve to live as much as I do too.”“Not at the expense of them hating what they are.” He replied and I let out a sigh. “Jordan wants you to kill him. There has to be consequences to this ‘experiment’. How about we return first and then decide what to do next?”He was right. He was always righ