Souffle
The day I was admitted to Crownstone College, my parents threw a thirty-table banquet to celebrate my younger brother, Jason.
There was a banner across the hall.
[Congratulations to Jason on getting into vocational school. You've brought honor to the family.]
When it was time to cut the cake, Jason made a wish in front of all the guests.
"I hope my sister gets married soon and stops wasting the family's money."
The relatives raised their glasses and praised him for being so sensible. Dad beamed with pride.
"A boy who learns a trade has a solid future. Unlike a girl, no matter how much she studies, she'll end up getting married anyway."
I sat alone in the corner.
The doctor had diagnosed me with severe depression and warned that I couldn't handle any more emotional shocks.
My parents said I was bad luck. They told me not to have another episode and ruin my brother's celebration.
I nodded, picked up my medical report, and walked to the rooftop of the hotel.
Right then, my phone rang.
On the other end were my parents from eighteen years ago.
My young Dad laughed through tears.
"It's a girl! We have a daughter!"
My young Mom's voice trembled.
"Sweetheart, I just gave birth to you.
"Did our child grow up feeling loved by us throughout all eighteen years?"
Listening to the applause from the banquet hall below, I laughed until I could barely breathe.
"Yeah, you loved your child very much.
"It just wasn't me."
"What do you mean? Jess, don't scare me–"
I smiled in relief but didn't answer her.
I could hear fireworks from below. It sounded like they were celebrating my disappearance from this family.
I closed my eyes, leaned forward, and jumped.