Silvery Sails
Before our marriage, Harry Parker, my husband, had known I was born with congenital insensitivity to pain and temperature.
I couldn’t feel burns, cuts, or broken bones.
Because of that, he had wrapped every sharp point in the house in soft foam padding, locked the water heater below 104°F, and insisted on standing beside me whenever I used a knife.
He used to say, “If you can’t feel the pain, I’ll feel it for you.”
That was until my cousin, Evelyn Lynch, moved in with us.
She said, “Jane, you can’t rely on Harry forever. You have to train your natural sense of danger.”
The first time, she pushed a bowl of steaming hot soup against my hand. The back of it blistered crimson, but she just turned to Harry and laughed, “See? If you don’t warn her, she won’t even know to dodge.”
The second time, she splashed water across the bathroom tile. I took a hard fall and fractured my tailbone, yet Harry just held me in his arms, offering soft excuses: “Evelyn is only doing this for your own good.”
The third time, she swapped my daily prescription medication for vitamins, claiming she wanted to see if my body could detect the anomaly on its own.
I bled from my nose all through the night. When I woke up, the pillow was soaked through.
Harry held my hand, his voice as quiet and gentle as it had always been: “Jane, I can’t protect you for the rest of your life. Evelyn’s methods might be extreme, but you really do need to learn to feel pain on your own.”
I stared down at the fading burn scar on his wrist—the mark he had earned years ago when testing hot bathwater on my behalf.
He knew better than anyone what pain felt like, and yet he was pretending not to see the wounds being inflicted on me.
Over arguing at this point, I squeezed my medical report into my bag.
I finally learned what pain felt like.
And I learned never to rely on him again.