Worrisome
The nurse's hands are trembling as she hands me the "Body and Cornea Donation Consent Form".
She asks, "Mr. Stone, is Stellan's mother coming?"
I gently wipe the blood from my son's lips and slowly shake my head. "No. She's saving someone else's child."
My son, Stellan Stone, is born with a complex congenital heart defect.
My wife, Sharon Claude, is the youngest cardiothoracic surgeon in the country.
Five years ago, she tells me she's going overseas to study the most advanced surgical techniques so she can come back and perform Stellan's operation herself.
For the past five years, she has sent home research papers, case studies, and handwritten surgery plans.
She always says, "Just wait a little longer. Wait until I'm absolutely certain I can do it."
So, I wait.
I wait as Stellan grows from a little boy who can run and laugh to a boy who can only lie in the ICU, breathing with the help of machines.
Today, I see the latest issue of a medical journal in the hospital lobby. On the cover, Sharon is smiling gently as she holds a little boy in her arms.
The child is Aiden Ford, the son of her first love, Chris Ford.
In the interview, she says, "He's just a child. I can't bear to let the one I love most face even the slightest risk."
But our child is just a child too.
I sign my name on the consent form and gently tuck Stellan's cold little hand back beneath the white sheet.
I whisper, "Sharon, you safeguarded someone else's heartbeat, but you denied our child a chance to live."