Novel & Cerita Am I Psychopath

' thought Amanda. "Are you a psychopath? Why are you so obsessed with me when you are so many beautiful women who are willing volunteers to become your dolls or ready to be your best partner? Why should I?" A serious question left Amanda's mouth. Darko took Amanda's palms and gripped them tightly.

Psalm's eyes shot up, nervousness shooting off him in waves. Shane only stared at him, some people would try to make a nervous person feel better but not Shane he simply watched if anything he was amused. I was right. He definitely is a psychopath. "I'm so happy to have your fiance work with you. She's magical," my jaw dropped at the words. He literally said the opposite and now he was saying this? Shane caught my shocked expression and he turned back to Mr. Psalm. "You should be telling her that not me,"

Her eyes met mine. I walked over, kicked off my shoes, and climbed into bed. “Hold me,” I said. She didn’t say a word—just opened her arms. We lay there, quiet, breathing the same air. After a while, I asked, “Do you think I’m a psychopath?” Jessica didn’t hesitate. “Yes.” I chuckled. “Do you hate me for it?” She leaned in, kissed my forehead softly, and whispered, “I can’t. Even if I try.”

"Why?" I shrug. "Because I've always found the concept of human existence interesting. You are not the only one who sees me as a psychopath, you know. I've been diagnosed with the trait since I was nine, so it's nothing new," I smirk, watching the color drain from her face. Her lips part, and she puffs out a breath, shaking her head like she pities me. "You really should get checked again. People like you shouldn't be allowed on campus. You're dangerous to humanity. Even your thoughts are dangerous. You don't deserve to be here."

Because I’m most certainly the last person on earth she could ever fall for. On one hand she despises my very soul after everything I’ve just put her through; and I have a feeling that I will keep screwing with her because I know myself too damn much, and on the other hand I’m not the kind of man that a girl like her should ever think about falling in love with. Because I will only end up breaking her heart and hurting her more than anyone else in this world. It’s just who I am. And no matter how much I claim I can change, one thing remains. I’m still a psychopath and that is a characteristic I can never get rid of.

he said from the other end. “And that prompts the murder?” I asked confusedly. “No, he has an egocentric and antisocial personality marked by a lack of remorse for one's actions, an absence of empathy for others, and also some criminal acts that are caused by curiosity, he is a psychopath. The psychiatrist that diagnosed it, said that it was inherited from someone in his family,” he said from the other end. “Mark, what causes the murder?” I asked impatiently.

I mumbled honestly and he raised an eyebrow. "And why do you think like that?" I frowned. Honestly I didn't know how to explain it. Psychopathy wasn't a known diagnosis in this world after all. "I'm not sure. It could be triggered by a past trauma, your lack of moral judgement or it was just how your brain was wired. I'm sure you already know that you- I mean most people don't think in the same way as you, right?" Well, it's what I had read when I learned about psychopaths for my role anyway. It's not like I have a full blown psychopath around me. So I couldn't be sure.

Now, I have to find a way how to change my dad's mind. "Perhaps my father is a real psychopath?" Hopefully not...

I agree I'm sick from the mind and I have lost all my insanity and humanity to have Aiyla with me for the rest of my life. Since the first day, I saw her I was going crazy for her; imagining her I have fucked myself so many times. Slowly she became like a poison and my drug that I can't even live without taking an ounce. I needed her in my life for my selfish reason, since the first day I wanted to cage her and never let go. I know I'm a psychopath, pathetic to kill her every day by torturing her and that's what I want, that's what I wanted to do only by killing her from inside will she ever be with me and only with me.

Why didn't I get caught despite all the killing? I got my answers when I met a member of a society that aimed to protect people with a psychopathic disorder. Yes, I have a psychopathic disorder. And that's why I always wanted to kill someone. Because I felt like I was going insane, I visited a psychiatrist. However, I was proven wrong about thinking that the voices in my head were driving me crazy. It turns out that what I am experiencing is not just an ordinary mental breakdown, but rather Psychopath Disorder. According to my doctor, this disorder is characterized by a loss of self-control, causing a person to act like an insane individual and kill someone without hesitation.