Because I Cannot Hurt You Novels & Stories

“What do you mean?” “I can’t change who I am, what I’ve done… what I do. I can’t change that, and you can’t pretend it’s not happening. It scares the shit out of me how overpowering this feels right now. I don’t think I have it in me to watch you walk away if you think you can’t handle it, once we’re deep in this.”

"But why should you be scared?" "Because you have tasted some other woman, if not women before me". "No baby... I know I have had some things to do with some other woman before, but don't you worry, we would talk about it the next time we see. Okay..? "Okay baby!" "And moreover... I can not hurt you for any reason!". "Okay... If you say so!" "Yes ... I say so... And it is my promise to you... Except you choose to hurt me!" "Of course I would not!"

But I guess even someone like Mutiny got her feelings hurt over small things. "But what can I do if I still exist? I can't just erase myself now, can I? I'm still real!" Angry tears slipped out of her eyes as she blabbered half-baked sentences, "I can't even kill myself because that would mean killing Faith as well, and I know very well that it would hurt you and you would become alone again. I don't want to hurt you, but I don't know what to do. I love you, but I can't have you—" Her words were cut off by my lips pressing on hers.

What the fuck am I trying to do? What the fuck did I think I would achieve by digging up his past? Figure out his weakness? Finding the suitable way to destroy him, hurt him...kill him maybe? Or am I searching for ways to redeem him? The thought blasted through me making me slam my eyes shut. Somewhere deep down in me, I knew the reason up to why they all think I can't hurt him. A part of me thinks the same too. I can't hurt him now because..I already did.

"Because you matter to me? Because I'm not going to sit still while something terrible happens to you. I couldn’t possibly do that to you. I couldn't possibly do that to me either." "you speak as though what hurts me could hurt you as well." "because that is how it is, Ky. What hurts you hurts me, and I couldn't live with myself if I had to outlive you." he placed both hands on my cheeks, but I still smiled through it. "you won't have to. I'll do what I can to stay safe. I'll do what I can to make this harder than it already is. I promise."

He did not answer, but remained silent. After finishing treatment I said, "Have you heard of this saying, 'People who love themselves do not hurt others, only those who hate themselves, make others suffer.' stop hating yourself before doing anything serious. You can't take it back even if you want to, so you better catch yourself before you do something stupid." And left the infirmary and cleaned the rest of the windows and went to Tyler's house.

“I would never hurt you, Tati. Not in a million years. And if you can’t see that… maybe you don’t know me at all.” --------

And that, more than anything, hurt him. “You don’t get it, do you?” he said finally, his voice quieter now, the anger giving way to something deeper—something that felt like vulnerability. “I’m not doing this because I think you’re incapable. I’m doing this because I hate seeing you hurt. I hate seeing you go through this when I could fix it in an instant.”

" I have no choice, if it were up to me I would have fought him, but what about my baby he or she might get hurt in the process, I'm doing this because of my unborn child. I look down at my tummy "Guar…… " I will do it," I said cutting him shut

"Why do you treat me like this? If you don't like me, why give me hope? Why touch me? I hate you, I really hate you...!" ***