Novel & Cerita Blaming Myself

I haven’t stopped crying since the moment Laura left. In my whole life, I have never felt so dejected, so lost and afraid. It’s even worse now that I cannot see anything at all. There’s nothing to distract me from all the accusations haunting my thoughts. I’ve spent all afternoon blaming myself. For being too nice, too trusting, too loving, too gullible. I blame myself for being me. Maybe if I possessed just an ounce of deviousness in my feeble little bones I would have seen this coming at some point.

If my sisters are in that situation, I, too, will be out of my mind. "I am sure Dad will help you for this," Ashleigh said, she is trying to ease his feeling and with that Kanus nodded his head with a force smile, his eyes is full of regret, in this times I know he's been blaming himself because of what happened to his wife, thinking that he didn't even do anything to find her, or what he did isn't enough and why he lose his sight on her. When talking about family, blaming ourselves is the easiest way out, we aren't aware but it can somehow ease our feelings than to blame it on others.

She shakes her head taking a drink. "Numb, angry, scared, sad, I don't know." I nod smiling at her, I know exactly how she feels. "Why are you scared? And who are you angry at?" Maybe if I can make her see there is nothing to be scared about. "Myself, I drank, even after I found out, sure it was only two glasses, but I drank. Jackson hates me, I can see it. He blames me." I look at her. "I blamed myself, every reason I could think of, I used it. Everyone told me no that couldn't have caused it, so I found a new reason for it to be my fault. I think most women do, actually, I think a lot of men blame themselves as well."

“I’ve been beating myself up about this for so long. For so many years. Feeling responsible for your death. Punishing myself for not finding the culprits. Feeling like I’ve failed you. Feeling like I haven’t brought you to justice. And I can’t keep living like this. It’s no life for me to live. “It’s got to the point that I can’t even look at myself or recognise myself in the mirror anymore. It’s got to the point that I despise myself, hate myself, blaming myself for everything that’s happened in this fucked-up life I’ve lived. And honestly, Alejandro… It feels like I’m losing myself in the process.

"Why didn't you tell me?" "You never asked." I scowled at his answer. "I thought you would run away, scared of me. I thought you need normal, not this." He passed his hand through his brain. "That blaming thing I did? It's my habit, Alina. I'm addicted to it. That's my way of depression. That's why I blamed myself when Nisha went missing."

, he says, caressing my plastered arm as I brace myself for the confession he might be making. "I blamed everyone for every wrong thing that happened to me. And it seemed easy. It was really easy to blame people and move on. Among all those hard things, I found something easy to do. And it took me years to realize that maybe, there was nothing wrong. It was just me. You were not at fault. It was me who thought every single person around me had to do things for me. The problem is me. I'm the damn fucking problem. I have always been" I was definitely not expecting such a turn of events. However, it feels like it would be easier if he blamed me for something rather than making such a huge state

Oh my God, Deborah look what you've done to yourself! I cried loudly, dabbing furiously at my eyes. Can I ever forgive myself? Can Austin and Junior ever forgive me? Can the Thompsons ever forgive me? If only I was patient enough, I would have discovered that neither Nina nor Michael wasn't my enemy, instead, I was the enemy of myself. Who can I blame for my shortcomings? Is it my dad who has always been so supportive of me? No, I shouldn't blame him, he was only showing me, love, in his own way. He was only trying to be there for me.

Why is it that I always end up ruining everything that I touch? Liam was right! It's all my fault. My family, my friends, my ex mate... it's all my fault!! My body shook as I sobbed harder. The tears poured out of my eyes like a waterfall. I just couldn't stop crying or blaming myself. I should have never gotten so close to others, maybe it wouldn't hurt this much. "You know, your tears are starting to get really annoying." I suddenly heard Lydia's voice. I ignored her and continued crying. She doesn't even understand how I feel right now.

I didn't blame or hate him, I was simply angry and disappointed. In everything, I blame myself the most. I let my guard down. I should have known better than to go to sleep. I should have sensed that his silence meant he was plotting something. I shouldn't have trusted him at that particular moment. I should have prevented this but I didn't. It was my fault. Everything was my fault.

I don't know why they were doing this but I was not happy about this, unhappy about the whole thing I don't want anything to happen to her I want to do anything I could to protect her, I was angry at myself for not being able to protect her I was really angry at myself for not been there for her when she was in this problem I don't know what else to do I blamed myself for everything that happened I was really angry at myself for everything I was angry at myself for everything, if it wasn't because of me she won't had been in this situation I was the one who puts her in this situation, I was the one who put her in this mess, I was sorry for myself I don't know what else to do I was really mad