DIRTY DREAMS
“I’ve never been wanted. And I’ve always wondered what it would feel like to have someone – multiple someones – all focused on me. Like I’m the only thing in the world that matters. Like they want me so badly they can’t help themselves.”
Silence.
Deafening, mortifying silence.
Oh god. I just told four guys I barely know that I fantasize about gangbangs. About being desired. About attention I’ve never gotten and probably never will.
“I should go.” I start gathering my notes. “I’m sorry, that was – I shouldn’t have – ”
“We could arrange that.”
I stop.
Jacob is looking at me. Actually looking at me, maybe for the first time all semester. His dark eyes are focused, intense, completely locked on