ONE LAST TEXT
"I'm just asking."
"You're not just asking, Eli, that's not a question, that's an accusation dressed up as one. Do you have any idea what the last month has looked like for me? I've talked to strangers about the worst night of my life. I've asked people to relive something I can't even fully remember myself, over and over, because I need to know just as badly as you do." My voice cracked, and I hated that it did, hated giving him the satisfaction of watching me come apart over something this unfair. "Where is this even coming from? Four days ago you told me you believed I was trying just as hard as you were."