His Queen of Chaos
I did not stand at a window for two hours composing the words to hand a woman her freedom, and yet that was exactly what I'd been doing since the plane landed, running the sentences flat and clean in my head so that when the elevator opened I could say them without my voice betraying that each one was a knife going in.
Because I'd worked it out, over Miami and over the Gulf and over the long silent drive I'd taken separately on purpose. I'd let her go once, in a Coconut Grove kitchen, because it was the kindest thing I'd ever done, and it had come nearer to killing me than any bullet ever had. And I'd understood, somewhere in those three days of a broken bag and a fading scent on my sheets,