Romans & histoires I Want To Feel In Love

"Oh....yeah. Of course. What do you want me to do, Miss Samantha?" Samantha smiled. "It's nit about what I want you to do. It's about what I'm supposed to do." She mumbled. Layla smiled. She could see where this was headed.. The Young lady was obviously in love. "Okay miss Samantha. What's it about? Come on and talk to me." Samantha sighed. She poured herself a glass of orange juice, gulped down half of the content. "I think I like someone. Really likes him. I don't know if it's right....to like someone at the very first sight. Isn't that infatuation?"

For the first time ever I actually felt loved, I feel loved. I don't want to lose this! Especially not from my stupid sob story!

Sharp and soft all at once. I think this is what falling in love feels like. And I wish I could stop it.

I'll come to you. I don't know how to feel. I want to cry, laugh, gasp for air, run through the terminal until I find him. I text him telling him I'm now somewhere near the entrance of baggage claim. "Don't move, I'll come to you," he texts me again. The words give me shivers. I can imagine him saying them, commanding them, meaning them. Is this what being in love feels like? I've never felt like this before—this unbreakable feeling of invincibility, like nothing in the world could possibly ruin the moment. It almost feels like being able to breathe for the first time in years.

Hahaha, f*ck. I want to show the woman I love that I love her. I want to make the woman I love to feel how much I love her, how much I love her. I want to shout that I love her. But that m*therf*ck*r isn’t here yet. I haven’t acted yet, I haven’t admitted I know and I’m sure I’m already a loser. I would try, but how? If how can I fight my feelings if I already loose.

I believe that he can become like before. There is so much to do. I want to live like before, no fear, no pain and no worries. I don't know if i will be able to or not but i want to fall in love. I want to experience those things. I need a connection which is more than lust. Will i ever be able to have that?

When I finally have her, I want it to be mutual and filled with love. Karis doesn’t love me yet; I can feel that. She likes me a lot and she feels safe with me. That, I will take over anything else. I know that Karis will love me one day, and it will be one day soon. I don’t block my feelings from her. I want her to feel the love I have for her so she knows how real this is. I want her to understand that there’s nothing and no one else for me.

.... "You right Autumn, it is early for love," I say as I gently touch her cheek. At this point, I dont really know what love is supposed to feel like, but if I put in an effort it just might be worth it in the end. "But I am falling in love with you," Or so I thought since the first moment I saw you. "and if you let me I'd like to try and make you fall in love with me too." Maybe what we need is a little push in the right direction. Maybe we need a spark.

"It will only be for a few days. I want to try to work it out with her, man." "Look, in other times I would say that you are completely in love with Louise, but today I assume that this is one of the most fucked up feelings there is. Do you know how it feels to love? It's surreal, wanting that person, but not just anyone, the one that is yours. There, by your side."

I know it sounds crazy to do this to pass the time, but it really keeps me on my toes, to be honest. 'I am always alone, so I am used to it, but... there is always this desire... to make friends, to understand what it feels like to fall in love... What does it feel like to love someone and be loved? I was never bestowed with such gifts in my life. It's sad, isn't it?'