Mama I Didn't Mean To Make You Cry Mga Nobela at Kwento

Tears streamed down my face as I tried to process the weight of it all. Ignoring my distress, my mom pulled me to a chair and made me sit down. "Why is she crying?" I heard Biggy ask. With my eyes tightly shut, I fought to contain my anger and not sabotage their plans. "Oh, she’s just so happy we’re having a nice dinner. It’s been a while since we enjoyed such good food. She’s moved to tears because things are finally looking up for us, and it’s all thanks to you," my mom replied, her voice dripping with insincerity. I felt a wave of nausea at her words.

" Jaden" " Jane, wake up, baby wake up " Mom shook me awake. " Mom he-he is gone" I tried telling her, my voice coming out rusty. " why can't I let it go, I can't even get these emotions to come out. I feel like crying all out, shout, scream but I can't, for some reason mom, I just can't "

But still I don't want to cry , I didn't cry when my father left our family abandoning us leaving us to fend for ourselves on our own and I didn't cry when my mother went in one of her crazy spasms where she kept on harping how I wasn't living up to her expectations when I was actually stretching myself to the last inch of my skin and I wasn't going to cry for Jacob Knight either because people who don't matter to me , who couldn't love me for who I'm do not deserve my tears . The last time I cried was when my nanna left me and that too because she was the only woman who loved and cared for me without asking anything in return , she was the only one deserving . Other

“You don't have to worry about this. Wipe your tears, my darling. Crying doesn't look good on you.” “I'm afraid, mum.” “It's alright. You don't have to be. Dry your tears and give mummy a smile, will you?” I did as she asked and smiled, even though she couldn't see it. “Now, that's better. You have no reason to cry. If there should be anyone shedding tears, it shouldn't be you. It should be that bitch!” “Nova?” I pretended like I didn't know who she was talking about, acting clueless to a fact I knew.

“Your daddy loves you. All of you. He loves you so much.” “Why doesn’t he want to see us then?” Mason asked in a quiet murmur. I sniffled and dried my eyes. I could not be crying like this in front of them. “He’s just busy, don’t worry you will meet him soon. Promise” I replied, wiping each of their tears as I pulled them all to my chest for a group hug. “Don’t cry anymore mommy, it takes away your beauty” Miley complained and hurried to use her blanket to wipe my eyes.

End of flashback “I'm sorry dad… I'm sorry I couldn't stop it… I'm sorry.” I squatted close to the grave at the lawn of my home, tears pooled in my eyes, “I'm sorry I failed you, I'm really sorry dad.” I choked out the words as I felt a gentle pat in my shoulder, turning to see Kai. “Mommy, why are you crying?” He touched my face, I hurriedly wiped them with my sleeves and flashed a faint smile, “Mommy is not crying, it's called sweat, it happens when you're a little tired.”

“you arrogant little brat! Why are you like this after everything we’ve done for you?” Done for me? What was this woman talking about? All they’ve done is cause me anything but pain. But I reminded myself that I don't feel pain anymore. That girl is gone. If I kept quiet, her rage would only fester and get louder. So what could I say that wouldn't make things worse? “You made me this way,” I said calmly, the words slipping out with a quiet honesty that felt instantly regrettable. Oops. It came out worse. She raised her hand again.

he said, walking away from me. ********************** “can you please not ruin your makeup again? Your eyes are a bit sore from all the crying, I know it’s a lot to take, but can you at least fake a smile, take a deep breath okay? And that bitch I swear I’ll…” she started saying, I giggled, “no, she’s not worth it. Besides I’ll be fine, I already cried my eyes out for this night, I don’t think I’ll be able to cry again” I said calming her.

I said to myself and wept . Someone knocks on the door, I quickly try to dry my face but mom enters. " Honey, are you done .........she pauses as she sees me trying to dry my face. "Honey what is ? Have you been crying?I asked. I quickly dry my tears. " No mom" I replied. " What do you mean No, Your eyeballs are red, What is it darling, I don't want you to cry I just want you to be happy, enjoy your celebration" I said.

She removed her arms and then wiped my tears away. "Don't cry, Mommy." She whispered, eyes brimmed with tears. "I just miss your Daddy so much," I whispered with a sad smile. "I missed Daddy too." Her tears rolled down her face this time. "Ssshhhh!!!! Daddy doesn't like to see you cry. He will be sad in heaven when he sees you crying." She hiccuped and quickly wiped her tears away. I let out a shaky breath, pulled her in my arms, and soothingly rubbed her back until her cry subsided.