Messy Panties

In the chaos and quiet of her 30s, a woman reflects on the loves that shaped her, the heartbreaks that undid her, and the tender spaces in between. Through fleeting romances, almost-loves, and the weight of expectations—family’s, society’s, and her own—she navigates a world where connection is currency, vulnerability is rebellion, and self-discovery never comes easy. Told with wit, warmth, and raw honesty, this novel is a journey through modern love: messy, magical, and sometimes maddening. It's about the people who entered her life, the ones who left, and the version of herself she’s still becoming.

"So, what's it going to be, Professor Darwin?" he asked, breathing softly against my ears. "Are you going to punish me or what?" he teased me, his fingers stroking my folds gently. "Fuck you, Jeremy," the cuss word came out thick with moans. "Oh, in a minute," he smirked against my neck, slipping a finger into me and I tossed my head backwards, releasing a wanton sound. Stubborn bastard. •••• Lucia Darwin, in one word, would be a coward but she didn't care. When she saw the perfect opportunity to bolt from her demons and turn the lock on them, she didn't hesitate. Landing the perfect job at Crawford University as a professor and her best friend's wedding seemed like the perfect excuse to flee from Austria. Little did she know that she would have even bigger fish to fry in New York. She had always been a sucker for weddings, but there was an exception. The gorgeous singer who caught her fancy. Maybe the attraction wasn't one-sided because things grew heated after she engaged him in a conversation, and they found themselves buried in each other before the end of the night, sharing a passionate night. What happens at Bethany's wedding, stays at Bethany's wedding, but in Lucia's case, it clung to the hem of her dress like a stubborn seam when she made a shocking discovery that the guy she hooked up with that night happened to be one of her students, Jeremy Hale, Crawford's biggest snub and the hottest boy on campus. A school that frowned upon romantic relationships between teachers and students, a stubborn boy who would do anything to have what he wanted, and a cold-hearted professor whose niche is running away from her problems. The question is, how messy could this get?

Warning... or Invitation? That choice is yours. This isn’t a fairytale. This isn’t about sweet kisses beneath cherry blossoms or soft smiles under the stars. No. This is raw, This is reckless, This is “Burning Embers: Scorching Tales of Desire” A collection of BL short stories carved from lust, laced with obsession, and kissed by chaos. Each chapter stands on its own, a world where strangers become addictions, roommates cross lines, enemies blur into lovers, and the line between want and need snaps without warning. These men don’t fall in love. They fall into temptation. They crash into each other like lightning against the sea, loud, unforgiving, and beautiful in their destruction. You’ll find no gentle romance here. Only the ache of fingertips brushing where they shouldn't, the weight of glances held too long, the gasp before the plunge. This is for the ones who know love isn’t always tender. That sometimes, the most unforgettable stories are the ones written in bruises and longing. This is for those who crave stories that leave a mark, who don’t flinch when desire gets messy, when hearts bleed a little before they beat as one. Not for the faint-hearted. Not for the clean-handed. This is for the bold, the brave, the ones who dare to touch the flame even if it burns. So turn the page. Step into the fire. But don’t say I didn’t warn you--- Because once the embers catch, they never go out.

“For better or worst, for richer or for poor, in sickness and in health, till death do us part.” How long would you hold to the vow you promised to each other in front of God when you’re the only one’s fulfilling it in the first place? Because of an accidental pregnancy, Ann and Clayton found themselves in a messy situation. Wala mang nararamdaman si Clayton para kay Ann, dahil sa pamimilit ng ina ng lalaki, nangyari ang isang kasal na pareho nilang hindi ginusto. Paulit-ulit mang sabihin ni Ann na hindi niya rin gusto ang kasal, Clayton thinks otherwise. He felt that she really got herself knocked up to trapped him with her. Hurtful words, alienation and cold treatments were the response Ann got from her husband. But for their son’s sake, she stayed with him, wishing that someday, Clayton could learn to love them. She could tolerate everything just to have a complete family for her son. But one day, Ann found herself running away from him and she didn’t have the choice but to break the vow she never thought she would do in order to heal her soul that Clayton shattered... because in the first place, Clayton’s heart is not for her. And when Ann decided to leave, that's when Clayton had a change of heart. Can they have the shot of second chance or it will remain as a broken vow?

(Warning: Mature Content - R18 - Tagalog) Maia Asuncion hates Rafael Valiente. She always feels like he's stealing her something she ever wanted—her parents' attention. But despite that, romance emerged between them. Akala ni Maia ay magpapatuloy ang magandang relasyon nilang iyon. Ngunit nang nasangkot si Maia sa isang malaking eskandalo ay hinila niya sa putikan si Rafael at tinapon niya ang kung anong namamagitan sa kanila. Hurt and desperate, she ruined his name and dragged him to the dirt of shame, just to save her own. Ngunit matapos ang ilang taon, nagkrus muli ang landas nila. Maia and the now successful Engineer Rafael Valiente ended up in a messy agreement. Kalaunan, tumira sila sa iisang bubong. Paano humantong sa ganoon gayong may atraso si Maia sa lalaki at may nakaraan sila? And...what if they find themselves desiring each other in the middle of their set-up? Will they let their past and anger stop them? Will they let fire and lust consume them? Or will they forbid themselves from wanting each other? Just like what they did 5 years ago?

Dodging scandals after scandals is Corelle Tatiana Villafuerte's expertise. Hindi madaling panatilihing maganda at malinis ang reputasyon niya lalo pa't kilalang heneral ang kanyang ama. Gagawin niya ang lahat para sa kagustuhan nito kahit pa labag ito sa kanyang kalooban. Ngayo'y tila nakawala siya sa pagpapanggap nang malaman ang katotohanan. Who would have thought that her strict and disciplinarian father is part of a criminal organization? The tables have now turned. She wants to give him a piece of his own medicine, so she sets foot to reveal everything — but everything has a price. She's been kidnapped, held captive, and threatened. By who? The billionaire she can see in magazines, television, and billboards! Who turns out to be the mafia underboss! The man whose sparkling diamond stud, scar cuts, tattoos, and dark suits can blind her. Instead of killing her, he offered to make her his doll. Someone he can dress up to flaunt, display, and play with. After all, he needs a wife to earn the respect of the other mafia boss. Without knowing how messy it could be, she went straight ahead and enjoyed the privileges of being the billionaire's doll. Pero doon lang ba nakabatay ang halaga niya? Sa karangyaan na kayang ipalasap ng binata? Will she remain cherished? Or will the billionaire throw her away when he's finished with her? Is that all she'll ever be? His doll?

Eunisa witnessed how her parents cheated each other, she knows that a broken glass can still be fix but not the way it used to be, the more you want to assemble together the more you realize how messy and broken it is. She met Dominique, her bestfriend. Naging sandalan niya Si Dominique sa lahat ng kalungkutan niya. Dominique will always be her silent lover. Pero alam naman yang hindi niya pag-aari si Dominique habang-buhay. Pero paano pagnakita niya si Dominique na may kasamang iba sa pinakapangit na pagkakataon. She knows her place very well. It always be a red flag, like what in the rules to the stop light. Red means stop or if she won't then she'll be doom forever.

From an awkward, insecure teen to a fully grown woman—she's come a long way. After everything she’s been through, she knows now that the cheap love of her past doesn’t define her worth. Her past may be messy, even painful, but just look at the woman she’s chosen to become: strong, beautiful, and unshakable. It’s hard for her to give love a second chance—especially after building walls so high. And then he said, "I know it’s too much to ask for a second chance. Deep down, I know how badly I hurt you. My heart aches every time I replay what I said, what I did. I wish I could take it all back. I know you're scared and hesitant—but please… let me in again."

It just all began to a mobile game na kina-aadikan ng lahat. Isang larong pumuno ng kasiyahan sa bawat magkakaibigan. Bintangan, kasinungalingan at kooperasyon ang magaganap upang ika'y manalo. Walang iiyak, pipili ka lang at tatago pero hindi mo mapapansing may nakatarak ng kutsilyo sa likuran mo. VIOLENCE. ANGER. INSANITY. REVENGE. Things are all getting messy when this four thoughts control all over your body. "Nice game. Goodnight" -Azul

Since childhood, Gael grew up in a messy family. There's no day and night that Gael does not see his father abusing his mother and his younger brother, and himself. Because his father abused his mother, one day he woke up only to find that his mother had left the two of them in the care of their abusive father. Since then, Gael lost his smile, and fate became cruel to him. Gael's mixed-up life became even more difficult after encountering a cruel Gangster... What fateful events would unfold between the two?