Stealing Alpha's Heart
Ryder started awkwardly, drawing in a shaky breath, "well I guess we can start with the fact that keeping all my emotions over the last nineteen years has resulted in a lot of pent-up stress. I mean, as a kid I used to watch other kids run around the field after training hours, laughing, singing, playing, but then I'd have to turn right back around and go back to my training. At first I thought it was unfair and I whined a lot, but each time I was punished and after a while, I learned to just keep my thoughts, along with my emotions, bottled up inside of me. As a kid it was really hard to grasp that concept, but I got it and turned into this emotionless Alpha all the pack members see me as.