Paid in Desire
I used to think I understood survival. By twenty-one, I’d figured out that my body was something I could trade, and honestly, I didn’t flinch at using it.
Rain pounding outside, apparently, I barely noticed. I was too wrapped up with Bobby, his cock sliding against my lips while I tried to forget the outside world.
“I need to fix supper,” I muttered, and then took him in my mouth. He groaned. His hands knotted up in my hair, pushed me lower, and I swallowed every part of him.
A hundred bucks. That’s what it took to make all this feel like just another night, just another transaction.
That’s my reality, balancing family, hiding secrets, hustling through college by day, doing whatever it takes at night.
But then my dad’s promotion depends on one dinner party. Suddenly, I’m orbiting two men who don’t just spot weakness, they exploit it. What starts with forced politeness turns into something darker. Surveillance cameras watch as I give in again and again, my body traded in deals I never agreed to. The difference between “okay” and “forced” vanishes every time I obey.
At some point, I realize what this compliance has actually cost me. Not just my body, my choices, my future, all of it chipped away until the only decision left is brutal: keep giving them what they want and disappear inside myself, or risk everything to fight back against the machine trapping me here.
My family’s fate is always tied to me. My body isn’t mine to bargain with anymore.
So I keep asking myself: after everything, can someone like me actually claw my way back from submission when it was forced from the start?
Keep reading to find out.