OFFSIDE
The particular quality of my thinking, which had a specific texture when I was performing for an audience that included my father versus the texture it had when it didn't.
I'd spent years developing a game-day mode that ran parallel. The version of Jaxon Whitfield that Richard Whitfield was watching in the stands, disciplined and controlled and executing the things that built a draft profile, running alongside the actual version, the one that played football because it was the truest thing he'd ever done and he loved it in a way his father had converted into a resource before he'd finished understanding what it was.
Today, for the first time, the parallel felt thin.