Novel & Cerita The Reason I Have To Be A Villain

“ I can’t imagine what Lohki must’ve done to you when he found you. He must’ve forced you to become the killing machine that you are now and for that I’m sorry.” “ There’s nothing to be sorry about. I didn’t need to be forced. I wanted to do this. After all, being rejected by three men was enough to start my villain origin story. It didn’t help that not a single soul stood up for me…just as it has always been all my life,” I said bitterly. “ I’m sorry Maeve. I wanted to find you, but I was outvoted by Caden and Erik. I’ve resented both of them ever since, but what was resentment going to do? I’m just glad you came back.”

I looked at him with a sadness I knew must have been obvious. “You’ve outdone yourself. How could you be so cruel?” “I’ve never claimed to be a good man.” I let my fork fall onto the plate. “Why do you want to be the villain?” I asked. “Why can’t you get it into your head that acting like this will only leave you alone? People will hate you, is that what you want?” “I’ve always been alone,” he said simply. “It changes nothing.” “You’re a liar. You’re a horrible human being.”

I fought back the tears that threatened to wet my dry cheeks. I couldn't afford to let them see me as I truly was at the point; broken, scared and exhausted. From what I've been dealt with in this freaking cell and generally in life. "Why are you doing this Kade?" I asked the man who just stared into my eyes like he was possessed or something. "Why are you suddenly overwhelmed by power and thirst for fame?" I asked, trying to understand why he chose to be the villain in my life. "My gosh, you are so slow Aveline, I was always overwhelmed by the need to be powerful. You just didn't see it because your eyes were covered with the blind trust you had towards me. The only reason I spared you--"

If he killed him, there must be a reason. "Why?" "When he lost his mate, he changed. I watched him go rogue; he was no father of mine any more but a beast; many would have died; he didn't care anymore, and so I challenged him to death." "Your scar, that's how you got it." He nodded. "A reminder of the man I am. The fact that you are still sitting here with me baffles me. I am not a good person; I am the villain in the story; I'm not as in control as I seem to be sometimes I lose control; I don't want to ever hurt you; I wish I could promise you that you would be saved forever."

I saw myself—child, slave, mate, fighter. And I realized— This wasn’t about the Vault. It was about becoming. “I’m not doing this for power,” I said. Kael’s voice shook. “Then why?” I met his eyes. “Because the next girl like me deserves a world that doesn’t burn her just for surviving.” And I reached for the flame.

He finishes the question for me. "Because girl you pushed out could've fought for me. They didn't. But honestly, Bails? I'm tired of being good. Everything you've done. Everything Canum’s done to me. It’s made me realize the villains of our world tend to win, and I want to win too. So until further notice, I'm done being the nice guy. It's gotten me nowhere." His voice remains eerily calm. "I also finally understand what I need." A pause.

"Because it makes this harder. Makes you harder to hate." "Good." He squeezes my hand. "I don't want you to hate me. I want you to—" He stops. "I don't know what I want. Forgiveness seems too much to ask for. But maybe understanding? Maybe acknowledgment that I'm not just the villain in your story?" "You are the villain." "I'm also a victim." He turns his head. Meets my eyes. "My father's victim. My own weakness's victim. Circumstance's victim. That doesn't excuse what I did. But it complicates it."

"You see, sometimes, we tend to blame fate for every little thing that we begin to lose the power to change our future." He started to say. "What do you mean?" "Look at me, child. We don't decide what fate chooses for us, but we can decide what we choose ourselves. Let your choices reflect what you want. If you want something, go for it. And if you don't want it, let it go." "And what if our wants seem to be out of reach." "Do you know why villains keep winning in this world?" She shook her head. "It's because their zeal for achieving their goal is usually stronger than their opponent. They believe it's either they get it or they die."

It wasn’t fair and I hated it so much… I don’t want to be the villain of someone's story, I just want to live a life I wasn’t able to before. I just want things to end differently for me. I don’t care if I am seen as selfish or horrible, I went through way too many things to just let this happen to me once again. Things were different and people cared about me… I don’t want to lose this at all… Please don’t take this away from me. Just because I am the villainess doesn’t mean I don’t deserve a happy ending. Just give me this one thing...

Who was still a force to be reckoned with. Because sometimes, being the villain isn’t about taking. It’s about showing that you exist. That you matter. That you can shake the balance. And today? I did all of that.