When I'm Gone I'm Never Really Gone

In her past life, Dylan Xander was forced to marry Zoe Stone. On their wedding day, his first love died in a plane crash. After the wedding, Dylan fell into a deep depression and grew to despise Zoe. For seven long years, she humbled herself just to win a sliver of his affection. But all she ever got in return was the same cruel question, over and over again: “Why wasn’t it you who died instead?” And yet, when the tsunami struck, Dylan gave up his only chance of survival to save her. On the lifeboat, she desperately reached out to grab his hand but he pulled away with all his strength. As he sank into the dark depths of the sea, he smiled in relief. “I’m finally free. I can be with her now.” After his death, the entire Xander family turned their hatred toward Zoe. Consumed by grief and guilt, she took her own life by jumping into the ocean. But when she opened her eyes again, she had returned to seven years ago. This time, she would cut the toxic bond between them and let him be with his true love.

Aku terkejut dengan ratusan transaksi di M-banking Suamiku tiap harinya. Anehnya ada percakapan di sana, lewat pesan opsional yang bernada mesra. Luar biasa, seseorang harus se-effort ini untuk bisa terhubung. Sekali transaksi minimal sepuluh ribu, bagaimana kalau ratusan kali mengirim pesan, apakah berselingkuh harus sesulit itu?

He gave me rules. I broke them. Now I’ve worn his marks like promises. And I’m on my knees, bound by his words and broken by his pleasure. Have you ever been fucked in a graveyard? Have you ever been fucked in a limousine? Have you ever been fucked in an art studio? Have you ever been fucked in the confessional? Have you ever been fucked in your Dean's office? ~~~~~ Each story in this collection peels back another layer of control, craving, and surrender—where beautiful boys obey, and dominant men make sure they never forget who they belong to. If you like your MM erotica dripping in submission, laced with power, and unapologetically filthy... welcome to where desire obeys. {The First Book In The Compilation Is Quite Toned Down.} Meanwhile… Proceed With Caution with the remaining compilations. Hahaha.

Rafa memutuskan untuk mengejar cinta Nanda saat perempuan itu sudah berhenti berjuang dan berharap lagi. "Cinta boleh, bego jangan" Ucap seseorang. Sekarang, Nanda mengerti. Hidup tidak melulu soal cinta.

"Give me one more chances, Via," kata Dante sembari menatap manik mata Olivia. "Nggak bisa, Dante. Aku nggak bisa," sahut Olivia bersikukuh. "Kenapa? Paling nggak kasih aku alasannya," desak Dante lagi. Olivia menggeleng. Merasa sia-sia saja jika ia memberikan alasannya. "Kalau begitu akan kucari sendiri jawabannya," tukas Dante menyudahinya. Manis. Bibir yang mengecup Olivia masih sama seperti lima tahun yang lalu. Manis dan akan selalu manis sampai kapanpun. Seperti kenangannya bersama Dante. Perpisahan Olivia dengan Dante bukanlah lelucon opera sabun yang selalu berseliweran di layar kaca. Ada satu alasan yang membuat Olivia nekat mengambil keputusan itu. Suatu rahasia yang sengaja Olivia sembunyikan sejak lama. Suatu rahasia dibalik kepergiannya.

Cara, a senior Psychology student, has always been haunted by the face of a strange boy from her childhood dreams. As she grows older, the boy is replaced by a mysterious man in her dreams. Determined to understand the connection, she seeks the help of her best friend, a psychologist, to explore the meaning behind these recurring visions. In her waking life, two elusive men capture her attention, but they remain distant. Instead of feeling lost, Cara embraces this mysterious journey, knowing it holds the key to deeper self-discovery. With the support of her friend, she begins to unravel the powerful message her dreams are guiding her toward, realizing that the answers she seeks are within her reach.

Limang taon si Clyde at isang taon si Christine nang pareho silang ikasal sa isa’t-isa. Isang kasunduan ng pamilya na kapwa nila tinutulan. Ngayong bente na si Christine, kailangan nilang tumira sa iisang bubong sa loob ng isang taon… bago tuluyang maghiwalay. Si Christine, nagtago sa likod ng maskara upang protektahan ang pusong takot masaktan. Si Clyde, itinulak ang sarili sa piling ng iba, para lang huwag mahulog sa babaeng buong buhay niyang tinanggihan. Ngunit paano kung ang babaeng gusto niyang mahalin… ay siya ring asawang gusto niyang kalimutan? At paano kung ang planong wakasan ang lahat… ay mauwi sa simula ng tunay na laban, lalo na’t may isang babaeng handang sirain ang umuusbong nilang pagmamahalan? Sa mundong puno ng lihim at pride, may pag-asa pa bang magtagumpay ang pusong nagsisimula pa lang magmahal?

" LOVE is a positive word- a happy word but why does hearing it makes my heart aches so much. All the things i imagine being in love would be are the opposite of what I am feeling- of what I am experiencing. Maybe, I just perceive love very positively that I never thought it could give sadness,pain, sorrows and regrets at the same time. I expected too much. I loved too much. I trusted too much and it hurt me so much ... but never again will I allow myself to be hurt. Never again will I allow sadness to seep through me. Never again will I allow false promises to imprison me. Never again", says Gracelyn as she bids goodbye to the man she ever loved-Greg. Greg sighed deeply as he watched the person who loves him wholeheartedly go. He doesn't have the power to stop her and tell her that she love her wholely because deep inside he also doubts his love towards the lady.He is blinded by the past- he cannot seem to free himself but he also cannot deny that Gracelyn made a mark in his heart. Will they be able to find their chances of loving again ? Will they be able to free themselves from the things that binds them ? Will they find genuine happiness?

EZREN: Kiss or kill. Those were always the two options left.. until the past walks back into my life in the form of blue eyes, ginger curls, and a tattoo he swears I should remember. Knox Graye. A diagnosed psychopath. Says he was my brother’s boyfriend. That I left him to die and that I hold the only truth to his death. He is everywhere. Digging up my lies. Ruining what’s left of my life. Call me ‘Cherry’ like it means something. I swear I hate it. I hate him. I don’t know if he wants closure, revenge, or just someone to break. Either way, I’m his target and his third option. KNOX: Everyone thinks I’ve got a loose screw in the head but they're wrong. I lost the whole damn toolbox, buried six feet under with the only person I ever loved. I've spent six years grieving. Dying in pieces while he rots away in a grave but now? Now someone else walk around in his bones, smiling with his lips like he fuckin’ owns it. Like I wouldn’t recognize my own goddamn Cherry. Except now he calls himself Ezren. Cute. He thinks he has been hiding behind top grades and golden-boy charm, but I built his whole damn maze. And now that he's close? I’m done with subtlety. I want chaos in his veins, his secrets peeled off like skin. I want to crawl into the part of his head where he still hears his brother’s laugh and whisper: “You were always mine." He doesn’t know it yet, but I’m going to dismantle him. Brick by fucking brick. And when he finally breaks, I’ll be there to offer him a choice. “Kiss or kill, Cherry?”

If someone would ask if series of unfortunate event is true, I volunteer to testify. For three decades, I have been unlucky with everything - love, family, career, success. And I blame loving Albert for all these misfortunes. Until one day, I was given a chance to do everything all over again. I woke up in my eighteen-year old body... The day before I met Albert.