Novel & Cerita You Will Never Be Alone

I whispered to the emptiness while watching the colorful sky brought by the fireworks. I found myself crying due to envy for my happy neighbors, contrasting with my feelings of loneliness and sadness. Will it always be like this? Will my new year always be like this? Will I always be alone in welcoming the new year? Will I always end up crying every new year? Will it always be like this?! For Pete's sake, I'm so tired! I'm so tired of feeling alone all the time. I'm so tired of being independent all the time. I feel alone. Yes, I know my grandma is there for me, but I still feel like I'm alone in this life. I feel like I'm the only one fighting the challenges of life. I fucking feel alone!

she whispered, shaking her head furiously, pushing my hand back toward me. But I didn’t let her push it away. I closed her fingers over it gently and looked her straight in the eyes. “She left this for me, yes. But she left it with the wish that I’d never feel alone. And now that you’re going away, I want you to have this. When you’re out there, when you’re exploring who you are, when you feel alone or lost, I want you to hold this and remember that you’re never truly alone. That no matter where you go, a piece of me, a piece of her, will always be with you.”

“I don’t know how.” “You will.” She pressed her forehead to mine. “I will be with you every step, every breath of the way. When the darkness comes, when the pain comes, when you think you can’t go on, I will be the whisper that says keep going. You are not alone. You were never alone.”

“But you’re not doing this alone. Not now. Not ever.” And for the first time since everything fell apart— I almost believe him.

“And whoever left you doesn’t get to decide what you deserve now.” I swallowed. “What if my real family doesn’t want me?” “Then they’re the ones who will have to live with that.” “What if they come for me?” “Then they’ll find you aren’t alone anymore.” My breath caught. He didn’t look away. “And if you’re afraid you’ll be abandoned again…” He paused. “Look around.” I did, and there was no one there. Only him. “You’re not alone.” My eyes stung. “Why?”

"And I know maybe I'm always bothering you and you might want to get back at me but now is really not the time. Maybe some other time but not now. Right now I just want to be alone. So please just go" He expected her to leave but she didn't. Instead she moved closer. "I'm not trying to get back at you" she said softly. "Really I'm not. I'm just thinking that maybe you don't have to be off the team. You can play football and also pass the test. You can have both. You just need some help.... And I can help"

No matter what the past held or what the future might bring, at least for this one fleeting moment, I knew I was no longer alone. Love persists. Happy forever. (The End)

"I'm coming right now. Wait for me. Don't move. Don't do anything. I'm here. I'm on my way. Stay where you are. I'll find you. I'll take you. I'll bring you home. I'll keep you safe. I'll protect you. I'll hold you. I won't let you fall. I won't let you leave. I won't let you run. I won't let you be afraid. I won't let you doubt. I won't let you be alone. Never. Never again. Never alone again. Never abandoned again. Never forgotten again. Never. Never. Never." I stay there, under the falling snow, on this street I'm not looking at, in front of this police station I don't see, with this phone I don't feel, with this voice I hear, that I will always hear, telling me that I am not alone, that I

" Are you for real? " " Yeah " I don't say the part where I am never trusting him again and he's smiling like an idiot.

“I really love you guys. And I miss having you in my life everyday.” “I know,” Grandma agrees. “We miss you, too. But we’re here. We always will be, no matter how far away we are.” With just that sentence, everything instantly feels better. Maybe that was all I needed to be able to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I might be lonely, but I’m not alone. I still have my family with me. And even though I can’t see them everyday, I know they will always be there for me, no matter what.