Novels by Nicky Mia Brown

I lay on my bed thinking deeply about how cruel life could be. Why was I destined to such a life? I didn't want this for myself, but I felt helpless. My life was as bland as it was short. I willed myself not to cry and clenched my eyes shut. Why did I want to cry? Just a month ago, I didn't give much thought to dying. In fact, after I had decided to stop looking for a treatment, I felt less restless. I had finally been able to sleep. I was perfectly unfazed by leaving That was, until Aaron came into my life. I groaned, rubbing my face with my hands. I had to stop thinking about him. He was bad for me. He gave me desires and wishes to live and that was a bad thing to wish for. Especially, when I didn't have enough money or a definitive cure. I sighed in frustration at my stupid desires and pulled myself off the bed. Maybe some food would take my mind off of it. I skipped into the kitchen, humming and looked through the fridge. "How can you be so happy?" Someone called out

It was lunchtime now, but I was still thinking about what Raven told me about Aaron and Avalon. It felt as though the more I dove deeper into popular group, the more cracks I found. Yet these cracks didn't ruin them, it only made them human. "Alex" someone chirped. I turned around to see Elliot, smiling at me. "Eli" I chirped back. He laughed at me. "I think it'd be an injustice to have someone as entertaining as you to be walking alone in the hallways." He joked with a deep laugh and I scoffed at his goofy lines. He could always make me laugh, even in the most troubling times. "I am going to lunch. Care to accompany me?" I said, hoping he would. I really needed to see a friendly face. He smiled sadly. "Wish I could, but I promised Miss Edwards that I'd help her set up the equipment for her after school session, but next time I'll accompany you" he promised, smiling earnestly. I smiled back, liking him a bit more knowing that he was so helpful to the teachers. "Sure"

I woke up, dazed and almost had a heart attack from waking up in an unfamiliar room. I sighed in relief, clutching my lurching heart when I remembered I had fallen asleep in Aaron's bed. The memories from the conversation and events came to mind and I felt the mortification fill me. I had kissed him against my better judgment. The drinks I had taken from the tray had made me act without inhibition and I had become a carefree person for once, not plagued by anxiety or dark thoughts. I looked at the time and let out a noise at the time. It was a school day and I was already running late. In fear of messing up my early streak, I jumped out the bed and looked toward the sofa. Sure enough, Aaron was lying down on the sofa on his stomach, his face practically submerged in the pillow. I laughed inwardly at him, but cursed again realising that he was also going to get late and, regardless of if he cared or not, education was important. I quickly made my way to his bathroom and d

Aaron's head snapped to my direction, "What?" He questioned. Now, I was beyond nervous. I didn't want to get him angry or make him upset, but I wanted answers. I sighed inwardly, gathering all my courage. "Well, you're always so mean and you said 'not when you're there' when I offered for you to sleep on the bed? Do you hate me that much?" I asked timidly, making sure to not look away. Aaron looked straight at me, his eyes were curious before they returned to normal and he shrugged lazily. "Well, I know, you've never been in that type of situatuon, so I didn't want to make you uncomfortable." he explained. "How can you be so sure I haven't done it before?" I said defensively, my nose crinkling slightly in anger. He scoffed and rolled his eyes, turning to me. "Don't bullshit. I can tell from a mile away" He said, amusement apparent on his features. My eyebrows furrowed at this. "Tell what?" I asked, sobering up a bit and I could tell a pounding headache was wait

I made my way to where Aaron was standing with Danny, tripping along the way. "Aaron" I shouted gleefully, tripping over and landing in his arms. He grunted in response and pulled me off of him. He looked at me blankly before gesturing to my feet. "Take the heels off. You're stumbling too much with them on" he commanded, turning his attention back to the girl who was dancing against him. I hated being ignored, so I stomped my feet and tapped him again hard. "Aaron, I'm bored" I whined, pouting like a child. Aaron stopped dancing with the girl and turned to look at me, his hands still on her hips. His eyebrow was arched as if he was questioning me on what I was doing and I opened my mouth to speak but was interrupted by a blonde blurry thing. I squinted my eyes to get them to focus but to no avail and I sighed dramatically. "Yeah, go have some alone time with your girl!" Danny exclaimed, slinging his arm casually around Aaron's shoulder. He then looked at me and smirked

"Yes, blood pressures normal now. Just keep drinking a lot of fluids and stay away from eating a lot of fatty food" The nurse told me. I nodded my head showing I understood when, in actual fact, I didn't care. I couldn't find myself to care anymore. I pulled my sleeves down and stood up from my seat, waiting for the nurse to dismiss me. I fidgeted with my fingers for awhile, looking around the room. The nurse fiddled with a few machines, taking notes down on a pad. I bit my lip anxiously, hoping for the silence to end. Finally, she turned around to face me, concern evident on her face. "I know, I've asked this everytime, honey, but I have to as part of the protocol. Are you sure we can't be of further assistance?" She bent down towards my height, putting the notepad down on the chair besides me. "Yes. I'm sure." I breathed out confidently. I didn't want anyone to question me right now, especially when I had made up my mind. "I know, sweetie but, the thing with aplastic