Oh God!, just remembering last night makes me cringe.
Watching as Dean and Mr Riley had a full on punch up right there in the local pack hospital.
It took four guys on each side to restrain them both.
They both want me and I'm so confused. Neither of them would let me talk!
I can't even find out my mate's name because I haven't actually been alone with him yet.
My head is all foggy, so many questions and ideas filling my head.
I'm now laid up in bed. A weeks' sick and left to recover from my idiotic self inflicted accident and come to terms with all this new information.
My head hurts, throbbing and healing from that bloody mirror. I feel drowsy from the strong pain killers.
I want a bath but refuse to have one while I'm this drowsed. I will not put myself at risk.
Just rolling over on my side, I'm slowly drifting off to sleep. The doorbell sounds loudly, making me cringe.
I whimper, and sigh. "Who is it?" I ask softly as I head out of my room and down the hallway.
"It's Dean! Let me in, baby."
I smile and unlock the door, looking up into my master's eyes. "Hi! What's up?" I ask. "Did I do something?"
Dean looks confused. "No of course not! I wanted to see how you were... maybe finish where we left off?"
I smirk. "That can be arranged but I want a bath first. I've had my pain killers so don't feel safe bathing."
At that, Dean grabs my legs, throwing me up into a bridal hold, making me squeal before heading into my bathroom.
After sitting me on my stool in the bathroom, Dean rolls up the sleeves of his shirt and begins to run the bath.
I just sit and watch him. This incredibly gorgeous man makes me feel special and incredibly turned on 90% of the time I'm with him. The only sucky thing is, it feels like I'm cheating when I'm with him. I guess it's because I haven't accepted or rejected my mate. I just know he's there.
Within 5 minutes, the bath is full. Bubbles overflowing and a sensual smell of the bath oil aroma. Jasmine and vanilla musk filling the room.
Dean joins me in the bath.
The water is enticingly hot. It's relaxing to my over stressed body. We both played as Dean got to wash me.
I am laid on my sofa with the TV on. Dean has just left, letting me rest.
Some mindless program is on, but I'm not concentrating. I'm zoning out, thinking about my current predicament.
Dean, my Dom, my current best friend. He is my confidant, my lover and the only person on this planet I actually trust.
Mr Riley, my soul mate. A man I have only met once. I hardly know him or anything about him. Not even his first name.
Talk about conflict? As I lay there that night in bed, I couldn't help but think about Mr Riley, my mate.
I was so confused.
How could I even choose between him and Dean without knowing him or who he is.
Just at that moment, my bedroom window squeaked open, causing me to scream in panic.
What the hell?
I see a clothed leg slip in, then another. Then a flexible body, a toned chest. Arms, shoulders, neck and a head.
I am greeted by my mate.
My wolf howls excitedly, bounding around in my head.
I jump off the bed, unsure of what I should be doing.
I was drawn to Mr Riley like a strong magnetic pull, but I felt as though I'd be betraying Dean.
Why the hell am I so conflicted?
"Oh, hello Mr Riley." I whisper, unsure of what else to say.
I am greeted with a mouth watering, sexy grin. "Lizzie. How are you?"
I swallow. "I'm ok. You?" I ask shyly.
I watch as Mr Riley stalks towards me, my stomach doing somersaults at the prospect of him being close to me.
His hand slowly slips onto my waist and he pulls me close to him. Our bodies touching intimately, especially with the fact that I am wearing nothing but a large t-shirt just about covering my modesty.
Mr Riley skims his nose over my neck, breathing in deeply, making me whimper. "By the way dear mate, my name is Holden. Please stop calling me Mr Riley, it makes me feel old."
I swallow hard and nod at him.
"Holden." I whisper, my body having a mind of its own, slowly placing my shaky hands on his muscled biceps.
"Now that is sexy. Say it again!" He moans.
Answering his request. "Holden." I whisper again.
"Kiss me Lizzie. Now." He murmurs, his warm sweet breath enveloping me.
I give in to my wolf, who is begging me to accept the offer, to give Holden--our mate--what he wants."I want you." He whispers into my mouth. "Do you want me?"I nod. "Yes I do, but please don't mark me." Holden's eyes shoot with pain. "Not yet. I want to wait. I'm not ready for that just yet."Holden pulls back and looks at me. "You don't want me? Are you rejecting me?"I sigh and pull out of his grip. "Come sit, Holden. I need to explain some stuff to you."I walk over to the bed, and pull the cover over me, sitting cross legged.Holden reluctantly follows, and sits at the end of the bed, watching me with confusion."I... err..." I stutter. Holden's eyes light up in realisation. "You have a boyfriend? That guy! That hot shot dude?"I sigh and bow my head. "It's more complicated than that. Can you listen while I talk? Don't say anything yet. Just let me get this out."Holden nods and takes my hands in his. "I will stay quiet an
I look up into his eyes. "Pleasure. I rarely get hurt for punishment. I try to be as good as I can. Usually Dean's form of punishment is withholding pleasure. I can't... well... you know..." I blush, unable to form the words."Come?" Holden asks, smirking.I nod. "Yeah."He chuckles. "That's one of my favourite pastimes! Orgasm denial is rather enjoyable for the man."I gawp at him. "You... you enjoy that stuff too?" I ask.Holden shrugs. "Not the whipping and caning, but the fun stuff like handcuffs, toys and well... orgasm denial. Are you into the pain?"I bite my lip and nod. "It's a fetish I guess. There's a fine line between pleasure and pain. If you find that middle line, it's incredible!"He kissed me and I knew what would happen next!After close to two hours, we were both lying exhaustedly on the bed.Holden grins, his head on my shoulder, I drift off into an exhausted slumber.I fall asleep trying to determine whe
A week off work was quite relaxing! I got to rest, recuperate, sleep in and have baths and naps whenever I felt it warranted.My depo appointment was boring. Just the usual. Bend over and get a needle.Easy work.Thursday evening I went to the local salon and had my waxing done. Legs, underarms and pubic area.Being hair free makes me feel sexy, I have no idea why.The guys had left me alone to rest and recover for the entire week. I felt lonely for the first time in ages. I have no female friends as I got hurt so much by bitching and lies when I was a teenager, so I took comfort in men and their weapons between their legs.Once I was out of school, women saw me as a threat, thinking I'd steal their boyfriends or whatnot because of my reputation. That's not who I am. I always made sure my sexual partners were single first!!Now, Saturday night, I am sat in front of the television with a large pepperoni pizza, popcorn, a bottle of diet coke a
When you're alone inside your head, and unable to pull yourself out of the funk, you end up going crazy!!So far, I've been alone for a total of 2 weeks and 4 days.I've pushed away Dean and Holden, not letting them near me. I'm not doing anything apart from going to work, acting like a zombie, just about handling my duties and jobs. When I go home, I stay in my room and huddle up in the duvet.I'm just about managing a bunch of grapes or a satsuma a day. I've already lost 9lb!As a wolf, I should be eating a lot more, and as I haven't been keeping up my usual diet, my wolf has gone into hibernation.Like me, really.I don't know why I've turned into this emotionless soul, I just can't get over how a human could get inside my flat without me--a shifter--knowing, and was able to freak me out and scare me like he did.I've dealt with the threats and blackmails from other Doms, but this was one step too far. Making somebody come to my home for
"Try, Dean! Please try!" I whimper.I need him right now.I am burning up beyond anything I have ever felt before, it's as though Dean has brought this on!It only started when he put his arms around me.He caused this!!"Dean! NOW!" I scream, my back arching as the pain spikes furiously.A loud sexual moan emanates from Dean's parted lips, and his self control waivers as he crashes his lips to mine again.All I can feel and think of is him.The way his hands touch me, the way his lips move against mine, his weight on top of me, his musky sweet breath, the feel of shirt and tailored trousers against my over sensitive bare skin.It's like the most intense feeling I have ever had the pleasure of experiencing. I just don't want it to end.Not only the pleasure from Dean's incredible loving, but the feeling of intense love and emotion for this man makes this act of fornication a whole lot more incredible.My lips start to
Back at work, finally out of my funk. I feel more positive. Still confused, but positive.I'm sat there at my desk typing out a letter for my boss, Mr Fray.Mind numbingly boring but it keeps my brain busy.Just as I press print, the office phone rings. I clear my throat and take my professional mode."Good morning, Mr Fray's office. How can I help you?" I speak politely."Lizzie? It's Holden!"I grin, hearing his bright voice."Hiya!! What's up?" I ask."I err... was err... calling to err..." He hesitates, stumbling over his words.It's cute!Adorable.I smile."Just say it, Holden." I murmur gently, trying to encourage him.I hear him down the line taking a deep breath. "I wanted to ask you on a date." He rushes out.I blush at the request."Ask me properly and you might get an answer." I tease.Holden chuckles slightly. "Sorry, I'm just a little nervous.""I was wondering if you'
I was awoken by my phone ringing with a high pitched shrill.I rolled over and grabbed it drowsily."Mmm?" I answer."Lizzie Knight?" A powerful voice questioned down the line."Yeah? Who's this?" I ask, trying to sit up.I hear a chuckle. "Frank Paulson, you left a message about your... predicament?"My eyes widen, and I leap off the bed, bounding around."Hello! Oh, thank you! Thank you for calling back so quickly!" I rush out, begging for answers."Right, Lizzie. I would prefer to discuss this matter in person? Are you free at some point today? From my records, you are located in Nottinghamshire?"God, he's formal!"Yes, yes I am. I live just outside of Newark."Our conversation ends after we decide on a cafe in town at 4pm.I am on edge all day!I have a half day at work today as Mr Fray leaves for a business trip to Vancouver at 11.30am.Just another bonus.I rush off to the bathroom, show
"It's a very unconventional solution though and can end up with the mates fighting for attention."I swallow back bile at the idea of Dean and Holden fighting each other for my attention. I couldn't handle losing either of them. I couldn't imagine it!"Right... so, how would it work? One of my mates is an Alpha? How could I be a Luna if I'm another wolf's mate as well?" I ask with a shaky voice.My heart is pounding out of my chest, I feel beads of sweat trickle down my back, and my heart aches painfully.I am so confused!"It just would. His pack would accept you as Luna because that's your right as his mate.""The only problem I can see presenting itself, is your mates not accepting the situation you're in and making you choose."I shake my head, not wanting to picture the scenario in my fragile mind."I'm still confused. How can Holden AND Dean both be my mates if my wolf hasn't stated Dean is? She feels pleasure and excitement by h