Six long weeks since that fateful night.
To my dismay, I am still alive.
I haven't seen Dean nor Holden since I gave them the soul destroying news.
I go to work, do my job, return home and huddle up on the sofa until I fall into abyss.
Sleep is my only friend. It blocks out the pain.
Why can't the wolf spirits let me die?
Today, it's just another boring day. I arrive at work to start dealing with meetings and clients, making calls and typing up letters like always.
I sip on a strong black coffee while typing an email reply, when my stomach churns.
I leap up from my seat, sprinting full pelt to the ladies bathroom, throwing myself at the toilet. I vomit violently, so bad that my eyes stream with pain.
That's how the rest of the day continues; working and throwing up.
I have no idea what's going on.
Wolves don't get sick!
We have an unusually high immune system, so no human bugs or viruses effect us.<
Last night was wonderful. I finally slept with Soul and oh wow!He wasn't as good as Dean or Holden but it was still intense and he was so soft and romantic.Rose petals all over the bed, candles everywhere and fizzy grape juice--a pregnant craving--with chocolate covered strawberries!It's as though he read my mind, followed my heart and was making up for all the shit I'd been through over the past few months.In the middle of the night, I'd also woken up to fluttery kicks in my stomach!It was the most amazing feeling!I get my first scan next week as my doctor couldn't fit me in for one until then.The idea of seeing my baby for the first time is so exciting and heartwarming.Would it be a girl or boy?Would they be Alpha blood or not? Thus meaning Holden's or Dean's?I couldn't care less either way. They're both my mates and they both rejected me at the same time.I thank the heavens I didn't let them m
I spoke to the postman the other day, and afterwards, Soul beat ten shades of shit out of me.I ended up with a black eye, a bruised cheek, cut lip and multiple bruises across my body.My pregnant belly is now swollen up. My scan informed me that not only one baby was taking up residence in my uterus, but two!Two babies?! I was happy. For me, anyway. Not for them. I have Soul threatening their lives as well as my own.I have to try and do whatever I can to protect them, and give them a chance at life. I could have them and send them to my mates, giving them more of a chance than if they stayed with a weakling and an unfit mother like me.Right now, I'm sat, waiting for my next sonogram. I get to find out the sex of my babies. Finally, sixteen weeks, I can see what I'm having.Soul is sat by my side, reading a book. He won't let me go anywhere alone! I feel so claustrophobic!I want to scream!That reminds me of one of my favou
I turn my head and look. Holden and Dean are in a giant bed holding onto me as they dream.I run through what recently happened in my head trying to understand.Soul!Fuck!Did I really kill him?Am I still pregnant?I look down to a bump and sigh with relief.I cringe as I remember seeing my men beaten up before me.I'd rather it was me than them.I was marked!Shit!I carefully untangled myself from Dean and Holden to slide off the bed.I recognise this room. It looks like the one I slept in at the pack house but bigger and there are belongings in it. A pile of clothes on the floor, photos of Holden and other people.It's his room.I head to the bathroom and look in the mirror. The mark is still there, clear as day despite Soul being dead.Though I don't feel a connection to him. No emotions, no thoughts.He must be dead.I sigh with undeniable relief.That's shor
Holden jumps off the bed and takes the envelope, thanking the wolf before shutting the door and coming back to us. He passes the envelope to me. "You can do the honours Lizzie."I sit there, turning the envelope around over and over."Are you sure you wanna know?" I ask them both.They both nod.I take a deep breath. I guess it's as good a time as any.I rip open the envelope and read...The results... Wow!Just frickin wow!It's like God was on our side.Twin one: Alpha genes. Father: Holden Riley. 99.99999766666%Twin two: Father: Dean Law. 98.77777775275%Yes, yes, yes!!!!I put the paper down and look into the concerned faces of my mates."Welcome to fatherhood you two." I murmur, with a smirk on my face.Dean and Holden's faces change instantly, their eyes wide and huge smiles on their faces."Both of us?" Holden asks."I'm gonna be a daddy?" Dean questions incredulous
"Rose for the lady?" A smartly dressed man asks us at the table, holding a basket of beautiful red roses.Dean goes into his jacket pocket, and pulls out his wallet, and hands the guy.. A what? Is that a fifty pound note? I've never even seen one before!The guy gawks and widens his eyes, but takes the note,"All of them." Dean states.The guy just places the basket on the table and leaves.'All of them?" I question in shock.Dean just nods with a smile.I blush and take out a rose, pressing it to my nose and take a sniff; it's so beautiful.Our deserts arrive; a vanilla cheesecake with cherry syrup for Holden, poached pears and creme freche for Dean and warm chocolate brownie and ice cream for me."So, Lizzie.. How are you feeling about the impending birth?" Dean asks over his desert."Nervous.. Not sure how I'
I'm laying on the hospital bed in a bright white sterilise theatre room, doctors on my lower half, and a blue paper towel sheet shielding my vision to the operating site.I want my mates!I'm so scared!Why aren't they here?My lips start quivering; a nurse tells me it's a reaction to the anaesthetic. I wish it would stop so I could concentrate!"Holden! Dean!" I beg, tears forming in my eyes."They'll be here in a moment." Dr Jules tells me.I lay back, and stare at the ceiling.I can do this.I am ready to become a mother; I've waited long enough, right?All of a sudden the doors to the room swing open and my mates walk in, rushing to my side."I'm scared." I whisper to no one in particular."Everything will be fine baby." Holden hushes,"We are right by your side and will help you through this sweetheart." Dean kisses my fo
I'm aching to open my eyes, I'm already sick of being blind to the world.~*~Three long hours of hearing my children cry and listening to my mates talking, I get beyond frustrated."Will someone help me open my eyes or get out!" I snap.I hear sighing and then the voice of Dean, "I'll speak to the doctor.. See if we can do something."Then I hear a door open and shut with footsteps disappearing from earshot."Lizzie please calm down." Holden murmurs, stroking my cheek soothingly.I grumble, but calm down.I soon hear people entering the room, and quiet muttering between people."Lizzie, I can give you a drip which should flush out the medication. That should help you regain your sight soon enough. Does that sound good?" The doctor says in a hushed voice.I nod, "yes please" I whimper.I feel a slight tugging at the IV in my hand, and then a chill as the fluid seeps into my vein.Within half hour I have the abil
Sat in the rocking chair in the boys nursery, I feed them both feeling relaxed; hoping this talk would go well."Baby! I'm home!" Holden calls from downstairs.I mind link him rather than shout; the twins are drifting off to sleep.'I'm up in the nursery.' I say,'Alright.' He replies.I then hear his feet pad on the stairs as he ventures upstairs.He comes and stands in the doorway, with a smile on his face, "you look so relaxed baby. It's a pleasure to see you so calm." He compliments quietly.I grimace, and sigh, "I feel it yeah.. But I'm kinda stressed.""What's up?" He walks closer."Just let me put the boys down and we'll talk" I carefully shuffle off the chair and up to a standing position, and place the boys in their cots.I follow Holden out of the room, shutting the