“But we were not there with Samantha, Gail. Even though they have a plan he can just simply be with me and not do those things he did for me. He could just be there and let me do my own thing because Samantha’s not around,” I explained.She looked at me with so much suspicion, “So you really have something for him huh?”I smiled at her even though I knew she could see how sad I am, “Gail, with that short period of time, I knew him unexpectedly. Even though I do not know much about him, he made me feel that I am safe with him. That he will protect me. Those times that I am hurting because of Xavier, I didn’t expect him to be there but I am so thankful that it was him. I didn’t feel alone. He guided me and took care of me. I’m not sure if I’m just assuming things or he really did make me feel that way. Except you and Sister Mona, he was the only one who made me feel that way. That’s why I am confused now. Knowing that I still have feelings for Xavier even just a bit. I have loved him fo
I suddenly felt weak. I don’t even know why I feel this way. It was as if there’s new baggage that I had to carry.The way he looked at me before he left scares me. I feel like he would stay away from me after this.I don’t want to lie to him, I still like Xavier. I just know to myself that I couldn’t just remove it right away, although my feelings for him are not the same as before. If I was hopeful before that we could still fix things between us but I don’t expect anything anymore.I wanted to tell Lucas about that but he didn’t let me finish. Maybe he thinks that I was just flirting with him.Is it really that, Veronica? Are you just flirting with him? What do you really feel towards Lucas?I almost pulled my own hair as I thought of that. I also lost my appetite and didn't even do anything. I don’t remember how I was able to go in my room and change my clothes. I felt so heavy so I let myself cry until I fell asleep.I woke up feeling thirsty. I pushed myself to get up and get so
I was like a baby crying on his chest. All we could hear was my sobs and his soft curses sometimes. He hugged me tight and I felt like he was doing that to protect me, and just like that he calmed my mind and my heart even though my tears continued to flow.“Come here,” he said softly and tapped beside him. I was sitting calmly on the single sofa while he was sitting on the long sofa. After I cried, we decided to go inside my apartment and stayed silent. I didn’t say anything and just let him wonder his eyes on me.He walked towards me and sat in front of me to match my gaze. He tucked some of my hair behind my ears and sighed. He looked at me softly, wanting to start a conversation.“What did he tell you? What’s making you upset?” he asked softly. My eyes started to tear up again but I managed to stop it from falling.“Let’s stop this,” I said feeling heavy. I saw how his jaw clenched and how he looked at me deep. I couldn’t look back so I looked away.“What did he tell you?” I cou
Walking up the next morning was exhausting. I haven’t done anything yet but I already feel tired. I wanted to take a rest but I couldn’t skip work. So, I endured the heaviness in my insides.After fixing myself, I decided to skip breakfast and go straight to work. But I almost wanted to jump back into my room when I saw Lucas, seriously looking at me while he was waiting for me outside of my apartment.I couldn’t move much; I felt my heart beat so fast; I couldn’t stand firm. And hell, I couldn’t even talk!I looked away to avoid his gaze. I really don’t know what to do, I’m not expecting to see him here. I wanted to think for the meantime, that’s why I’m trying my best to ignore and avoid him. I needed time for myself. I can’t just accept anything that Xavier said. He’s accusing me of something that I am not.He kept his gaze on me for more than a minute before he walked towards me. I was shocked to the point that I stepped back after his move. He tried again but I still stepped back
“You two should talk. Call me if there’s something wrong, okay? I’ll leave now,” he said in his deep voice. After that, he left without looking at me. I couldn’t do anything but to watch him leave. “What the fuck is that? We just broke up, Veronica!” Xavier shouted. I looked at him in disbelief. What the hell is he thinking again? I controlled myself and looked away, what is his problem? “Tell me honestly Veronica, do you have a relationship with that man?” he asked madly. And I almost wanted to laugh at his reaction. My heart hurt with that, there’s a line of hope that wanted to rise on my heart. Why is it that every time I accept that he doesn’t love me, he will give me mixed signals? Why does he have to do this? Why does he have to make it hard? To make it complicated? It took me a lot of courage to finally accept that but here he is... ruining it for me again. “He’s the reason why you broke up with me?” anger is very obvious in his eyes. As if in his mind, he's already cal
We saw Miss Marisa when we got down but she ignored us. Lucas then pulled me even closer to him. We decided to try other restaurants near the resort. It was a grill resto, I let Lucas order our food since he got the best choices so far.We were drinking our coffee as we waited for our food. He was staring at me and I was staring at him too so I didn’t mind.I like us this way, even though we weren’t talking I feel at peace. I don’t feel any problem at all. I am genuinely calm and relaxed.He took his phone and took my picture. I raised my eyebrow on him but he just smiled.“I’ll take a picture. Smile,” he said. I just shook my head and instead of smiling on his camera I made a face that made him chuckle.I laughed and he just took another shot. I smiled sweetly for the last chat.“Is it alright if we go back to Manila later than the scheduled time?” I asked.He just looked at me questioningly for a while before nodding and smiling at me.Our food was served and we just ate in silence.