Chapter 40

HINAPLOS ko ulit ang aking tiyan. Ano kaya talaga ang naramdaman ni mommy noong pinagbubuntis niya ako? I don't know. All I know is that right now, I am happy and sad at the same time. Happy because I won't be alone anymore. I've been alone for how many years pero dahil nandito na siya, hinding hindi na ulit ako mag iisa. Sad... sad because I can't give him or her the life he or she deserves. I can't give a complete family.

Pumikit ako ng mariin. My love, you will not be abandoned. I will love you with all of me. With all of my heart. I will not keep people who won't love you. I will never let anyone hurt you. That is my promise to you.

André did not want a child, in the first place. Siya mismo ang may gustong mag pills ako. Ayaw niya dahil gusto niya lamang akong gamitin. In every way. Physically, mostly. And he needed me for the information.

Hindi ko na siya kailangang isipin. It will only give me a slight hope when I shouldn't hope at all.

"Whatever happens, I am not going to do th