Forget it

Anna

They aren’t there when I wake, and it cripples me. My heart races as I pull my knees to my chest, all alone in way too much bed.

I scared them away. This whole crazy thing scared them away.

I have to take a breath before I force myself out of bed. My hands are trembling as I grab a spare t-shirt from Riven’s open drawer. I tug it on and prepare myself to face the news.

Prepare myself for the crushing blow of having them both change their minds and throw me away.

It wouldn’t be the first time.

I head downstairs slowly, being so quiet on the stairs. I peek around the corner at the bottom, listening out for any sign of them.

The kitchen door is open at the far end. I hear low voices and wonder what they’re saying about me.

If they’re working out how best to let me go.

I could cry as I head closer, teeth gritted tight so they don’t see me break, but when I reach the open doorway it’s not a load of thanks but no thanks excuses waiting for me, but smiles and open arms and a fresh pot o