Well Aware

"I hope you're right, Saint. You see, Rosette is both metaphorically and literally on fire right now and I'm the biggest target… but to be completely fair, that's how it always is. I just pissed off the Carson Crew more than usual with my last move," Elio explains with a tired sigh, "I'm slowly but surely over-powering what little territory they still have around here. They don’t like that. Of course, nobody likes a monopoly and I promised I would stop and leave them alone, but that was a lie. I want them out of here completely. So… The Carson’s are a small but significant thorn in my behind at the moment, as you can imagine.“

"Yeah, I get it. And I can help with that," I assure him, because I know I will. Eros scoffs at my comment but I chose to ignore him, "I'm confident I can help you get rid of them. All I need is some time to see how they move and create a plan. I've heard about the Carson Crew but now I’ll be closer to them. In no time, I'll get rid of your biggest enemies and you'll be able to relax."

"They aren't our biggest enemies… or the only ones," Eros butts in, as if he knows anything about this shit. I try to control my eye-roll, but I can't, "All of our supposed allies are also our enemies. We can't trust anyone. We’ll never be able to relax.”

"Son, Saint is well aware of that," Elio says, "While he was in Alopen Valley, some gang tried to burn down our lab and Saint was on the frontline, getting rid of them successfully. All of them, he wiped the whole gang out.”

"By killing them?" Eros asks, giving me a disapproving look while Elio tries not to roll his eyes as well. He also fails, "So that's all you do, you just kill people?"

"Yes," I easily respond, "I killed them before they managed to burn down hundreds of thousands of dollars in drugs and equipment. If that's too much for you to handle then this isn't for you, Birdie."

His eyes narrow and he looks at his dad as if he's expecting him to jump to his defense. Elio remains silent, though. He doesn't want Eros here either, so he's not going to contradict me.

"Don’t call me Birdie," he spits out at me, then crosses his arms. Such a brat, "I can handle it, I just think there's other ways to fix things."

"There aren't," Elio says with a strong tone, "And just like Saint said, if you can't handle that, this isn't for you. Trust me, boy, killing someone isn't the worst thing we have to do around here. And you should know that, since you want to be a man so bad. I won't be sheltering you anymore."

"I can handle it," Eros repeats stubbornly. His dad sighs and returns his eyes to me.

"Another thing, Saint, the HS lives in the security home, which is a small house in my backyard. On my main house, we call it The Cage," he explains and I just nod because I already know I'm going to be living there. And I also know... "Birdie, if you're serious about being a part of this, you stay at The Cage as well."

Eros' light gray eyes are insanely expressive. He looks at his dad with so much emotion there, it's like I can read his mind. I know this is about his mom and sister.

"I can't," he shakes his head. Elio takes a deep breath and tries his hardest not to crumble as well, "Dad, I can't."

"You have to, Birdie. Is the safest place in Rosette. You either stay there or you go back to your apartment, but in that case you have to forget about this," Elio says, putting his foot down.

I don't care about Eros' decision right now. Either way, he will end up living there. Whether he makes a little tantrum right now or not.

Because he's already getting obsessed with me. Annoyingly obsessed. And there's no way of stopping it. Apparently, when humans get bonded to a werewolf, they lose all their logic and go completely insane.

Or maybe it's just my mate who’s a crazy fucking bastard. He's going to make my life a living hell. And yet, somehow... I will marry him.

In the path we're in right now, we will end up married in six months.

Six. Months.

I don't even want to look at why. Or how. But I saw myself at a wedding in some beach and I was smiling at him.

I'll try to get away from this path as much as I can because, what in the fuck? Seriously, this is the absolute worst thing that's ever happened to me.

Eros will be my borderline abusive partner and there is no way of getting away from him because my wolf loves him, even if he's psychotic. Seriously psychotic.

He's jealous, obsessive, needy, demanding and possessive of me. That means I can't do shit without him flipping out.

Men or women, I can't look at them anymore because Eros will lose his shit. And even if I personally don't give a shit about his hurt feelings, my wolf does. Every time.

And that's not even the worst part.

It's the sex.

Eros is a very sexual person. I haven't stopped to pay attention to anything, but I know we're going to be fucking a lot.

But I don't want to think about it yet. Hell no.

It's not going to be really me, though, it's my wolf. I'm just unlucky enough to have the future memory in my head already.

Of his naked body.

Ugh, ew.