James POV /// I can't believe I lost control like that.. and I can't even put it on Sins card.. it was all me.I was heading to talk to my men at the border after the unnerving talk with my Beta when I heard her talk about her being a part of the pack for the first time! Like what the fuck?!?! And when I pulled her with me I was mad! It's an Alphas duty to take care of our species, even halfbloods.. he left her alone, all this years she was alone.Now I understand why her wolf is a newborn soul and she has no idea of how it all works. Half bloods are often weaker and a lot died during the shift, that's when newborn souls start to appear and no wolf took care of her , so she ended up knowing nothing!But my anger faded the moment she started to tremble with fear and cry. After the moment we shared in the office I forgot that I'm still a feared monster, and a complete stranger to her. It's only natural she fears me as soon as she sense my mood.I stilled in my tracks and turned around
Lilian left over a week ago and since than I didn't heard a single word from her. I don't know where exactly she is, what she is doing , how she is doing and I am going crazy. We have been married for not even two weeks and I am longing for her , miss her like she was away for months and I am about to loose it !!And again I can't put it on Sin, who has curled himself in a ball and constantly howls, this is all me.. I miss her, her soft skin, bright eyes, the red hair and to make it worse the fading of her scent is driving me insane!!Is it the mate bond we formed when we marked each other , or is it something else?What if she is never coming back?She didn't want to be here in the first place and I should let her go like I promised so I call Andros." Alpha what can I do for you" his annoying voice greets me." What are the debts of Lilians father?" I ask" Why do you want to know that?" he asks confused. " I want to pay the off.. All of them" " Wha.. why?"" Because I want to ..
James POV///" Did.. did she just say she is pregnant?" I ask no one in particular, still looking in the direction she walked off.Why.. what.. I don't understand!" Did she knew that when she signed the divorce papers?" I ask and turn to her father." Well.. you send them and she thought that.." He starts but I cut him off." Is that a yes?" a vicious growl left me, a lot louder than I intended to but I couldn't hold it as my anger is rising again.' Don't scream at her father, it's your fault ' Sin jumps to defend Maurice.' How the fuck is that my fault?' I ask him.' She went out to be with her parents after one of your flings insulted her and you jumped to the conclusion she don't want to be with us and send her the divorce papers instead af trying to speak to her. What did you think her reaction would be? You almost made us loose her' he snarls at me.'Shut up Sin' ... what a lame retour but I don't have a better one because he is right.I didn't try to contact her once in this w
Lilian POV///I watched as my mom processed the words she heard just now. I never knew how much the denial of our existence from Alpha Deren hurt her, but it should have been clear from the start. She may be a human but werewolf blood still runs in her vains, the need to be accepted and be near a pack runs through her vains.She still longs for an Alphas attention as much as we all do." Mom you should convince dad" I interrupt their talk." Why should I convince him, he would be happy" she says." He wasn't. He said he just couldn't leave, said something about ehm .. if I would be in his place would I have joined back a pack that demanded to kill my mate and child, and something about how week and gutless he is for going back to the people that were hostile towards his family and how he seems to not be able to leave " James trys to recreate their conversation. " But I think if you tell him how much you want that he can't say no, he never could say no to you, remember?" I say, smili
James POV///I just stand there and look at her blankly, she is afraid of me but don't want me to leave .What should I do?'Stay' Sin purrs.' Not as long as you are not in control of your..' I start but stop wheni feel him retire to the back of my head, leaving me alone.I guess I stay than..I slowly walk up to the bed, undressing myself and sliding towards my crying Lily pulling her close to me." I'm sorry" she whispers and I start to laugh. " What are you apologising for?" I ask in disbelieve. " For always being a scared cry-baby. I think it gets worse due to the pregnancy " we look at each other and start laughing. " I'm alright with that. Although I don't understand how you were so bold at your home , I liked that side of you" I say calmly and turn around to lie on my side, facing her.' I still have a hard on because of you, you know that you have to do something about that' I mindlink her and lean forward , close enough to touch but staying still and waiting for her to co
We worked together till noon and I slowly showed her what I do, the businesses, pack work, bills, patrol and showing her what her work would be after tomorrow. Suddenly she jumps up " Tomorrow!!" " Yes.. the Luna ceremony. What wrong with that?" I ask with a raised eyebrow. " I don't know anything and I need a dress right ? What is going to happen? Do I have to prepare something?" she rushes out in one breath and I giggle." No , it's like a second wedding just this time I will be the priest. I will initiate you into the pack, binding our blood, making you part of the pack fully and demanding the pack to accept and bow before you. You can wear your wedding dress or we can stop on our way to our dinner and buy you a new one " I explain. " I want a new one " she states confident. " Consider it done. Let go right now." " are we already done with the work?" she asks surprised." yes" " Than why did you work so long in the last weeks?"" Because of the rogue attacks that happened re
Lilian//I woke up really early in the morning , feeling sick I rushed to the bathroom just in time!I really hope it won't happen every day, I hate to throw up.It's disgusting and it burns my throat and I can't breath properly!!" Hey are you okay?" a sleepy and hoarse voice sounds behind me, followed by steps and a shiver runs down my spine.Really? I am getting horny while throwing up? How sick is that!!" I think my system is broken" I whine just as another wave of nuances hits me.James gets on his knees behind he, pulling my hair into a bun and caressing my back making me feel calm and more horny at the same time." Are you seriously aroused right now?" he growls lustful." As I already said: I think I'm broken" I say and giggle." No you're just pregnant " he says smiling at me." Pregnancy sucks" I state and he laughs." I will go and ask May to make you a tea while you get ready. Will you be OK on your own for a minute?" he asks me and tears well up in my eyes at his care."
James//As I carry Lilian to my room I get nauseous from the worry and link Ellis." Come to our room ASAP! Lilian has a fever!" ' Is she sick? or is something wrong with the pup?' Sin asks , also worried.' I don't know, but the doc is on his way. Please stay calm no matter what he does!' I tell him and he nods in agreement.I put her to bed and sit down besides her, holding her hand." James I'm fine, it's just a high temperature from the stress and nervousness, nothing to worry about" Lily trys to calm me." I will feel better as soon as doc checks on you" I say determined and she nods, defeated. The feat to loose her is breathtaking! I don't even care for the pup, she can get pregnant again but if something is going to happen to her I definitely will loose it!I may not had much time with her but I deeply and sincerely care for her! I need her, she can't leave me, I think and start to panic just as Doc's scent hits my nose and I rush to the door to let him in." I'm here, no ne