chapter 4: An innocent talk

We sat there for a while before she suddenly speaks, her head still buried in my chest.

" W-why did he growl at me? Did I say something wrong?"

" No, you didn't. You just confirmed something I've been trying to tell him since the ball. And he didn't growl at you, well not directly. He already dislikes the council and the fact that you confirmed that you don't want to be with him, made him more angry as he already was" I explain to her.

" Can I ask you something?" I want to know a lot of things and I don't know where to start , and luckily she nods.

' Ask about her mate' Sin suggested, well that is a god start.

" What happend between you and your mate?"

She takes a deep breath and entangles herself from me, still not looking up.

" Well we met when I was sixteen, I just came back from board school to study at the University in our pack and I practically ran into him in the hallway. He said he recognised me as his mate, like he felt some pull towards me or something like that and we started dating. He was nice and conciderate , knowing my age he didn't try anything with me and I know, well I knew that he had woman and I understood that to a sertain point. We dated for two year and I thought it was long enough to try and get , well you know" she says looking at me with a questioning expression.

" To get intimate with your mate" I state and she nods.

"My parents throw me a small surprise party for my birthday last month , not big of a deal just some of my friends and my mate. The party was almost over and I hadn't spent much time with him so I decided to search for Phil and take a walk , go somewhere private. Long story short, I searched for him in the whole house with no luck so I walked out into the forest. There he was, fucking my best friend, on my birthday, at my home. That's the point my understanding died out. I let him do what he wanted , never said anything but my best friend? And that to be on my birthday while I was just some feet away? I mean there is a line , and he didn't just cross it, he destroyed it. I rejected him there, while they both were still half naked and told Mila to go and die"

" I'm sorry that you had a shitty mate" I say, caressing her cheeks, and she smiles sadly at me.

" How did you end up at my party? Was it some kind of revenge?" I ask, making a random conclusion but she shakes her head.

" No, that is a family problem. My father has huge debts and the council was sick with his excuses. They send him to prison and with my mom sick, I'm aperently the only one who can pay off his debts. He sits in prison while I work for the council in whatever way they need. They said I have to go to the party just to fill the room with young , pretty girls and after that I will work for them. They never wanted me to end up as your wife but suddenly Andros came and said if I marry you without throwing a tantrum they let my father out of prison and he will be working the debts off.. so.." She explains.

' I will kill them, I will kill them all' Sin growls in my head, angry that they blackmailed her.

' Calm down! ' I growl back, I'm so done with his attitude . Why me? why am I stuck with this fucking wolf.

" What happend at our wedding? Why did they drug you?" I ask , suddenly remember how she was.

" I was ready with hair and make up when Mila came in. I was angry and told my mom to get her out before I kill her, I was so angry the memories started to come back, I was I don't know.. But before I could calm down it got worse when Phil showed up wanted to talk to me, tried to explain and I- I broke down. I hoped to never see them again and I didn't want nor need to hear his bullshit.. there is no reasonable explanation to what he did. My father came back and throw him out, but it was to late I was on the edge on loosing it, and as I said the council let my father out of prison under the condition that I marry you without a tantrum. For someone who don't know the story between me and them would have thought that the scared little girl freaked out because of her soon to be husband.. They would have locked my father back and it was time to dress and go out so my parents improvised . My mom is, like I already said, sick, and she has strong painkillers that shut her completely down. They gave me a half, just enough to stop me from breaking and giving me time to calm down."

' Poor girl' Sin howls.

" If you want , I can pay your father's debt, than the council don't have a hold on you.. and.. you could leave" I suggest and get a growl form Sin.

' You want her to leave? No no no .. she is mine!' he growls.

' Sin I don't want her to leave, I want to give her an option. She is here because she has no other choice. ' I reason with him.

" I- I... do you want me to leave? Why? Did I say something or.." She starts but I cut her off.

" No. That's not what I meant to say. I pay your father's debts, than you are free from the council. I didn't say you have to leave, I say you can if you want to. I am forced to marry because the fuckers think I'm obligated to produce an heir, like some sort of breeding machine. But that doesn't mean you have to stuck with me, it's my duty not yours" I say and than add" Although my wolf will probably kill me and the whole council if you really decide to leave" .

She laughs, thinks its a joke.. Well it wasn't.. Sin is going crazy in my head for even giving her the option to leave.

" Well how about we talk your wolf out of killing you and I leave , so he can go and kill the council?" she jokes back and a smile creepes up on my face.

Sin doesn't take it as funny at all and forces himself back, again.

" No" he growls and I was ready for her to run away but instead she leans forward, perking our cheek and wrapping her arms around our neck.

" Don't leave" he purrs, his hands on her waist, face on our mark.

" I won't." She assures him, and he relaxes , giving me back control.

I wanted to send her away, we had a good talk and it should be it but I can't. The longing for love, and care is as present as ever and the optimistic bastard that I call my wolf in purring at her touch so I let myself enjoy it for the moment. I wrap my arms around her, pulling her closer to me, smelling her delicious scent.

Before I can stop myself I start to kiss her neck at the spot my mark is, emidiatly feeling myself getting harder under her.

I kissed her neck, ear and cheek but I want more.. I'm not even sure if this is me or Sin .. but I want more.

" Look at me" I tell her softly, trying not to scare her more than she already is.

Lilian slowly turns to look at me" if you're not comfortable you can say so, I won't force you to do something you don't want" I assure her.

" I- isn't that mmy duty as your w-wife?" she stutters, I shake my head.

This girl is unbelievable... she was forced to marry, stayed still though our wedding night and even after I offered her freedom she still thinks of duty.

' I don't know how I can explain it to her Sin ' I tell him.

' Let me speak to her' he says eagerly.

" Lilian Sin wants to talk to you." I say carefully and she nods.

" I'm sorry if I scared you earlier " he says as soon as I gave him just enough control to talk, but not enough so I can push him back.

" It's OK, I'm naturally jumpy" she says, smiling sweety, but here posture tells another story.

Sin carefully caress her cheek " I really like you, a lot!, you know? I don't want you to do something because you think you have to. I want you to want that , to want us" he purrs in her ear, kissing her cheek and going back to look at her, waiting for an answer.

I have to admit, the way he said what I couldn't was quite nice. ' I'm impressed with you consideration. Nice job for someone who is labelled as heartless monster' I tell him and he smirks arrogantly... bastard..

" I don't know.. I never.. I mean I..." She has obviously trouble to explain herself.

' What is she trying to tell us James?' Sin asks.

' She was never touched before, remember? She don't know what she likes..and she is just eighteen years old, she doesn't even know what she wants' I try explaining her mean.

" Why don't we just talk, get to know each other?" we suggest, as we share control.

She smiles and nods, that's a good sign.

" Tell me something about your wolf, or maybe show me?" Sin suggested happily.

" EHM.. her name is Kora but ehm.. it's a name I gave her since she can't talk.. or doesn't know how..I'm not sure. And since she can't explain herself I can only assume things and I don't even know how you do that.." She says gesturing at us talking in sync.

"But I can tell she likes you" she quickly adds.

At this news Sin go's hywayer and I have to push him away.

" First of all: Never ever tell Sin something like that if you don't want him to fuck you senseless right where you are" I say , taking hard breaths as I try to keep him locked .

" And second how do you know that?" she doesn't answer my question and I look into her eyes, big eyes...

Shit I shouldn't have said it that way!

" Lilian?!." I call her , grabbing her face " It's alright. I'm sorry I shouldn't have said that" I apologise and give her a small kiss on the nose, making her giggle.

" can you repeat your question? I was in in shock state and didn't listen" she confesses, face getting red.

" I asked how do you know she likes him?"

" Well everytime.. expect our meeting in the hall, when we meet him, she purrs like a freaking cat and literally rolls abound in my head. It's kinda unpleasant " she says making an awkward face.

" Does she do that often?"

" No , she don't like people much. I mean she likes my relatives and some of my friends and well she liked our mate but she never did .. that.." She says showing me a roll with her hands.

I wonder why our wolfs like each other so much? I mean the moment Sin saw Lilian he got crazy and now Lilian tells me her wolf is crazy about Sin...

" Do you know why your wolf doesn't speak?" I ask curious.

" No and she doesn't either. But from what I understand every wolf knows his name when he awakes inside us.. and she .. Well she didn't had one" Lilian says, leaves me stunned.

" And I assume you don't know what that means?" I ask and she shakes her head.

" Lilian that means your wolf is a newbord soul, while you are eighteen years old and she may have grown inside you this whole time, she is like a baby. That means she just has to learn how to do it" I explain and her eye go wide.

" So you say we could teach her and than she could actually talk to me, like others do?" she aks exited.

" Yes we can teach her, but now right now. We would have to let Sin and Kora have full control and I don't trust him to keep cool near you, or especially near your wolf. Buy maybe it will help once we are fully mated, I don't know, I never met a newborn soul before" I say drifting of in my thoughts, not even realising thr gasp that leaves Lilian.

"W-What do you mean once we are fully mated? Aren't we already? I-I mean you marked me and we .. we slept together " she blurts out, nervously, making me smile.

Goddess she is so innocent " Yes but we are mates now, that means you have to mark me too." I explain as simple as possible.

" I.. I have to bbbbite you??" she asks shocked.

" Yes you do" seeing her blank expression I sign and add" You don't know how to do it, am I right?" I assum amused and she nods shyly.

" I can teach you, it's not that hard. We can do it right now, it's not that complicated " I suggest and her face heats up.

" Does.. doesn't that mean that we have to have.. ehm..." her face is red and her previous calmness gone.

" No we don't have to have sex for that" I say, trying hard to suppress my laughter.

" Look at me and focus on what I'm saying. Imagine Your fangs grow, imagine how that would look like, how it would feel. See them grow before your inner eye, like that" I explain and let my own grow so she has a visual comparison.

She observes me intensively, than closes her eyes.

I don't know but seeing her watch me that intense make my skin heat up.

"Yes" she squeaks when her fangs elongate.

" See, easy. Now all you have to do is bite me, right here." I say and point to the spot on my neck, suddenly exited to let her bite me, exited to feel her, all of her, to feel the connection.

She slowly inches closer placing her mouth on my neck but don't push her fangs in.

" You don't have to be afraid, it won't hurt or anger me. Just bite down" I try to comfort her.

I feel her body tense and her hands grab the collar of my shirt before she sinks her fangs into my skin.. the burning sensation is breathtaking and I grab her waist, pulling her closer to my throbbing dick, suppressing a moan.

She slowly pulls her fangs out, licking the wounds what makes me shiver and I start to feel her emotions as they fload me.

As soon as she faces me I crush my lips against hers , kissing her hungrily.

That's not my hunger, nor is it hers.. it's her wolfs. Since they two have no idea about anything, they don't know how to separate their emotions and how to lock them away from me.. from us...

" I know We said you don't have to do something you are not comfortable with, but I want you. And I want you right now. say yes.. I beg you say yes" I mindlink her, still kissing her like a starving man...