chapter 3: Avoiding her

I woke up early in the morning Lilian still fast asleep , I take a shower and sneak out of the room without waking her.

I asked May, our cook, to bring me my breakfast to my office.

" Good morning Alpha, here is your coffee and I made you your favourite chicken sandwich." She says while placing it infornt of me.

" Thank you, May"

" So how is your beautiful wife?" her joyful voice makes me nauseous.

" Still sleeping"

" Should I make her breakfast too?"

" I don't know ask her" I say harsher than I intended too but May takes the hint , bowing slightly and running out of my office.

I left before she woke up on purpose, I don't want to face her.

Not after the wedding and her mate and especially after our night.

' I would love to see her. And the night was good, I bet she liked it' Sin purrs.

' Please just shut up. You wanted her, we got her. I did my duty now leave me alone'

'What duty? Are you seriously trying to tell me you didn't like the taste of her ? Didn't like how she felt.. how you felt inside her? Are you trying to tell me that you won't touch her again?' Sin growls.

' That's exactly what I meant. You can't possibly ask me to force myself on her... again!'

' We didn't force her, she enjoyed it'

' She was forced to marry us!! Her mate came to our wedding, remember? And I don't think that it's usual that the bride trembles with fear on her first night with her husband! ' god my wolf can be so unreasonable!

' Why did we marry her if we can't have her? If you insist on ignoring her and don't let me see her you know..' Sin starts

' I know you will go rampage, I remember. That doesn't mean we will go there right now. Let her sleep and comming to peace with the fact that she is married and now mated to the most feard Alpha' I explain to him, hoping he won't push me and to my relief he retires in the back of my mind, giving me the much needed peace.

He isn't completely wrong though. The night was great, I enjoyed being inside her, touching her soft skin, knowing that I'm her first and only and when I marked her a strange feeling of peace settled in. What concerned me was the fact that Lilian did not once moved or talked. She was lying there like , well like she had no choice. Her body reacted positively at my touch and I tried my best to be gentle while moving inside her and wihle bitting and marking. Still that should have hurt but not once did she make a sound like she was afraid I would get angry and consider my reputation it was exactly that!

They whole night she was afraid to do something that could make me mad.. I remember asking her if she is comfortable with this but instead of answering my question she just asked me to be gentle.

And I am back at the thought of her fearing and hating me and my wolf.

I'm married for not even a whole day and I'm already emotionally exhausted , enraged and even Sin growls angry.

' I told you it will be that wat when you picked her. Maybe you should start listening to me buddy' I say to him .

' Can we go for a run and maybe kill something? I want blood!' he growls angry.

Sure why not, I'm on this with my wolf. The life is complicated enough for us and now we are married to someone who don't want us and even hate us for what we did to her...

I go out into the forest and after informing the border patrol tho stay away from the part where I will be , so we don't kill them accidentally like last time, I let Sin take over.

' Here you go, just please no innocent people please. Animals and rogues , understood?' I ask him.

' Understood ' he answers, let's out a howl and take off, running deep into the forest.

We run for a good hour before we finally smell a rogue and dash after him.

This sucker never had a chance, Sin ripped viciously into him, shredded him to pieces.

More relaxed now we slowly made our way home when we took in a known smell.

' Sin don't!' I scream in panic.

' I just want to see what she is doing here' he says , already moving in the direction.

' Why can't you listening to me just once! Don't - Don't go near her!! please don't make the whole situation worse' I beg him but am meet with deaf ears.

We reach the clearing with a small lake where she sits, her feet in the water.

Sin hides behind a Bush, at least he is smart enough not to go near her while covered with blood.

She has her hands wrapped around her, head down, her body slightly trembling and sobbing.

' What is she doing ?' Sin asks iritated.

' Crying' I answer, feeling for the half-formed bond, since she didn't mark me back , due to the fact she passed out.

' Why? Shouldn't we go and comfort her? We are her mates ' she suggested and was about to move.

' Are you nuts? She is crying because of us Sin, because of the marriage to us. Do you think our presence will be comforting her?'

My answer hurt him, I know but I have to make it clear to him.

' Sin just because you like someone it doesn't mean that they like you back. ' I add and he howls his pain away before darting back home and shifting back at the house, still half running , making me fall face forward into the steps.

' Thanks, that was nice asshole' I spat at him.

' Leave me' he spat back angry and hid himself so far away I almost didn't felt him there.

' I'm sorry buddy, I know you like her, although I don't understand why. Let's give her time and then I will try to make her like us at least a bit, ok?'

' Promise' he purrs , suddenly back.

' I promise to try' I answer ' that doesn't mean it will work though '

I walked back to my room, took a long shower and dressed myself.

I just leaved the room when my Beta linked me" Alpha you should come down here!"

Great, what now?

I walked into the foyer and found two of my men holding back the guy that stared daggers into my during the wedding.

' Is that her mate? I want to kill him' Sin growled.

' Yeah and make her hate us more?' I ask and he instantly shut up.

" What is the problem here?" I ask looking between my Beta and the guy.

" I want to talk to my mate but this fucker doesn't let me" he spat ,looking in the direction of Nicos.

" As he came here and demanded to see her I send Max to get her but he came back alone saying she refused to come and meet him, even run away into the forest" he answers.

" You are lying! My Lilian would never refused to meet me! You are hiding her away from me!" he screams.

A terrifying growl escapes my lips seconds before Sin takes over

" Your Lilian?" he growls.

" She is mine..ours!"

' Sin calm down.. calm the fuck down!!! She is his mate, its understandable for him to call her his' I try to reason with him.

' No we marked her, she is ours.' he spats and shut me out.. fuck

" I am going to Kill you if you don't leave right now!" he growls at the guy who pales, realising who he is up against.

" Alpha she is my mate and you took her away from me.. all I'm asking is a talk with her, that's all" well at least this fucker has balls, talking back to a raged Bloodlust Alpha is like signing your own death.

" I said she is mine and not yours. I don't care what you want.." He growls angry and moves his way and I hold my breath, preparing myself for his warth.

" Stop" a sweet voice sounds from the far corner of the room.

oh got lilian ....

She walkes towards us, eyes red and swollen, she must have cried a lot.

" Thank got Lilian, I knew they were holding you back from seeing me and that you would come as soon as.." He starts but gut interrupted when Lilian holds out a hand.

" No one was holding me back, I don't want to see you. That's what I told you when you broke into the dressing room and that's the same I'm saying to you now. I-don't-want- to-talk-to-you" she says to him, her voice cold.

" Please let me explain. listen to me just once!" he screams at her and Sin was about to move ' No Sin, please stay fucking put' I stoped him, thankfully.

" I don't know what you could possibly say to change the facts. I'm married and you are a gutless , horny brat. Now if you didn't realise it I will explain: My husband is not here anymore, his wolf, A Bloodlust wolf, is in control. If you don't want to die you should really leave" she says calmly to him and my wolf purrs proudly.

' You know she insulted you right now by placing you like a monster who will kill her mate?' I ask him in disbelief.

' Well I am a monster and I was about to kill this sucker' he snickers and I wish I could punch him.

" You wouldn't let him kill you, would you?" her mate asks.

" He is not a dog and I am not his owner, I don't hold a leash on him nor do I control him. If you enrage him enough he is going to Kill you and no one will be able stop him. I was just telling you the fact that you are about to die, I never said I could or would protect you Phil. If you didn't get that from the last time we spoke I can repat myself to you: I HATE YOU. GO FUCK YOURSELF. I hope you and your slut will burn in hell" she screams at him, turns around and walks away.

' What did she just say' Sin asks and I use his distraction to take back control.

" Nicos get him out if here, now" I command and my men got to work, while I moved back to my office.

So she new her mate and he betrayed her, not the other way around...

' And she don't hate us for taking her away from him, because she hates him' Sin purrs happily.

' that doesn't mean she like us Sin. ' I retour, tired from his lovesick attitude.

I ended the day and got to sleep in my old room, exhausted from everything.

......

The next morning I buried myself in work, checking the incom of our pack and pay bills.

Sin is going crazy in my head, repeating the same questions over and over again!!

' Why didn't we followed her? Why'

A slight knock on the door disturbs our fight and I get a hint of her scent mixed with fear.

" Come in" I say calm, while inside Sin is literally going nuts .

' She is here to see us. Sid she missed us? Why do you think she is here?' he babbles nervous.

Got what is wrong with that wolf!

I concentrate at the door as she hesitatingly enters , leaving the door open.. of course.

" I'm sorry if I d-disturbing you, May said she made you breakfast but , but don't have the time t-to bring it so I.. I thought that.. ehm here" she stutters , rush up to my desk placing the tray and moving away.

" That's all I- I will go and don't trouble you anymore " she blurts out and was about to leave when I called her back , on Sins behalf" Wait. come back, sit down".

I desperately tried to avoid her while Sin is determined to see her, now he won.. again.

She turns around, her fear strongly present as she sits down across the table.

" Did I do something wrong Alpha?" she asks, head low, hands folded in her lap.

" Why do you assume that ?" I ask

" I-I... Well you left the room after the wedding n-night and y-you didn't come back, not even t-tonight. And I..ehm I don't know. I am sorry " she stutters.

" So you thought that you did something wrong? And what exactly are you apologising for?"

' Stop interegating her, just say she didn't do something wrong' Sin growls.

" I don't .. I don't know ,either t-that or you dislike me" she whispers so low but we heard it and Sin takes control, shoving me aside.

"You did nothing wrong, and I really like you. James is just an asshole" his voice is much deeper than mine and she jumps at the sudden voice change, Looking up with so much fear in her eyes.

" You don't have to fear me Kitty, come closer" he purrs at her.

' Sin she is afraid, don't make her come near!' God damn, stupid wolf.

But he doesn't listen to me, holding his hand out for her.

She hesitates but gets up and moves our way, trembling, she places her tiny hand in ours.

' Please don't do some...' i start but he cuts me off, ignoring me completely.

He pulls her towards us, positioning her between our legs, slowly and to my surprise very carefully grabbing her waist and placing her on the table.

" Not so scary after all, right ?" he purrs and moves closer, burying his face in her chest.

" I like how you smell like berries" he says, taking a deep breath, Inhaling her scent, letting me slowly come forward but not giving up control.

" W-why did you avoid me?" she whispers

" Because James is an idiot, he said that you fear us to much and something about you being forced to marry us and that we should give you space and time to adjust. But he isn't right, is he?" Sin asks her, looking at her with expectation and puppy eyes.

She gives him a small smile that says more than enough.

" We didn't force you to marry us, we asked you to!" Sin growls.

" W-well you m may have asked the Council but they are not the type that asks a low ranked to do s-something, they d-demand" she answers and Sin growls in response.

' Sin let me talk to her, please ' I pled and he let me, crawling back with painful howls.

' Thank you, and.. I told you, didn't I?' I couldn't help but rub it in his face.

" Lilian?" she looks up, seeing that my wolf is gone she climbs into my lap, throwing her arms around my neck.

" It's OK. He didn't mean to harm or scare you, I even think you are the only person in this world that is truly safe near him" I assure her, while drawing circles on her back.

' thank you' Sinn purrs and hides back.

' You're welcome buddy'