CHAPTER 7

Warning: Read at your own risk.

The entire room turned into a mess. There were construction tools scattered on the floor, drafting materials on the table, and the 3D model at the center. My world almost fell apart upon remembering that I need an actual model for my plates to present for a design proposal in AD-7.

Sa sobrang pagkakaabala ko ay nasagi ng braso ko ang cutting knife at nalaglag. Akmang tutungo na sana ako upang kuhanin ito nang may maunang kumuha nito. Umangat ang mga mata ko at nakitang ibinalik ito ni Zeidan sa lamesa ko ngunit mediyo malayo para hindi ko masagi muli.

"That's a knife, Isla." He scoffed. "You can't buy a new foot."

Our conversation at the campus earlier ended with my approval to let him come over to my place but under one condition. Hindi ako pumayag na dito siya matutulog. Mariin akong nagbilin sakaniya na uuwi siya bago pa lumalalim ang gabi. It is past seven o'clock in the evening, but he insisted on leaving at eight o'clock.

"Watch me," I smirked. "I'll check-out three pairs now." I laughed upon teasing him, but shifted to annoyance when he threw his rebuttal words.

"Sige," He raised a brow, laughing. "Para paa ng manok ang ipadala sa'yo. Are you craving for adidas?"

Umikot ang mga mata ko sa hangin bago masamang tumingin sakaniya.

"It's already seven forty-five, Señor." I gave him a sarcastic smile. "Bubuksan ko pa ba ang pinto para sa'yo?"

Sandaling nanatili ang mga mata niya sa'kin. For a moment, I felt another cluster of butterflies in my chest. Pakiramdam ko ay sasabog na naman ito, ngunit nakahinga ako nang maluwag no'ng tumalikod na siya sa'kin.

Since my school materials are inside this study room, we started doing our schoolworks here since the time we arrived. I watched Zeidan leave the room until he's no longer visible in my vision. Sandaling kumunot ang noo ko sa kakaibang pakiramdam na gumapang sa sistema ko. A thought of him leaving without a proper goodbye shatters my heart. Hindi nagtagal ay inalis ko rin naman kaagad ang pala-isipan na 'yon at itinuon na lang ang buong atensyon sa ginagawa.

The door outside this room made a sound, telling me that he finally left. My eyes rolled in annoyance and frustration. Saying goodbye before leaving is a bare minimum. It's just one word of basic human decency, but it's disappointing that a man so brilliant like him could forget something ethical.

Mariin akong pumikit sandali para ikalma ang sarili. I should not be affected by his actions, even if it was disrespectful on my part. Ngunit sa hindi mawaring dahilan ay naguguluhan ako sa nararamdaman. Hindi ko makapa kung dismayado nga ba ako, o kung nasasaktan ako.

In the end, I opened my eyes to continue doing my plates. I need to finish my 3D model tonight, then finalize it with my three minor plates tomorrow before submitting it on Wednesday.

Sa huli ay napag-isipan ko na lang munang linisin ang mga gamit na nagkalat sa sahig at lamesa para ididikit ko na lang mamaya ang mga ginawa kong bahagi ng modelo sa pagbubuo nito. Akmang tatayo na sana ako para ligpitin ang mga nagkalat na gamit sa sahig at lamesa nang bumukas ang pinto ng silid.

My eyes found Zeidan standing on the doorstep with a glass in his hand. Kunot-noong tinignan ko ito nang lumapit siya.

"I t-thought you already left?" I asked, stuttering because of my confusion and unexplainable happiness.

"I didn't," He raised his hand to show me what he's holding. "I made you a glass of milk. 'Wag ka na munang magkape."

Minutes ago, there was chaos in my mind if I was upset with him or disappointed. But in a snap, I found myself throwing my arms around his body. He was stoned for a second, but hugged me back as soon as he was composed. Tears began pooling in my eyes and raced down to my cheeks.

"Isla," His voice was filled with concern and confusion. "Baby, what's wrong?"

"I w-was---," I couldn't finish my words.

Hindi ko alam kung ano ang dapat kong sabihin dahil nabigla rin ako sa pag-agos ng kakaibang emosyong hindi ko inakalang mayroon sa dibdib ko.

"I'm happy that you're here, Zeidan."

That was everything my lips were able to tell him. I walked through days like they were nothing to me. I thought I was okay because I am able to smile, breathe, and survive each day. But tonight, the stillness betrayed me. I didn’t know I was carrying that much, until the thought of Zeidan leaving hit me like a storm I wasn’t ready for.

It was like everything I’ve been keeping in finally found the cracks. The tiredness I kept ignoring suddenly weighed down my entire body. The fear I kept laughing began screaming in my chest. The pressure I’ve been pretending I could handle turns out to be suffocating.

"I'll always be, Isla." His soft voice lingers in my mind, echoing like it will never leave my memory.

"You made me feel everything I never allowed myself before, Zeidan." I chuckled as my hug grew tighter around his body.

I felt everything all at once, and they hurt more than I expected.

Naramdaman ko ang paglutang ko mula sa malamig na sahig. He carried me like a child, but I did not mind. We knew each other for less than a month, but I already grew comfortable with him more than anyone else. Umakyat ang mga kamay ko sa balikat niya habang naglalakad siya. Bahagya akong lumayo mula sa katawan nito, nananabik na matitigan ang mga mata niyang kasing dilim ng buwan, ngunit kasing lalim ng dagat kung tumingin.

He raised an eyebrow when he realized that my eyes are still watery. Nakatitig pa rin ako sakaniya hanggang ngayon kaya tumigil siya sa paglalakad at ipinatong ang hawak na gatas sa ibabaw ng lamesang nasa kuwarto ko. Hindi ko manlang naramdaman na pumasok pala kami sa silid-tulugan ko.

"How can you still be this beautiful after you just cried?" He chuckled before wiping my tears with his finger and kissed my eyelids. "Sobrang ganda mo palagi, Isla. I can never get tired of reminding you that."

When he finally placed me on top of my vanity table, I felt my heart racing again. The typical unusual and unfamiliar feeling that's been knocking on my chest since Zeidan came suddenly made sense.

Finally, I am able to name it.

My arms around his shoulder travelled to his neck, and I found myself craving for a taste of him.

"I want to kiss you." I uttered. Namumungay ang mga mata kong nakatitig sakaniya, humihiling na pagbigyan niya. Until he did.

His lips reached mine. It started softly, but I could feel his warmth until he used his tongue to knock on my mouth. I parted my lips to welcome him inside as my hands tightened around his neck to pull him closer.

I could feel his mouth sucking my tongue and licking every corner inside me. Bumaba ang mga kamay ko sa balikat niya, hindi mawari kung itutulak siya o kung hahapitin pa siya lalo papalapit sa katawan ko.

In the end, I pulled him. I sucked his tongue and it tastes like mint. Nang hindi ako makuntento ay binago ko ang ritmo ng paggalaw ko. I moved my head back and forth, sucking his tongue like it's a shaft.

Mabilis siyang lumayo sa'kin at ilang pagmumura ang binigkas bago tumitig sa'kin gamit ang matatalim niyang mga mata.

"What the fuck, Isla?" He was panting. Tumaas lang ang kilay ko rito at dinilaan ang pang-ibaba kong labi. "You should learn your lessons tonight, baby. I'll make sure that you will learn the limitations after this."

He aggressively reclaimed my lips, tasting every corner of it before he went down to my jaw. I felt the tip of his tongue there, licking me until he reached my neck. I bit my lower lip, head falling backwards. Impit akong napaungol. He bit and sucked the softest spot on my neck while his hands were busy unbuttoning my dress.

Sandali siyang lumayo sa'kin at mabilis na tinanggal ang lahat ng saplot niya. He's completely naked in front of me, showing me how ready he is to give me my punishment.

Isinunod niyang tanggalin ang lahat ng saplot pang natitira sa katawan ko pagkatapos ng sakaniya at saka ako nito binuhat bago maglakad. My legs were tightly wrapped around his hips, rubbing my femininity on his hard bulge. Nararamdaman ko ang bawat pagpitik nito na tumatama sa lagusan ko.

"Oh, Zeidan!" I moaned when he took my mounds in his mouth alternately. Sumasabay sa sarap nito ang pananabik ko na maramdaman siya sa loob ko.

Paulit-ulit niyang sinipsip ang magkabilang kabundukan ko, hinihila ang mga ito bago bitawan para lumipat sa kabila. Nang hindi ko na kinaya ang kasabikan ay mabilis akong napasabunot sa buhok niya.

We reached my bathroom and he pinned me on the wall under the shower. He continued sucking my mounds until his finger reached for my femininity while his other hand is placing me down. Lumapat ang mga paa ko sa malamig na sahig ng banyo, kasabay pa nito ang pagbubukas ni Zeidan ng shower.

He knelt in front of me, allowing the water from the shower to fall on our bodies. Sandali siyang tumitig sa katawan ko bago bumaling sa'kin, tila nakikiusap ang kaniyang mga matang sumasalubong sa tingin ko.

"Please, Zeidan." I weakly begged, giving him my approval.

Without a word, his mouth claimed the lips of my femininity and his fingers are spreading them so he could have a better access on my wetness. Lumandas ang dila niya sa kaselanan ko, dahilan nang malakas na paggawa ko ng ingay.

"Zeidan, n-no. Oh my god! Yes, ugh." I moaned when he sucked my sensitive bud and entered a finger inside me.

Mabilis ang bawat pag-ulos ng daliri niya sa loob ko hanggang sa dinagdagan niya pa ng dalawa. Three of his fingers are already pleasuring me when he pulled my right leg and placed it on his shoulder. Napakapit ako sa lababo na katabi ng shower upang humanap ng suporta at ang isang kamay ko ay dumapo sa buhok niya.

"Magpapanggap ka pa rin ba na nakalimutan mo ang ganitong sarap, Isla?" He asked me, teasing my femininity with the sudden pause of his fingers inside.

I thought he didn't notice it earlier. Nahihiya ako sakaniya, iniiwasan ko na makita niyang apektado ako ng ginawa namin. I pretended to forget what happened in his condominium when we met at the campus earlier.

Mabilis na nag-init ang mga pisngi ko, nahihiya sa sinasabi niya. Ngunit nang maramdaman ko ang dulo ng dila nito sa kaselanan ko na tinutukso ako ay mabilis na napalitan ng pananabik ang kaninang kahihiyan.

"Move, Zeidan!" I begged. "Please."

Pero hindi siya gumalaw. Nanatiling nakatigil ang mga daliri niya sa pagkababae ko, naghihintay ng sagot mula sa mga labi ko.

When I realized that he wouldn't continue without my answer, I moved my hips to feel his fingers inside me. Malutong na napamura si Zeidan at mas binilisan ang paggalaw sa loob ko.

"Binabaliw mo ako, Isla." He pulled his fingers out and stood in front of me.

Mabilis nitong inangkin ang mga labi ko at binuhat akong muli. He turned off the shower without breaking the kiss. Nang makarating kami sa gilid ng bathtub ay saka lang naputol ang paghahalikan namin dahil ibinaba niya ako sa loob nito bago siya sumunod. He turned the faucet on and allowed the water to fill the bathtub.

His hand grabbed me by my waist. Pinatalikod niya ako at pinatuwad habang ang mga kamay ko ay humahanap ng suporta. I gripped on the corner of the white ceramic shell, afraid that I might slip on its floor.

"Ready, baby?" Zeidan asked. The head of his shaft knocked on my entrance, asking for a permission to enter.

I gave him my answer when I moved my body backwards, meeting his manhood halfway.

"W-What---," I couldn't finish talking. "Fuck, Zeidan! It hurts." I bit my lower lip, enduring the sudden pain.

It stings. I didn't expect that it would still hurt during the second time, but it is more bearable compared to our first time. Nanatili ang pagkalalaki niya sa loob ko ngunit hindi siya nagtangka na gumalaw.

Nang bahagya akong gumalaw ay kaagad na akong iniangat ni Zeidan ngunit naramdaman ko ang matinding pag-iingat niya. Lumingon ako at sumilip sandali sa mga mata niya. The lust and desires in his eyes a few seconds ago shifted to guilt and worry while looking at me.

"Baby, I'm sorry. It's the position, and your vaginal walls tightened." He gulped. The pain earlier finally faded and I was able to adjust for his size again.

I dropped the back of my head on his shoulder and his lips welcomed mine. He kissed me passionately before he began thrusting inside me.

"That's what you get for being too naughty, Isla." He chuckled, but his eyes shifted back to how they were. There are burning desires within them.

I kept pushing him away, stopping myself from letting him completely in. But my soul whispers the opposite. Somehow, my arms always find their way back to him, opening so widely before my mind could close them.

I did not choose this, but I'm falling in love with how this feels.

"Isla, control it. Oh, ugh!" Zeidan's moaning with me. "Fuck, baby. Your walls are sucking me tighter. Sobrang init mo, ugh!"

"Faster, Zeidan!" I almost cried moaning. "That's it, ugh!"

May the heavens forgive me for choosing my own fate with him.