Begging for rejection

Alexandria Salvatore POV It was my birthday, I was in the kitchen cleaning up after the small party that my husband and his mother, father and younger sister Leila surprised me with. Leila was our biggest supporter, you might say, we had a rough start where both our families didn’t really approve of our relationship, she was just 17 and thought life is a romantic novel. Life was good and I finally had a loving family surrounding me and it was about to get better and bigg3 years laterToday is my birthday I'm turning 25. I get ready for work as usual… my days are all the same now, just surviving with one goal on mind ... revenge, but little that I knew, my life was about to take yet another turn... how fucked up can my life really be.I was running late this morning as I slept in, I got to bed late last night. It was always like that the night before my birthday and the few nights after, I cry all night remembering what I've lost, I hate my birthday and always will. I left the apartm

Alexandria POV  From the moment blue eyes left and his freaking blue eyes is all I can think about… and his voice, oh what a voice, it was deep and commanding yet soft.  Everything about him screamed authority and demanded attention, typical alpha, I could sense it.  What's with me and werewolves? Then it hit me, How horrible I must be, Today of all days ... the anniversary of their death, the day my life was destroyed, The day they were taken from me and I'm thinking of another man distracted with his fucking eyes... betraying Luke!  Betraying all of them… by forgetting about them, I was pulled out of my thoughts when Emmy asked if I was okay, apparently couple of tears escaped my eyes while remembering the destruction that I've caused to those who I loved the most.  "I'm fine, today is just not my day, and I’m not feeling well. Maybe

Alexandria POV  " hey babe did you see my gray hoodie? "Luke say searching the closet with his back turned to me  “You mean the gray one with red writings on it?" I answer knowing full well which one he is talking about.  "Yup, that one, the only gray one I have and you know that" he says peeking his head out of the closet looking at me with one eyebrow raised.  "No, nop I don't know which one you are talking about" I answer all innocent with the biggest duo eyes I could master.  "Funny coz you are wearing it" he says walking towards me with narrowed eyes then picks me up and go toward the bed.  "Still don't know what you are talking about” I say giggling as he puts me down on the bed putting both his hands on each side of my hips.  “Babe, take off my hoodie or I'll take it off for you,

Alexandria POV As I register what’s going on I can see that Dean is losing and his movement is somewhat sloppy, they are rolling on the floor till they hit the wall near me on my left leaving me between them and the kitchen counter. I see the other man that I now sense is a rogue, on top of Dean who can barely fight him off. The rogue raises his hands with claws out aiming for Dean’s throat so I instinctively grab a kitchen knife from the counter on my right and get between the two stabbing the rogue in the heart as his clawed hand slashes my torso “ahhhh, son of a bitch” I grunt out as I lean on the wall. It takes more than this for me to fall; I won’t fall… so I’m just leaning now. In a blink I see Derek in front of me with panic on his face trying to reach for my wound but I swat him off, “I’m okay, it’s just a scratch don’t be over dramatic” I say through gritted teeth because it hurts to even talk but I’m not telling him that. He needs to stay away and I need to get

Dylan POV “He is close. Change location. Stay hidden” I read the message on her phone before it locks. “Alpha, you need to come back here now” I mind link Derek While the doctors take care of Alexandria. Just few minutes and a disheveled half naked Derek comes running through the hallway, he finds me standing outside her door and stops right in front of me with a panicked face trying to catch his breath “What happened? Is she okay” he asks and tries to go past me into the room but I stop him, “She is resting, the doctors said not to disturb her; they say it could be post surgery stress and that this happens sometimes”. Derek sighs and shuts his eyes “It’s my fault, I shouldn’t have pushed her that far when she is in that condition”. “It’s not you or the surgery Derek; I think it was a panic attack” he looks at me in confusion and I explain about the message I read and how it scared her enough into a panic attack , she doesn’t seem like the type to scare easily. Alexandria