LUCIEN I wake up early because I have to prepare Carol before going to school. I wake up 15 minutes late, now that I'm anemic, nauseous and dizzy. I'm slower and I can't have the same agility as before, but I'm improving. Dereck gave me his room and went to sleep in the guest room as I ordered. Lazily and drowsily, he gets me out of bed and leaves the room, walking down the hallway until I reach Carol's room. “Carol, wake up... “I say, entering the room and see the empty bed. I hear voices and I walk calmly, because I recognize Dereck and Carol's voices in the bathroom. I look over and I can't believe it when I see Carol already ready and Dereck holding her hair, trying to make a bun. The two talk, laughing. Carol teaches Dereck how to make a bun and the two have fun together. This dedication from Derek moves me. “Lucien, good morning... “Carol notices my presence. They both look at me without understanding what is happening. “ Sleep well? “Derek looks at me smiling. “Yes... “I
Lucien Next morning I was sitting on the bed in the hospital clinic. After so much effort I managed to eat, as she was dying of nausea and lack of appetite. Days later I felt unwell again and ended up in the hospital again. In fact, I had severe anemia and needed care. I finish eating lunch and place the plate on the tray. I pick up my cell phone and start texting my friend, wanting to know about my sister. I'm missing my little one. As soon as I pick up my cell phone and the door opens, I see the vision of Dereck and Carol entering my room together. Carol soon runs to me, carefully sits down on the bed and gives me a hug. “ My love! “I give a lot of kisses, full of longing. “ Are you well? “Yes, but I miss you too. Dereck approaches me with a calm look. “Are you feeling better, Lucien? “ What are you doing here, how do you know “Lorena told me everything. “ It's nothing serious. Thank you and thank you for bringing my sister “ I say smiling, because I can't disguise my happi
3 weeks later Lucien I walk through the garden near my house with my sister, who is now 9 years old. She's getting more and more beautiful and it just fills me with pride. Always on Sundays, from 8am until 1pm, they close the street for walking. It's 9 am on a beautiful summer day. I wear black leggings and a black top, with a cap, and my sister is wearing yellow. Her favorite color. “Lucien, can I have a puppy or kitten?" “Of course you can, but do you promise to take good care of your pet?" “ Promise!" “Okay, this week I'll take you to an animal adoption home and you choose. “Yay! “Carol smiles, jumping. My sister has always liked animals, just like me, but since my dog died ten years ago I've never had another pet. Her name was Betsy, she was my companion and best friend. “Little brother, isn't that Dereck? “Carol points out the last man I want to see on the face of the earth. She runs happily towards him, calling him. “Carol, come back here! “I quicken my steps, wanting
LUCIENI want to hurt him at all costs. I want him to feel what I felt, to live in a dark world like the one I lived in when she simply took me out of her life as if I were nothing. “You’re no use to me.” I never forgot that phrase, but what continues to kill me inside is the way she said it, looking coldly into my eyes and having said it so easily, without even blinking. I didn't know if she ever really loved me or if it was her comfort, as she said the last time we saw each other, before I went to New York. If Dereck knew, I would leave everything for him, because he had everything here. He felt complete and anyway, he encouraged me to fight for more, but he destroyed every good thing I believed in. He made me see that love is for idiots and only serves as a consolation. That social level is much more important and now here I am. I'm on the list of the most successful.I've been in several places, until I got here, fighting to finally have the world I had left without him. I went to
LucienI am stopped, as Dereck closes the door again, blocking my passage.“ You are crazy? “Dereck holds my arm and forces me to face him. “You're the one who's crazy and has a level of infinite arrogance!“I learned that from you.“What did you call me here for, then? To humiliate me? To be arrogant and rude?"What did you expect from me?"I stare at him for a few seconds, with no answer to give him, as I was expecting the opposite. I expected a yes and not just on the proposal, but on everything. I was hoping for a yes to having him back in my life. I expected a kiss and hot sex like other times. I was waiting for that Dereck I had known for four years, who said he loved me and adored my sister. That Dereck, who today was more like a Lucifer, a traitorous angel.Dereck holds my face, puts his mouth on mine. A rough, dominating kiss, as if wanting to demonstrate who the alpha is. A good, suffocating kiss, a mix of love and hate, perhaps more hate than love.“ Let me go. “I push him
3 years laterDerekIn my room, just wearing a towel, choosing the suit I'm going to wear. I go to the wardrobe and see the shirt I wore the day I met Lucien at the strip club, a splendid night and a path to happiness, which I interrupted or which fate did not allow. I show a smile and run my hand over my dress, I close my eyes remembering the wonderful night I had. I remember his hands on me, feeling me, a touch without kisses, but one that managed to cause incredible sensations in my body. I open my eyes, returning with my feet on the ground; I close the wardrobe and finish getting dressed.I had been invited to the opening party of a multinational company called “Lucius”. An international magazine company, and one of the most expensive. This company exists in several places around the world and now it would have a branch here too. I had no idea who the partner of this company is, since it chooses a partner in each country where it has an established branch. However, I know one thin