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LUCIEN

I want to hurt him at all costs. I want him to feel what I felt, to live in a dark world like the one I lived in when she simply took me out of her life as if I were nothing. “You’re no use to me.” I never forgot that phrase, but what continues to kill me inside is the way she said it, looking coldly into my eyes and having said it so easily, without even blinking. I didn't know if she ever really loved me or if it was her comfort, as she said the last time we saw each other, before I went to New York. If Dereck knew, I would leave everything for him, because he had everything here. He felt complete and anyway, he encouraged me to fight for more, but he destroyed every good thing I believed in. He made me see that love is for idiots and only serves as a consolation. That social level is much more important and now here I am. I'm on the list of the most successful.

I've been in several places, until I got here, fighting to finally have the world I had left without him. I went to