Chapter 25 | Humanity

Raya

It’s been a week since the Adam, Blade, and Luther admitted their feelings for me. They’ve left me alone so that I can have time to process. I haven’t seen Adam at all. Blade is always near, watching me and keeping me safe, but he doesn’t interact with me and I haven’t figured out the words to say to him. I’ve seen Luther in passing. I walk into a room, he leaves it and that’s how it’s been.

I don’t know how to talk to any of them. But I feel overwhelmed with guilt for not knowing which one of them I want. For not realizing sooner that they might have feelings for me.

The choice should be obvious, I should pick and want Blade. He’s been there for me the most and has made me feel valued. But I think of Luther and his charisma and the chill that I get when he calls me his toy. I think of how I haven’t seen him take a girl to his room, human or vampire, since I came here. And from the way the boys talked apparently that had been a very common thing from him.

I think of Adam. I think