ログインI’ve been strapped in this hospital bed for four days before they finally come. Old friends from collage. I’m on a wheelchair bound walk with a supervising nurse and tranquilized. Only the tranquilizer barely numbs me.
They must not realize the immunity I’ve built is stronger than their standard dosages. Carson and Hailey Fletcher. They are twins. I’d befriended Hailey in school and had become closer to Carson because of that. He’d been in school to become a doctor. Based on the white jacket he currently wears, I can easily assume he succeeded. It looks like Hailey is visiting him on his lunch break as they walk slowly through the hospital gardens. They pause when they see me. “Chloe?” Hailey gasps and rushes towards me. “Hello, Dr. Fletcher.” The nurse behind me greets. Carson nods at her but focuses on me. “What happened? What are you doing here?” Hailey demands. The nurse behind me, likely assuming the drugs are too much to allow me to answer, says, “she went into anaphylaxis after eating some peanut butter.” “When did this happen?” Carson asks. The nurse hesitates, glancing at Hailey, but decides to answer him, “about five days ago.” “Was it this serious?” “Her husband is concerned for her health and asked us to watch her for a few extra days just in case.” The nurse answers. “I can take it from here.” Carson tells her. Luckily, the nurse nods and walks away. “How did this happen? You’re always so careful.” Hailey says. I answer, “my husband didn’t know there was peanut butter in the protein bowl.” It’s much less embarrassing than the whole truth, and I refuse to take the blame for someone else. “I can’t believe he’d make such a horrible mistake.” Hailey gasps. “Where is he? Are you alright?” I know I have to tread carefully with my next words. Carson and Hailey are my first contacts from the outside world in years. If I scare them away, or if Tom finds out and forces them away, I will be completely hopeless again. I shake my head and say, “Hailey… can we get lunch sometime. It’s been so long since we saw each other. You too, Car.” He seems a bit startled but smiles slightly. We hadn’t been as close as Hailey and me, but I still thought we were friendly enough that the request wouldn’t seem odd. “Of course… Chloe, where have you been? One day you just stopped calling and texting. You disappeared off the face of the earth.” Hailey says. I shake my head because I can’t form the words to be honest. Even if I could, I don’t think I want to yet. What if they believe I’m crazy too. What if they tell Tom? What if…. Carson interrupts my thoughts. He says, “you look like you’ve lost a lot of weight since we last saw you. Can we get you something to eat?” I smile at him stiffly and nod. Carson walks around my chair and starts to push it forward. ~ “There will be two bodyguards by the front door.” Tom tells me as we drive back to the apartment from the hospital. “They will make sure nothing happens to you again.” His eyes are on his phone as he says this. I nod along and look out the window. “You’re not to leave the house unsupervised.” He adds. “I want to go shopping.” I lie. To the driver, Tom says, “go to the shopping district.” “I want to go tomorrow. I heard nurses say there would be sales.” “We don’t need sales.” “I want to go tomorrow.” “I will go with you after work.” “The best stores will be closed by then.” I say. “I will leave work early.” He says. “Then you’ll be one your phone the whole time.” I motion to him now and he finally looks up at me. I can’t read his expression at first, but a smirk crosses his face and he leans closer to me. “Do you miss me?” he presses his lips to mine and more instinctively than anything else, I push him away. The playful gleam in his eyes quickly darkens and he grabs my wrist pulling me closer to him. I flinch back so he grabs the back of my head with his other hand, still holding his phone. He holds me in place as he leans forward and pushes his lips on mine. He holds me in place as he deepens the kiss, only pulling back when my mouth his wet and we’re both out of breath. He shoots me one last dark glare before returning to his phone. “If anything happens to this baby, your father will never return.” He says. I freeze. My father. Had I even asked about him since leaving the psych hospital? I can’t remember anymore. I look at him, nearly shaking. “What do you mean?” I ask. He looks at me with indifference. “He got sick after finding out where you were. I sent him for treatment overseas.” “Was he sick like I was sick?” I demand. His jaw tightens and his eyes darken. “No, he drank too much and got kidney failure.” “What?!” He meets my eyes more directly, “I can get him a new kidney and all the treatment he needs if you can behave. If you can’t, I will let him die.” “Tom, please—you can’t do that!” I grab his arm but he shakes me off. “I never forced him to poison himself.” I stare at him in horror. He knows how much my step-father means to me. He was the one to take care of me after my mom died. My birth father abandoned us for a new family. He’s all I have left. My hands shake until they weaken entirely. I drop my head, tears scratching at my eyes. I lightly bite my bottom lip as if suckling at it might help comfort me. “Why…. When did this happen?” My voice is small. “Last year.” My fists and eyes tighten but I keep looking down. “Why didn’t you tell me?” “I didn’t think it would help your healing.” “Can… Can I see him?” He lifts my chin with a finger. He doesn’t speak until my eyes lift to meet his, “once the baby is born,” He puts a hand on my stomach, “I will bring him back—if that’s what you want. I will get him a new kidney. Now, will you behave?” I look away from his borrowing eyes, lower my head in surrender, and nod.Preschools are hard to plan for. There’s so many different considerations. But the best ones seem to have the strangest requirements and enrollment requests.“Trinity West or Lala Madox?” I ask aloud.Tom is on the floor of my living room playing with our laughing children.He’s so invested that I almost don’t expect him to answer. But he says, “Lala Madox has a really good reputation.”“It’s insanely expensive and the admission requirements are unrealistic.” I tell him.He glances over his shoulder at me, “well… the money’s not an issue.”“They want a step by step prep guide we are expected to follow—”“what does that mean?”“I think it means we have to show how we plan on teaching our kids at home or their tutoring… and if we fall behind we forfeit our deposits.”Tom scoffs and looks back at the kids, “they’re 3. What do they need to be tutored in?”“Math…. They need to count to 5 by the time they’re admitted, and they need to be able to read at—”“Isn’t that their jobs?” He asked a
Tom takes me back to the new house. He’d insisted on going alone, but I wanted to see what he’d done with April and Hendrix.In the unfinished greenhouse is a stairway to a cellar. He tells me it’s meant to be a vintage wine cellar. But since divorcing, he doesn’t care about finishing the house anymore. He’s hesitant to bring me down, but I insist.In the cellar is April. Chained by the ankle to a supporting beam. The only light is turned on when we walk down the steps.She covers her eyes a first. Her face is dirty and bruised. Her hair – what remains of it – is in a disgruntled mess. Her eyes widen when she sees us.First hopeful, then afraid.“Please!” She cried, shuffling herself back against the pillar, “please don’t! I’m sorry! I already know I was wrong!”“What’s your brother’s name?” Tom asks.She hesitates and then a pathetic smile pulls across her face. She scoffs out a laugh and says, “Jason.”“I thought he died when you were seven.” He says.She looks down and shakes her h
I quickly call the number back. No answer.My heart is racing. I can’t describe the sickening feeling in my stomach. My body reacts in an unfamiliar way. I call again.No answer but a message comes in. It’s just an address. Followed by a message that warns me to come alone.Reason has left my mind.How could this be? How could my baby be alive? How do I get there alone?I call the number but there’s no answer. What do I do with my daughter? But I can’t leave my son.My mind can’t work fast enough but suddenly like it reached a cliff at the end of a long, deserted road, my mind stops. Somehow, I manage to calm myself. I take a breath and pull out my phone.Tom answered on the second ring. His voice is urgent. Not like he knows our baby is alive, but rather like he’s surprised to hear my voice.“I need someone to watch the baby.”He’s quiet. “why?”“I need….” I can’t tell him. What if it’s him doing this? Or what if it’s not and he decides to come with me? Will they kill our son? Will t
I shake my head.It’s been 20 minutes since the doctor left but they won’t let me leave my bed and they won’t bring me my baby.“He can’t be dead!” I scream at Tom who sits beside me, holding my arm with his eyes closed.“He had trouble breathing.” Tom whispers.“He was breathing in my arms!” I scream. “He was okay when he was in my arms!”This was it. This would be the straw that broke the camels back. This will be the thing that truly destroyed me. I can feel it.“I had him—” I cry.Tom doesn’t know what to say and so he sits in silence and says nothing. Time seems to stand still until his lawyer walks in holding a folder. He takes it, signs it, and then gives it to me.By this time my eyes had run out of tears but they were still crusted and burning.I take the forms and blink at the key word I’ve been waiting to see “divorce.”My hand shakes. Did he think this would make me feel better about our child? The void just feels empty. Endless.I take the form and sign it. I don’t read t
The ride to the hospital is chaotic. Tom refuses to release my hand in the ambulance.“I’m sorry—” He says over and over again.I ignore him as the pain in my core worsens.I let out a scream as a paramedic says, “you are doing great. We’re three minutes away.”“You caused this!” I scream, clenching his hand tighter. During our fight I’d curled over in pain. The paramedics say I’m in labour. “You did this you bastard!”“I’m sorry.” The fear in his eyes and helpless look on his face remind me more of the man I’d married. It’s suddenly hard to remind myself why I hate him.The time passed in a blur I could remember in clear detail. It took about 12 hours but finally I heard my baby’s cry.I tried to fight Tom to leave but he refused. I scream as they hand the baby to him. He hugs it and looks at me confused.Then the doctor says, “there’s another one.”“What?” He looks at the doctor, then me wide eyed. “Twins?”I close my eyes and try to forget where I am. I fail.“Congratulations. A bea
Tom sits with his head in his hands and his elbows propped up on the long table. Despite this, he keeps his eyes on the screen as Victor goes through more and more evidence of his and April’s affair, their plot to steal my child, and my unjust imprisonment at the mental institution.“Chloe—” Tom says when Victor ends another section. I look at him with as much indifference as I can manage, “None… I didn’t do any of this. I d-didn’t know.”“I told you.” I say in a cool voice.“You didn’t—”“If the roles had been reversed, I would’ve noticed something was wrong.” I decide because it feels harder to argue with.Tears start to slowly fall from his eyes as his voice breaks, “Chlo—I was trying to protect you.”Victor interrupts, “let’s move to division of property. My clients is only asking for the apartment—”After the meeting I walk out and break fresh air for what feels like the first time in years. Anna offers to bring me to my car but I ask to walk alone. I want to enjoy the sun filled
I feel when Tom gets out of bed in the morning but I don’t follow him. Yesterday, I made breakfast and prepared him for his day but all I got was punished. I wouldn’t be making that mistake again. I need rest so I can plan my escape. I need space to prepare with as few prying eyes as possible. He
I never thought I’d be happy to see April.She sees Anna, me, and Tom standing in the living room. She pauses, but then her smile broadens.“Oh, do we have guests?” She hands the shopping bags to Harry and Liam while Hendrix walks in behind her holding grocery bags.“Where would you like this, ma’a
They stare at me, wide eyed and in disbelief.Surely they can’t believe I’ve said this. I quickly lean forward, my voice low, “you can’t tell anyone. Please. I’m only telling you to explain—”“And open relationship?!” Hailey gasps in disgust and horror. “Whose idea was that?!”“Hail,” Carson puts a
I stop by the library again on my way home. Anna has replied to me with a long string of questions, demands and instructions. All I say is that I am home and I want to see her.I can’t tell her more. This should be enough to get her to come to me.I race home but traffic is bad and I can only fear







