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Harper POV
The August sun hits like a spotlight when I step off the bus, and for a second, it’s hard to tell if the heat prickling under my skin is nerves or excitement. Probably both. College. A new start. A clean page. No one here knows who I was in high school — the quiet girl with the perfect GPA and the predictable life. Here, I get to decide who I am. The student tour guide waves a clipboard in the air. “Welcome to Hartwell University! Let’s get started over by the quad!” I adjust the strap of my bag and fall in with the crowd, doing my best to look like I belong. The campus smells like fresh-cut grass and coffee, and everyone’s talking over each other — new roommates, majors, dorms, everything at once. And then I see him. Of course I do. Logan Shaw. He’s standing a few rows back, hair still that messy brown that always looks like it should’ve fallen in his eyes but never quite does. Same careless grin. Same stupid confidence. He’s got a hockey duffel slung over one shoulder, and even from here I can see how his arms have filled out since high school. He laughs at something a teammate says, loud and easy, like the world’s already decided to make room for him. My heart drops, just a little. Because for a second — only a second — I’m back in that hallway at West Ridge High, listening to him brag about skipping prom for “playoffs,” like feelings were a distraction, like people were just background noise to his goals. Guess some things don’t change. I square my shoulders and look away. The tour guide points toward the bell tower, saying something about its history since the 1800s. Half the group’s listening. The other half is either texting or staring at the girl with the clipboard. Typical. When I glance back again, Logan’s looking right at me. Not by accident. Not even pretending it’s by accident. His gaze is steady — curious, almost like he’s trying to remember if he’s supposed to know me. Then he smiles, small and lazy, like he does remember, and I instantly hate that it still does something to my stomach. I tear my eyes away and focus on the map in my hands. He’s just a guy. Just another athlete with a swagger and a scholarship. And I’m not the girl who waits around for people like him anymore. By the time the tour ends, my nerves have settled into something steadier — determination, maybe. I can already picture the next four years: classes, sorority rush, internships. A life that’s mine. But as I leave the group, I hear that laugh again — deep, confident, exactly the same as it used to sound echoing down locker-lined halls. I glance over my shoulder. Logan’s surrounded by new teammates already, his hand gesturing wildly as he talks. Girls drift past, pretending not to stare. He doesn’t notice me — or maybe he does and just doesn’t care. Either way, I tell myself I’m relieved. Because this is my new start. And Logan Shaw? He’s just part of my past. Even if, for some reason I can’t explain, the thought of him still makes my pulse skip like it’s stuck between wanting to run away and wanting to look again. —— Logan POV The dorm smells like sweat and floor cleaner — that weird mix that somehow makes it feel like home. My bag hits the floor with a thud, hockey sticks rattling against the wall. The room’s small, just two beds, two desks, one window that doesn’t open all the way. Nothing special, but it’s freedom. Cole Matthews is already there, sitting backward on his desk chair, tapping a hockey puck against the wall like it’s a nervous tic. He looks up when I walk in. Blond hair, cocky grin, and shoulders that say he lives in the gym. “Shaw, right?” he asks. “Yeah. Logan.” “Cole.” He grins, tossing the puck into the air and catching it. “You play defense?” “Yup. You?” “Center. Looks like we’ll be keeping each other alive this season.” He stands, offering a handshake that’s a little too firm — the kind of thing athletes do when they’re sizing each other up. I match it. Instant competition. Instant respect. ⸻ Later, I follow him to the rink. The place is freezing and loud — metal scraping, coaches barking, pucks slamming into boards. Heaven. Coach Rourke blows his whistle the second we step on the ice. “Freshmen, line up!” I knew college hockey would be brutal, but I wasn’t ready for this. Every sprint feels like punishment, every drill a reminder that being good in high school means nothing here. By the end, my legs are shaking. My lungs burn. Cole’s grinning like a maniac. “Still alive?” he asks. “Barely,” I manage. “Good. Means you did it right.” We both laugh, and just like that, I know he’s going to be the closest thing I’ve got to a brother on this team. ⸻ By the time orientation rolls around, we’re walking into the crowd like we own the place. We don’t, not yet. But someday, we will. The tour guide’s this perky senior with a clipboard and a too-bright smile, talking about campus landmarks and alumni donors. None of it sticks. My head’s still half on the rink — the rhythm of blades on ice, the echo of the whistle. Then, out of nowhere, I see her. Harper Lane. My brain stalls for a second. She’s standing near the front of the group, sunlight catching her hair, posture straight like she’s got something to prove. She’s different — confident, sharper, not the soft-spoken girl I remember from back home. I nudge Cole. “That’s someone I know.” He glances her way, then back at me. “You dated?” I shake my head. “Nah. Just knew her.” He smirks. “You want to know her, though.” I grin. “Maybe.” She looks over her shoulder then — not by accident. Our eyes meet. There’s a flicker of recognition, followed by a look that’s hard to read. Not shy. Not impressed either. That’s new. Most girls smile back. She just…measures me, then turns away like she’s already decided I’m not worth her time. It stings more than I want to admit. ⸻ After the tour, the crowd scatters toward the dining hall. I spot her near the edge of the group, phone in hand, pretending not to look around. I walk up, hands in my pockets. “Harper Lane. Didn’t think you’d end up here.” She looks up, expression cool. “Neither did I.” “Guess West Ridge breeds overachievers.” “Guess so.” There’s this pause, tight but not uncomfortable. The kind that feels like something could happen if one of us wanted it to. I give her a half-smile. “You rushing?” “Maybe.” “You’ll fit right in. You’ve got that whole sorority thing down.” Her eyebrow lifts. “And you’ve got the hockey player ego. Nice to see nothing’s changed.” I laugh. Can’t help it. “You always did know how to take the fun out of flirting.” She smiles, but it’s the polite kind. “You always did mistake arrogance for fun.” Then she walks off before I can come up with a comeback. Cole finds me a minute later. “Strike out already?” I shrug. “Didn’t swing.” He laughs. “Sure you didn’t.” But as we head back toward the dorms, I keep glancing over my shoulder — half expecting to see her again, half hoping I don’t. Because something about the way she looked at me — like she saw right through the act — makes me feel more exposed than all the ice in the world ever could.Cole POVThe locker room should feel electric after a game like that.Hat trick.Big conference win.Scouts practically drooling over Logan again.Everything technically back on track.Except—Nothing feels right.Marco tosses a towel into his locker and shakes his head slowly.“Okay, seriously. Somebody check if Shaw’s secretly a serial killer.”A few guys laugh awkwardly.Not because it’s funny.Because everybody knows exactly what he means.Logan sits three lockers down from me, unlacing his skates in complete silence while the rest of the room celebrates around him.No smirking.No cocky comments.No adrenaline high.Nothing.Just cold.Detached.Like he left every human emotion out on the ice.Coach is happier tonight at least.I can tell.Logan played perfectly.Focused.Aggressive.Controlled.Exactly what everybody wanted.So why does it feel like we lost something instead?“Dude looked like he wanted to fight God tonight,” Marco mutters quieter this time.I glance back at Log
Logan POVThe arena is loud tonight.Not normal loud.Playoff loud.The kind of noise that crawls into your bloodstream and turns everything sharp.Fast.Violent.Perfect.And honestly?I think I need violent tonight.Because if I slow down long enough to think about Harper—About her crying.About her saying goodbye like it physically destroyed her—I’m probably going to lose my damn mind.So instead?I skate.Hard.The puck drops and I immediately slam into their winger hard enough to send him stumbling backward into the boards.The crowd erupts instantly.Good.I want loud.I want impact.I want pain.Because pain feels easier than whatever the hell has been happening to my chest for the last week.“Jesus Christ,” Marco mutters skating past me. “You trying to kill somebody?”“Maybe.”“Cool cool cool. Healthy response.”I ignore him and chase the puck again.Everything feels clearer tonight.Not calmer.Worse.Focused in that dangerous almost-angry way.Like if I stop moving, everyt
Logan POVFor a second after Harper says it—I honestly can’t move.“I think I have to let you go.”The words hit like a body check straight to the chest.Hard.Violent.Knocking the air completely out of me.I just stare at her.Because no.No, absolutely not.That is not happening.Harper stands in front of me crying so hard she’s shaking, and somehow that makes this worse because I know she means it.She really thinks this is love.Walking away.Destroying herself to save me.And maybe that’s the cruelest part of all this.She loves me enough to leave.“Don’t.”The word comes out rough.Barely even sounding like me.Harper wipes quickly at her face, unable to fully look at me anymore.“Logan—”“No.”I move toward her immediately.Fast enough that she instinctively steps backward again.That tiny movement nearly wrecks me completely.“Don’t look at me like I’m already gone,” I say quietly.Her face crumples harder.“I’m trying to do the right thing.”“For who?”“For you!”The answer
Harper POVThe room feels too small.Like the walls are closing in around us while Logan paces back and forth across my dorm room trying to hold himself together.And honestly?I think this is the first time I’ve ever truly seen him scared.Not angry.Not frustrated.Scared.That realization alone nearly breaks me.His hands drag through his hair again as he stares down at his phone like he wants to throw it through the wall.I stand frozen beside the bed, heart pounding so hard it hurts.Because this—This is exactly what I was terrified of.Not the fighting.Not the rumors.Consequences.Real ones.Scouts hearing things.Questions being asked.Logan’s future suddenly becoming shaky because of all this chaos surrounding us.Around me.“I should go.”The words leave my mouth before I can stop them.Logan freezes instantly.Slowly turns toward me.“What?”“I should go.”His expression hardens immediately.“No.”“This is getting worse.”“No,” he snaps sharply. “My father is making it wo
Logan POVI stay with her until almost two in the morning.Not talking much after a while.Just… existing together.Like both of us are too emotionally wrecked to keep fighting but too terrified to let go either.Harper eventually curls into my side on her bed while I sit against the headboard, one arm wrapped around her automatically.Protective.Possessive.In love.Dangerous combination.And honestly?That should probably concern me more than it does.The room is quiet except for soft music playing from somewhere in the dorm building and Harper’s uneven breathing against my chest.Every once in a while, I feel her fingers tighten slightly in my hoodie like she’s checking whether I’m still there.I always am.That’s the problem.I stare down at the top of her head, exhaustion pulling heavily at my body now.Not physical exhaustion.Emotional.Like the last few weeks have cracked something open inside me that refuses to close again.“You awake?” Harper whispers quietly.“Yeah.”“Me t
Harper POVThe second the lock clicks, I regret it.Because now he’s here.Actually here.And I already know one look at Logan is going to destroy every ounce of resolve I barely managed to hold together.I open the door slowly anyway.And there he is.Breathing hard like he came straight here without stopping.Hair messy.Hoodie half-zipped.Eyes locked onto me with a level of panic that instantly cracks something inside my chest.God.I hate that he looks scared.Especially because I’m the reason.His expression shifts the second he sees my face fully.Pain.Immediate pain.Because I know I look awful.I’ve been crying for over an hour and there’s no hiding it anymore.“Jesus, Harper.”The softness in his voice almost kills me.I look away immediately.“Don’t.”“Don’t what?”“Look at me like that.”“Like what?”“Like I’m breaking your heart.”His jaw tightens instantly.“You are.”The words hit so hard my breath catches painfully.Silence stretches between us.Heavy.Raw.Because th
Logan POvMy father calls at exactly the wrong time.I’m sitting in my car in the stadium parking lot, engine off, hands still on the steering wheel, staring at nothing.Daniel’s voice is still in my head.You’re not ready.You can’t handle being a brand.They’ll replace you.My phone lights up on
Logan POVThe call comes in while we’re finishing drills.Not a text.Not a message.An actual call.Which means it’s bad.I’m peeling my gloves off when my phone vibrates in my locker.Daniel Meyers.I stare at it for a second, then answer.“Yes?”“My office,” he says. “Now.”Then he hangs up.I e
Logan POVThe rink smells like cold steel and bad decisions.My skates hit the concrete harder than they need to as I walk into the locker room. My shoulders are tight. My jaw’s been clenched so long it actually hurts.I’ve already said no.Twice.Doesn’t matter.PR doesn’t care.Coach doesn’t care
Harper POVThe sorority house is loud when I get back.Not party loud. Just… people loud. Doors opening and closing. Someone laughing down the hall. Music bleeding faintly out of the common room.Normal.Which is exactly what I want.Normal means no Logan. No overthinking. No replaying his mouth on







