Lucas

It took everything in me not to go back to Astrid right away. Not to take the words I said back. I know I'm being selfish but she was being selfish too. This can't keep happening.

I'm not a jealous man, but it's different with Michael. I don't understand why she can't send him away. Why is she choosing to keep him around and make our problems worse?

Lana made room for me in her house with Jason. They looked surprised to see. I let Lana know what was happening, but I didn't wanna share with Jason. I know he's a good kid but I don't know him that well to tell him all my marital problems.

Lana seemed to understand and she tried not to pry too much. I liked living with Lana these past few years. She was kind and understanding and very caring. She and I got closer these past 5 years, so it felt easy to just be back with her.

Sleep never came to me last night. I had stayed up full of worry, wondering why Astrid still hadn't come to get me. Had she chosen Micheal?

The worry only ate at m