04: After The Party

Conrad

"Shit!" I cuss sharply on myself and I just winced when my head hurts like hell causing me to gently massage my hair. I still have a hangover for drinking a lot of bottles of beer over the party last night. I'm so drunk that I can't even remember how I got here to my room. After a while, the pain in my head gradually subsides so I slowly opened my eyes and I immediately frowned when I realized I was not in my room, this is not how my room looks like.

"Shit!" I cuss sharply on myself again and I immediately cupped my body. I heaved a sigh of relief when I found out that I was still wearing my clothes last night, there was no pain in my body so I'm sure I didn't do anything stupid last night.

The only question I have in mind right now is where the hell am I and who's room did I just sleep in? Why am I here? I look around the room trying to remember if I have been in this room before but I can’t really remember who this room belongs to, this is definitely not Betty’s room since this looks like a man’s room, there's also a man's shirt on the couch.

"Where the hell am I?" I asked myself and as if on cue, the door in the bedroom suddenly open and I can't help but gasp when suddenly an overwhelming scent of freshly cut vanilla and honey, with a hint of strong black coffee wafted heavily on my nose, and then it slowly sinks into my mind.

"Mate!" I whispered but then the excitement that I feel upon the thought of finally finding my mate gets shattered when I saw Alpha Ryker enters the room.

No way! He is my mate. Alpha Ryker is my mate. Gosh! This is a disaster, this can't be.

"I'm glad you're already awake, I hate the sound of your snoring. Here, take the Advil and then leave my room." Ryker said to me frowning as if he despise my existence in his room, and then he handed me a tablet of Advil and a glass of water. My head still hurts a little bit so I don't have a choice but to take the Advil and the water that he gave me, and I immediately drank it.

"Y-You're my mate," I said to Ryker causing him to raise an eyebrow at me. I don’t know where I got the courage to say that to him. Based on his expression, I think he already knows that I am his mate and I can't help but swallow my saliva as my heart tightened in pain when I saw the disappointment in his face.

"Don't tell anyone that I am your mate, Conrad," Ryker told me in a hard tone of voice and I don't know but at this point, I felt like I was going to cry.

"W-Why?" I asked him even though I already knew the answer as to why he didn't want anyone else to know that I am his mate. I don't know why I still asked him why, maybe because the pain in my head isn't enough for me, I also want to feel the pain in my heart.

"Are you seriously asking me that question, Conrad? Why? Well, it's simple as you're not a woman and I am not fucking gay. If you tell anyone that I am your mate, I'm going to fucking reject you. Do you understand me?" Ryker replied to me and the moment I heard his answer, I couldn't stop my tears from welling in my eyes anymore, it was as if someone just clenched my heart. I immediately wiped the tears from my eyes before Ryker even noticed it.

"Hey! Are you fucking deaf? I'm talking to you." Ryker shouted at me and I just nodded at him because I don't know what to tell him. I have no choice but to follow what he wants to happen because he is pulling the rejection card with me. He's willing and he's going to reject me if I don't do what he wants me to do which is not to tell anyone that we're mates.

"Leave my room now, Conrad. I don't want your scent to linger in here." Ryker ordered me and I immediately obeyed his order, not because I was afraid not to follow him but because I was already having too much of hurtful words that he uttered to me so I chose to leave instead of hearing other hurtful words from him.

I quickly got off his bed and left his room without saying goodbye. This isn't the first time I've been here at Ryker's apartment since he always brings me here to do his homework, so I don't have any trouble getting out of his apartment.

I take a deep sigh as I was waiting for a taxi on the side of the road. I was in such great pain that I forgot to put on my shoes again, I didn't bother going back to Ryker's apartment anymore because he might get angry with me. When a taxi stopped in front of me, I immediately went inside and told the driver my address.

When I got home I found my mom in the living room and she's drinking coffee while reading the newspaper.

"And I thought you didn't like the party, Conrad? Why did you come home so late? It's already morning." My mother said not looking at me, her eyes still focused on the newspaper that she was reading.

"We already leave the club by midnight, mom. I just decided to sleep on Betty's house." I lied to my mom and then I quickly climbed upstairs towards my bedroom. I immediately slumped down on my bed the moment I enter my room.

A few moments later, tears were suddenly beginning to well in my eyes, tears that I have been trying to hold back because I didn’t want Ryker to see me crying.

God! Why of all people the moon goddess decided to have Alpha Ryker as my mate? Until now, I can still remember every goddamn word that he said to me in his room, that I shouldn't tell anyone that he's my mate if I don't want him to reject me.

This is so confusing, he doesn't want me to be his mate because I'm not a woman and he's not gay, but he also doesn't want to reject me. What does he mean by that?