DEAR CEO, LOVE ME HARDER

Gabriel and I have been married for five years and everything was going smoothly as a sailing thread. However, that was not until she surfaced with malicious intent. This woman had disrupted my blissful marriage. She was my worst nightmare, an experience I will never want to recall.

No, how could you do this to us?” This can't be happening, not when I am just starting to get my nursing career off the ground,

My hands covered my ears as the words were departing his lips.

Impossible. I would rather not listen to anything Gabriel was saying.

It… can't be. How had he managed to get another woman pregnant?

Why am I focusing on this woman when my focus should be on him, my husband? He decided this woman was more important than our five-year marriage.

“Maddison…”

He says my name, but it feels disgusting leaving his mouth.

I screamed at him…Don’t you fucking dare say my name!!

Reaching for the beer bottle beside me and hitting him over the head with it.

It had left him with a slight concussion

Thank God, I do not need to be charged with murder.

Hah… a nurse… for us. My dream, muttering bitterly.

“Mad-”

Shut up! If it is not to take back your words as some sort of sick joke, shut the hell up, Gabriel! I said, ready to punch him anywhere.

Oh… God…

Why isn't he defending himself? Hanging his head down low

Why is he actually 'shutting up'? He makes me sick, Is he not going to take back the admittance of his affair?

I would rather not keep thinking, looking into his blue eyes searching for some sort of amusement in it, but they were blank, I didn't even see a tinge of hurt in his eyes. The realization dawned on me.

“H-how long has that been happening?” I sputtered out

“For a year” he replied.

Scoffing, so you even have the guts to reply.

Are you feeling guilty now? Well, you should I did for a little while, but then I stopped feeling guilty.

Why? How could you do this to us?

Do you realize what you have done?

Do you take me for a fool?

“Maddie, lower your voice”. Let's be reasonable, he said.

What do you mean by being reasonable? How long have they been screwing behind my back?

Since when has our five-year marriage been a joke to you?

Didn't our marriage mean anything to you?

Why would you do this to us? I said without pausing, too emotional at the thought of it. My voice was already shaking, my throat longed for water. It was like I couldn't breathe anymore.

I have loved you ever since freshman year of college

Now you're telling me the woman is pregnant with your child.

“A child who was supposed to be ours”

Oh, woman! Allow me to explain this…” Gabriel trailed off.

“Explain what?

There is no need for an explanation. Since he had already succeeded it.

“Maddie, I have no excuse for what I did.”

“I'm sorry, I wasn't thinking.” His eyes were hopeful while looking into my green eyes, stupidly” thinking I will accept the apology like a loyal dog.

"I am done playing the loyal dog and done being his wife."

“You're darn right you weren't thinking, Oh my goodness, I can't believe we've been having sex. When this whole time you were having an affair behind my back. Palming my face out of shame and disgust”. I felt puke rising in my throat at the thought of me having an std from his so-called 'secretary'.

“No, you don't have an std”, he spoke out, as if reading my mind.

“How do you know that?”, pointing at him accusingly.

“I know this because I don't have one,” he said in the most obvious manner,” Duh!

“Have you been to the doctor,

Gabriel?

“Did you ever consider the fact that she could have an std or could be a carrier for one, and she could be asymptomatic?” I deadpanned.

“Listen, I just wanted a child with you, but you still had to work for another year before giving me one.”

“Furthermore, I would have made enough for the two of us”, he said, shrugging.

Why would you say that to me? After I told you why I wanted to be a nurse after what had happened to my father.

For saying that kind of remark, I slapped him. You are disgusting, I regret marrying you, you Gabriel!

“So the best option was to sleep with your secretary?” my hands were balled into fists as I kept talking. Sitting there staring at him while I'm already tired of dragging this back and forth.

He was a bit scared as he felt the temperature drop a little

“Umm… Maddie-”

“You know what is hurting me the most? It's the fact you aren't even the least bit guilty,” I said. My eyes welled up from the whole drama. What did I even see in you?

“I notified you that I didn't want children right away.”

“I wanted to have my career as a Nurse first for a few years, then we would start a family, you agreed to that.”

“What happened?”

“Did you change your mind?” shaking off the tears and trying to get this conversation done.

“Yes, I did change my mind”, he said, looking away.

“Hello, you could have told me.”

“When should I have told you?”

“When you were so stressed out about exams, he said, frustrated. Almost bored with the whole conversation.”

“How about when I had a break from exams?” I pointed out.

“You were too busy planning for our wedding-”, he pointed out.

“Exactly Gabriel, our wedding is the one where you are supposed to honor your vows. ‘For sickness and health, for better or worse, to honor and to cherish as long as we both shall live’.”

“Did you forget the part where you said that you would stay faithful to me?”

“Or did you just throw it in there for fun?” I said, moving my red hair from my face.

“I meant every word that I said, Maddison.”

The hell you did! If our vows were so important to you, then you would have not had an affair not to talk of getting her pregnant.

“Tell me, Gabriel, what did I do wrong for you to do this?”

“Was my sweetness not good at all?”

“Is that why you had to go to your secretary?”

“This is five years of our marriage, Gabe”. The words kept rushing out. I was beginning to get a headache from too much thinking, as my eyes were blurred with tears. Do you even know what today is? How could you do this today, of all days? My heart was aching from all this. I was close to having a panic attack, I had to leave before I became too vulnerable in front of him.

“Can't you just forgive me, please?” he feeling a bit ashamed.

The audacity,

“You know what Gabriel, I am going to have to go for a drive right now and clear my head from this trash.”

I walked, slamming the door, which rattled the windows. Good, that serves him right.

I'm driving around feeling mad as hell as to how Gabriel ruined our marriage. I knew that something was off when he started coming home late from work. Likewise, I didn't put much thought into it, though, not until I caught him in bed with his Secretary, Emily.

Not only that, but I wanted to drink a couple of drinks to calm my nerves. Perhaps I will find some random guy and sleep with him. What good would that do, though? Two wrongs don't make it right. Of course, it will make me feel better for one night.

However, how would I feel the next day? I know that I will be doing the walk of shame and would not be any better than my adulterer husband. Ugh… Now is not the time to be rational, I will get over it.

“Hello, Sally, how about you get dressed because I am coming over to take you out. We are going to a bar to take a few shots while waiting for a good chance for me to get laid, I said nonchalantly.”

"Wait - what, Maddie? Is everything okay?" with concern in her voice.”

“Oh, everything is just peachy.”

"I will explain when I pick you up, I will be there in fifteen minutes," I said hurriedly and cut the call." Driving and stopping at every traffic light gave me enough time to calm down and collect my thoughts. I was so busy thinking that I didn't realize that the light had turned green until the car behind me honked. Shaking my head, I move forward and start driving again. Then the car that was behind passes me and flips me off.

Normally, I would let that go, but I was in a terrible mood anyway, and I wanted to give that person a piece of my mind. I drove beside the person as the person was slowing down. The minute the window rolled down, I looked out and saw it was my husband's secretary, Emily. She didn't know it was me though because my windows were tinted.