Desiderium

Anahita's POV

I can't stop my tears now. I am sitting in a taxi. The taxi driver gave me a strange vibe. I asked him to drop me off at the train station. I bought a ticket for the earliest train that leaves after half an hour. I hugged my bag that I only had. I am alone again. In everyone's life, there was a moment of confusion where you were afraid to bare bones, rotted to the ground, wanted to throw up, give up on your desires, or run and hide. I promised my brother that I would be safe. It seems my decisions are destined to be proven wrong. I decided to attend the Luna ceremony of the Pearlwood pack. I never thought I'd be thrown into my past experiences. I was sleeping soundly when suddenly someone bragged in my room at 1:00 am. I thought that someone had mistakenly entered the wrong room. Just when I was about to sit down, he pressed me down. He was a drunk werewolf with an intoxicated smell. He was an alpha. I can feel him releasing his alpha aura. I was unable to move. He fiercely kissed me while pinning my hands above my head. And then... Then he did... I cried out loud this time. My body is aching badly, my legs are wobbling, my lips are swollen and my mind is a mess, reminding me that I am just a used and thrown-away tissue. I felt my weak wolf howling in distress. I never had an easy life. But it is also not expected that the first step I will take toward my independence and confidence turns out to be like this.

Broken and Banished. Two words, which are my identity. I've long accepted that I'm on the road to redemption for unknown past sins. From early childhood to adulthood, the only thing I experienced was suffering. I was weak and easy to bully. I had a position lower than the lowest omega. Always hiding behind walls. Sometimes I wish to be invisible.

The sun was peeking from the horizon , indicating that the morning had arrived. But it is never this gloomy for me. I have never felt this strong urge to end this miserable life. The only thing that is helping me to stay sane is my brother. Being a twin does not always bring benefits; it also has drawbacks. He can feel my pain as I feel his.

What will happen when that powerful alpha looks at me? Who was he? What did I ever do wrong to him? What will happen to my friend Natalia? Will she be upset? What will happen when my brother returns? How will he react? What will happen when I find my mate? What if he rejects me? What will I do?

I leave a letter for Natalia. She was with her newly-found mate. I don't want her to spend days helping me find that alpha. She deserved to have some personal time with her mate. She does so much for me that I feel deeply indebted. She was the only one who cared for me genuinely.

The train arrives at 6 a.m. I boarded it. I had to leave this city as soon as possible. Away from everyone...

I am unaware that my destiny is following me.