FORTY SIX

I do still think of him. And I wonder if he's reading that letter already. I wonder what he feels after. Did he laugh? Did he cry? Was he confused? My heart aches every time I try to remember the goodbye in those words. It was meant to happen. Me leaving and him just... I don't know what to say. This wasn't supposed to hurt like I hope it would. But my heart knows what it knows. Sometimes I wish I never came back. I wish I stayed next to Sophie.

But being away from Simon makes my heart glad somehow knowing I won't be hurt anymore seeing him loving someone else. Anne was right. I have more opportunities here. But it's not the main reason why I came back. I'm here because I have no choice. My father hates me for keeping my pregnancy on my own. The only reason why I hid it because I don't want to be a burden or may I don't want him to judge me or be ashamed of me. So there's not only one reason. There are more to say.

But back to it, he wasn't willing to listen to my explanation. He