Bumalik ulit ang kaba sa aking dibdib. Pagkapasok namin sa loob ay hindi ko makita si Aquilino dahil pinapalibutan ito ng mga katulad ng nasa labas, ay mga businessman din. Dito ko talaga nakita at napaghalintulad na mga circle of friends niya ay mga negosyante na din na katulad niya.Sabay-sabay silang napatingin sa pagpasok naming dalawa ni Akihiro. Nakahawak ng mahigpit ang anak ko sa aking kamay. Parang pusang naninibago sa lugar at nangingilala pa ng paligid.Gumilid ang mga nakapalibot na lalaki sa amin para mabigyang daan at tuluyan nang masulyapan si Aquilino. Halos maiyak ako nang makita ko siyang nakaupo sa kama, humihinga, mayroon nang malay. Hindi na katulad noong mga nakaraang araw na hindi man lang gumalaw ang kamay nito!Blangko at hindi ko mabasa ang itsura niya. Bago pa man ako tuluyang makapagbigay ng reaksyon ay tumakbo nang mabilis ang anak ko papunta sa kama ng Papa Aquilino niya. Gulat na gulat pa rin sa mga nangyayari, ang mga nakapaligid ay napanganga nang matu
It's sometimes simpler to harden your heart and chose wrath. It's far easier to block those who have injured you or violated your affection and trust. Sometimes we believe there is no other option; that healing begins with distance and their absence; that in order to live your life, you must expel the toxins and agony they imparted; yet we do so by employing their techniques.We sometimes choose to be angry. We choose to react and get enraged; it is this wrath that we use as an explanation for our actions. We rationalize our retaliatory actions by recalling the actions of our rivals.I can never completely let go as long as I linger on my own misery and self-pity. Who am I to say you don't deserve my forgiveness when it's human to make mistakes? I've made errors in the past that I'd like people to forgive me for. I'm letting go of my ego by forgiving him. It indicates I've accepted the misery you've inflicted on me. It implies I no longer see you as the person who wrecked my life.
When she kissed me I said the Hail Mary five times. It didn't work. My feelings grew."Aquilino..." she moaned. I had been distracted by her all night.I move in closer and we hugged. It went on for the longest time, and then we kissed. A long soul- deep kiss that kept on going, even after we broke apart for air. By this time, I was rock hard."Babe, may I remind you that this is a sin..." I whispered on her ear.Growing up in a culturally mainstream religious family, sinning wasn't something I thought about much. I cannot commit mistake.Ako ang panganay. Lahat ng obligasyon sa pamilya sa akin binigay. Hindi ako pwedeng magkamali. Dapat lahat ng gawin ko ay tama. Walang lugar dapat ang pagkakamali.But since that night happened I did sinned and still do until now.I now see myself as someone who s
Kabanata 1SinI've never been lucky when it comes to love.Endless cycles of heartache and heartbreak define what is supposed to be the biggest and greatest adventure of my life, at twenty, I had given up already.Nag-umpisa iyon sa pamilya ko. Kahit anong gawin ko... hindi pa rin sapat. Kulang pa rin ako, palaging si Lazarus ang magaling, kahit ginagawa ko naman ang lahat maging magaling lang sa mata nila."You should always aim for excellence. You are the only one I can count on in our business." Dad reminded me.I am the first born so that explains how much pressure they put on me. Iyon din ang kinaiinggitan ko kay Lazarus eh, kung ako siguro naging bunso, hindi ganito ang responsibilidad na maiaatas sa akin.Ako sana ang paborito nila... kaso, ayoko ring magpari. Dinidiktahan nila ang buhay ng kapatid ko.N
Kabanata 2KissIt makes me cringe to remember how rude I was to women as a young man. I would stand girls up if something or someone better came along in an instant, without explanation."Ganun-ganon nalang iyon, Aquilino?" I was in the middle of flirting with my new girl when the one I met last night suddenly appeared.She was boring, okay? Walang thrill. Hindi man lang ako kaagad nilabasan. Hindi man lang marunong mangromansa. Puro ako lang ang gumagalaw."Pagkatapos kong ibigay sa'yo ang lahat ipagpapalit mo lang ako sa babaeng ito?!"Idinuro-duro niya ang babaeng kasama ko. Madrama naman siyang napahawak sa dibdib niya. I rolled my eyes heavenward and sighed.Here we go again."Oh, anong problema mo sa akin? Iniwan ka na diba? Tanggapin mo nalang, girl." sagot naman ng kasama kong babae.I smirked. I still didn't
Kabanata 3VoiceI was kicked-out.Agad-agad iyon. My Lola raised hell when she heard what I did. She tried to cover things up but catholic school will always be catholic school. Money cannot buy their values and integrity."Kailan ka ba magtitino, Aquilino?!" Lola combed her hair in annoyance and frustration.I stooped. With all that has happened today, it is only now that I feel guilty for what I did. Funny, I still had the courage to escape the sin I had committed a while ago because we have lots of money.But earlier, when I saw our Assistant Principal, who can't barely look at me and whenever our gazes met, her face looked sick. It feels like she's disgusted of me. It feels like whenever she's given the chance to look at me, her memory comes back when she saw us earlier.That look on her face reminded me of my parents and my lo
Kabanata 4Angelus"Crush mo 'no?" Isaac looked at me with a silly grin on his face.I raised an eyebrow at him. I am immediately retracting my comment on him seemingly incapable of committing a sin. Parang magaling din siyang mangbuwisit."Crush mo ata, eh! Ayie!" he's annoying to look at right now.Hindi ako umimik. Her beautiful face is still vivid in my memory. She has curly hair that is up to her small waist. Her face is small, but has beautiful and tantalizing eyes. Her nose is very sharp. And her lips... Damn, it looks so soft and enticing to kiss."Naku, Aquilino. Bakit ka namumula? Sinasabi ko sayo, wala kang pag-asa kay Ramona.""Bakit naman wala?"Hindi pa ako hinihindian ng kahit sinong babae! Hindi maalis ang mala-tsismosong itsura ni Isaac ngayon. Agad tuloy akong nagsisi sa biglang pagtanong ko. Nagtunog interesado tulo
Kabanata 5BistadoI saw how her eyes widens and how it blinks three times while our lips are againts each other. I kissed her gently on the lips. My desire went high whe she slipped her arms back around my neck. My tongue probed her mouth and things began to really heat up.I was about to tilt my head on the other side so that I could completely cover and taste her lips but she immediately pushed my chest using her hands.She made her upper lip wet with her tongue, not yet satisfied, she then bit it.Shit."That was hot..." I commented in a husky voice.Akmang hahalikan ko ulit siy