For the Unloved

When she kissed me I said the Hail Mary five times. It didn't work. My feelings grew.

"Aquilino..." she moaned. I had been distracted by her all night.

I move in closer and we hugged. It went on for the longest time, and then we kissed. A long soul- deep kiss that kept on going, even after we broke apart for air. By this time, I was rock hard.

"Babe, may I remind you that this is a sin..." I whispered on her ear.

Growing up in a culturally mainstream religious family, sinning wasn't something I thought about much. I cannot commit mistake.

Ako ang panganay. Lahat ng obligasyon sa pamilya sa akin binigay. Hindi ako pwedeng magkamali. Dapat lahat ng gawin ko ay tama. Walang lugar dapat ang pagkakamali.

But since that night happened I did sinned and still do until now.

I now see myself as someone who sins on a regular basis, and I'm working on that because of her.

The word means something different for me than it does in contemporary culture. As a child I learned that to sin is to do something really bad.

If you look it up you'll find it usually refers to a violation of a religious code of conduct.

So by this definition if you're not religious, you can't really sin, because you have no religious code of conduct to violate.

"Is it okay if you sinned because of me?" I asked her as she caressed the side of my cheeks.

She nodded. Damn. Ang swerte ko. She is a gorgeous woman with a hard, sexy body. Madalas nga lang nakatago dahil sa palaging suot niya. She has nice firm tits and an ass that turns heads wherever she goes.

"We will both regret this tomorrow babe..."

I stood up, and I took off my clothes piece by piece, slowly and deliberately. Hindi maalis ang tingin niya sa akin nang napailing.

"I don't care anymore."

Iyon na sa wakas ang hudyat. Mukhang hindi na rin niya ako matiis.

"Are you sure? We are commiting a sin."

"It started already. I can't get you out of my mind since that night. I don't care anymore."

She's sitting three feet in front of me. When I got to my briefs, the last thing I had on, I locked my gaze upon her eyes and slowly

Releasing her from my stare, she looked

Bless me, father, for I have sinned...

I prayed silently in my head. I thought what I was feeling was wrong but fuck, I'm loving every bit of what I am doing.

Bless me, father, for I have sinned...

I was waiting for an answer from you all this time I couldn't just move on with my life. She saved me. She was there when I needed support from someone.

Bless me, father, for I have sinned...

I think I am already smitten. Is our love considered a sin?

Was she a sin?

I thought love is always supposed to win.

I then kneeled down and started unbuttoning her habit. Only after getting all the buttons undone did I then open her shirt to behold her small breasts.

"You're so hard, Aquilino..."

"That's because of you, babe..."

I could see the swell of her chest with her rapid breathing, and I could see her athletic heart pounding through her skin and muscle just above her left breast.

I then touched her nipples, which left us both gasping, partly from the build-up to this moment, and partly from the feeling the touch gave her and me.

"Ahh... Aquilino..." She pressed her entire body into my finger tips, and then I massaged her breasts with my finger tips and palms.

While her breasts were triple A size, they were extremely sensitive in that moment of passion.

"Babe, this is a dream come true," I told her.

I asked her to stand up and then I inserted my hands inside her pantylet and lowered them down. Unencumbered by underwear, the view of her female sex was immediate.

She was in such great shape that there was a space between her legs where her vagina was, and I took advantage of that by touching the entire area very lightly.

"Oh... Jesus Christ! I'm dying. I am on fire. I cannot extinguish myself," she said.

She took hold of my cock and slid her small hand up and down the shaft. I gently squeezed her breasts, and we stayed that way for five minutes, slowing building up the pressure and intensity of the moment.

Sometimes light, as if our fingertips were feathers, sometimes harder, with insistence and a view to consummate this moment.

It was pure pleasure that we were giving and receiving. Lowering my hand, I then rubbed her clitoris and surrounding labial lips in a lazy fashion.

Her breathing came hard; her teeth clenched. She managed to get out.

"Aquilino you're driving me crazy. Make me come."

"Not yet," I whispered in a ragged voice.

"I want you, Aquilino... I want you now!"

"We're going to remember this the rest of our lives. Let's not rush this moment." she looked at me, and held my gaze for an eternity, and nodded yes.

"It's time..." after minutes of this deliberate stimulation, we both looked at each other and said together.

She increased her rubbing of my cock; and I increased the frequency of my attention to her body. From deep within each of us a growling, shaking, and uncontrollable force began to erupt.

"Ooh! Aah!" I groaned- loving the fucking sensation that she gives.

"Aah. Ang sarap mo Aquilino. Sa akin ka lang dapat lalabasan ng ganito."

Her inner legs locked on my hand and held it there as she came all over it, at the same time my cock erupted its pent-up passion into her hands and all over her lower

"Nakita niyo ba si Sister Ramona?" bigla kaming natahimik nang marinig iyon sa labas ng pinto.

Tinanggal niya ang pagkakahawak sa p*********i ko. Ngumuso ako. Ano ba naman 'yan! Gusto ko nang ipasok ang akin sa kanya. Bitin pa ako! Gusto ko pa!

Pambihira naman!

"Bakit po Mother Superior?" sagot ng nasa labas.

Nagkatinginan kami. Gusto kong matawa sa tila takot na mukha nito. Nang makita niyang kanina ko pa siya tinititigan, sinamaan niya ako ng tingin.

"May sasabihin lang sana. Hindi ko siya makita."

Ilang minuto kaming nanatiling hindi makagalaw sa pangamba na mahuli kami rito sa kwartong ito. Hindi ko pa naman inilock iyon. Basta ko lang siya hinila dito

Hawak ko ang beywang niya habang nakatutok ang akin sa bukana ng pagkababae niya. Pumipintig-pintig at matigas pa.

"Baka nasa labas ho, Madre. Gusto niyo po bang samahan ko po kayo sa paghahanap sa kanya?"

Ang mga mata niya ngayon ay nasa may pintuan at taimtim na nakikinig sa usapan sa labas. Gumalaw ako ng bahagya. Bahagyang binabangga ang labi ng pagkababae niya sa matigas at mahaba kong ari.

Mabilis na lumipat ang mga mata niya sa akin. Napatingala ako at napapikit sa sarap. Ang sarap. Gusto ko na kaagad labasan.

"Ikikiskis ko lang." sabi ko sa mahinang boses at nagsimula nang magbayo.

Sasakit ang puson ko kapag hindi ko ito mailabas ngayon. Hindi maman siya nagreklamo. Sa tuwing ilalayo ko ang akin para magbwelo ay napapaangat siya upang ipagdikit at ipagkiskis ulit ang mga iyon.

"Aah-" bago pa siya umungol ay inilagay ko na ang kamay ko sa may bibig niya.

Natigil ako sa pagbayo dahil parang papalapit ang mga yabag ng paa sa kwarto namin.

"May narinig ka bang ingay, Sister Si?"

"Wala naman po? Bakit po?"

"Wala. Huwag na. Ipagpapabukas ko nalang ito. Bumalik ka na sa kwarto mo." saad ng matandang madre sa labas.

"Sige po. Magandang gabi po ulit. Nawa'y makatulog ho kayo ng maayos." sagot ng kausap nito sa labas.

Ramdam ko ang sobrang lakas ng tibok ng puso niya. Takot na takot na baka mahuli kami. Napangisi ako. Bumayo ulit para makiskis ang mga ari namin. Mukhang makakatulog talaga ako ng maayos ngayon.

Sige pa rin ang pagbayo ko. Hindi ko ipinapasok at pinapasayad ko lang sa labi ng pagkababae niya. Kiskis palang, parang gusto ko nang magpalabas. Ngayon lang ako parang nakuntento sa ganito.

"Ang init. Ang sarap." mahinang sabi ko.

Papahina na ang mga yabag ng nasa labas. Tahimik na rin, tanging tibok ng puso at malalalim na hininga namin ang naririnig.

"Ipasok mo na Aquilino! Bilis na!" mahina at puno ng pagpipigil na sabi nito nang alisin ko ang kamay ko sa bibig niya.

Napahalakhak ako. Patuloy pa rin sa pagbayo. Ibang-iba ang pinapakita niya ngayon sa akin na ugali niya kaysa pag nasa labas siya at nakasuot ng habit niya.

"Once I inserted my cock in your vagina, there is no turning back." my voice is hoarse, sinasabayan pa ng mahinang ungol.

"Oh God! I don't care anymore! Put it inside me!" sagot nito na tila nahihirapan na ng sobra.

"Alright, Sister Ramona. Accept this hard cock of mine inside you..." before she could answer I already slammed my cock inside her. She's crying and moaning because of pleasure.

My world was about to turn upside down and I didn't care at all. Fuck destiny, fuck fate, fuck the norm.