For the Unloved

Kabanata 1SinI've never been lucky when it comes to love.Endless cycles of heartache and heartbreak define what is supposed to be the biggest and greatest adventure of my life, at twenty, I had given up already.Nag-umpisa iyon sa pamilya ko. Kahit anong gawin ko... hindi pa rin sapat. Kulang pa rin ako, palaging si Lazarus ang magaling, kahit ginagawa ko naman ang lahat maging magaling lang sa mata nila."You should always aim for excellence. You are the only one I can count on in our business." Dad reminded me.I am the first born so that explains how much pressure they put on me. Iyon din ang kinaiinggitan ko kay Lazarus eh, kung ako siguro naging bunso, hindi ganito ang responsibilidad na maiaatas sa akin.Ako sana ang paborito nila... kaso, ayoko ring magpari. Dinidiktahan nila ang buhay  ng kapatid ko.N

Kabanata 3VoiceI was kicked-out.Agad-agad iyon. My Lola raised hell when she heard what I did. She tried to cover things up but catholic school will always be catholic school. Money cannot buy their values ​​and integrity."Kailan ka ba magtitino, Aquilino?!" Lola combed her hair in annoyance and frustration.I stooped. With all that has happened today, it is only now that I feel guilty for what I did. Funny, I still had the courage to escape the sin I had committed a while ago because we have lots of money.But earlier, when I saw our Assistant Principal, who can't barely look at me and whenever our gazes met, her face looked sick. It feels like she's disgusted of me. It feels like whenever she's given the chance to look at me, her memory comes back when she saw us earlier.That look on her face reminded me of my parents and my lo

Kabanata 5BistadoI saw how her eyes widens and how it blinks three times while our lips are againts each other. I kissed her gently on the lips. My desire went high whe  she slipped her arms back around my neck. My tongue probed her mouth  and things began to really heat up.I was about to tilt my head on the other side so that I could completely cover and taste her lips but she immediately pushed my chest using her hands.She made her upper lip wet with her tongue, not yet satisfied, she then bit it.Shit."That was hot..." I commented in a husky voice.Akmang hahalikan ko ulit siy

Karma ko na siguro 'to.Dati, ako ang madalas magsabi ng mga ganoong kataga sa iba. "Aqui, I don't want us to be like this anymore... Pang-kama mo na lang ba talaga ako?"She was sitting on the end of the bed while the thin blanket was wrapped around her bare chest. We just finished having sex. Her face was disappointed. Mukhang nagsasawa na sa ganitong sitwasyon namin. This is why I don't want to have sex with the same woman repeatedly. They will look for a label when the time comes. That's something I don't want. I'm not ready to commit just yet. This setup is great for me. Walang halong pagmamahal, sex lang. Hanggang dito lang sa kama. Kapag natapos na, kapag nakuha na namin ang gusto namin sa isa't-isa, 'yun na. Parang hindi ko pa kasi kayang magkaroon ng karelasyon. Hindi ko gusto ang pinagbabawalan. Hindi ako makakabwelo. Pakiramdam ko ay masasakal lang ako. Hindi ako magiging masaya. At saka, sa mga edad na ito, ito dapat

I was never one of the little girls before who grew up dreaming and meticulously planning what her fairytale wedding would look like. I never knew if I would get married or if I wanted kids, and I still don't.Siguro naging factor na rin na puro mga independent woman ang mga kasama ko at nagpalaki sa akin. Naniniwala akong kahit mag-isang mabuhay, makakaya. Kaya ayos lang sa akin na mag-isa."Ako na," mabilis na inagaw ni Aquilino ang bitbit kong kahon.Hindi na din ako umapela dahil may kabigatan din ang dala-dala ko. Para matigil na din siya. Nang tuluyan kong naibigay sa kaniya ang aking bitbit ay lumingon ulit ito sa akin at kumindat. Napaatras ako at napahawak sa dibdib sa pagkagulat ng kaniyang ginawa."Nakakadiri naman 'yon." Wala sa sarili kong sabi.Oo nga, gwapo siya, pero wala akong interes sa mga lalaki. Hindi ako kumportable. Hindi ko rin nakikita ang sarili kong may makakatuluyang lalaki sa hinaharap. Par