After I talk to lolo, I went to bar counter ng mansion at namili ng iinumin na alak, I miss the taste of alcohol
"Oh bat andito kapa, welcome ka?" I hissed at kuya christ at inabot ang bote ng alak na may lamang ahas
I remember that when I taste it, once you drink the alcohol pwedeng mag-apoy ang bibig mo sa sobrang tapang
Gumuguhit, para kang tinarakan ng kutsilyo sa lalamunan
"Ang sungit mo, sabing habulin mo yung throne mo eh" I push him a bit at naabot ang bote ng brandy
"Bakit ko hahabulin yon, ako babae at hindi maghahabol ang Salvia sa kanya!" Singhal ko bago nagsalin ng alak sa baso
"But you cannot leave him in chaos, he saved you and you'll left him there, alone? That's not nice elisha" kuya said and I avoid looking at him, I know what he want to say
"Stop standing behind your ego elisha. What do you think why he leave?" I look a
I feel my anger eat my own system, nanginginig ako habang kapit kapit ko ang steering wheel habang hindi pansin ang bilis ko ngayonI don't know how to calm myself while I am driving now. That is the worst thing that happen to me he have no right to said it to meWhy people keep acting like they knew everything. Kung makapagsalita sila parang tama lahat ng lumalabas sa bibig nila, they don't think before they judge youTangina lang"Fuck!" Gigil na gigil ako because every single words he say keep replaying in my mind. It's like a curse to me, he poisoned my mind by saying that, why I allow myself to hear that bullshits"Tangina nyong lahat!" I shout at the top of my lungs and stop my car at the open spaceNagpupumadyak ako habang palabas ako sa kotse, nasa kanang kamay ko ang yosi ko at sa kaliwa ang vodka na binigay saakin ng lalaki na iyon
Bumungad saakin ang puting kisame habang ugong ng AC ang tanging ingay sa kwarto at dahan dahan akong bumangon, I didn't wear the same clothes I wear last nightI noticed that I am laying at my bed, at the mansionMarahan at maingat akong lumakad sa kwarto ko, long sleeves and my undiesNag flash naman ang nangyari kagabi and my sweet smile fade. After I left veda, oakley find me. Hug me and I cry to his shoulder until I fall asleep last nightBahagya namang bumukas ang pinto at niluwa non si oakley na may dalang gatas habang nakatitig saakin at nilapag sa tabi ng vanity mirror ko ang gatas and he handed me a robe"Kakagising mo lang?" He ask saka ko inabot ang gatas and drink"Oakley..." I call him para saakin mapunta ang atensyon nya habang saakin na nga lumipat ang mga pagmamasid nya sa loob"The guy I'm hugging yesterday is my cousin"
"Gago.." bulong ko ng mapansin ko na may pang apat na lalaki nanaman ang nalapit saakin habang nagsosolo ako sa sulok kung saan ako nag iinomIt's far from everything, para akong tanga na nanakbo habang may mga bobong humahabol saakin para bigyan ako ng problema at poproblemahin"Sabing ayoko nga aba!" naiirita kong saad ng mapansin ko na parang tanga silang nagtutulakan kung sino bang unang lalapit saakinI date a lot of guy before, siguro umabot na ang balita sa media at nalaman ng madla that my relationship with edward is fallen apart now. Both of us is in fatal situation now"Stop ruining my night. Come on stop bothering me and let me enjoy my solitude" reklamo ko sa kanila at nagumpisa na silang mag alisanThanked God they listen to me, unlike edward, he doesn't know where to stopHindi nya alam na mas makakasira saamin ang pagpilit nya na maayos k
People will leave you in the middle of chaos, only you can save your self.They won't help you, in fact. They will drag you down, watch you fail and let you die in the middle of chaosThat's how it worksKung gusto mo talagang makalampas sa lahat ng dapat mong daanan, dapat hinding hindi kana lilingon pa.If you want to grow, you should learn how to grown on your own, stop believing that you need a person to make you grow. Hinding hindi mo magagamit ang tao lalo na kung ramdam mo sa sarili mo na may kulang ba ditoI heal myself because i need it, not because of Oakley"Ma'am, may package po na nag aantay sa baba" i look at my secretary and she look exhausted"Are you tired? Mag pahinga kana muna don, papaakyatin ko nalang ang delivery boy and please stop calling me ma'am if you want to keep you job. Ms. Elisha okay? Pina
"Are you ready?" problemadong problemado akong nakaharap sa salamin habang di maipinta ang muka ko, i try my best to look presentable but i still look like a bold star"No" sigaw ko habang pilit namang binubuksan ni Oakley ang pinto ng walk in closet koIt's been a month since i start my relationship with him, and he never fail to make me happy and satisfied, well sa office ko, yun lang ang huli naming kababalaghan at sa buong buwan ay walaWhy? Kasi hindi namab kailangan ng sex sa relationship, all i need is love and companion"What's the problem baby, mom and dad is waiting" mas lalo akong kinabahan, haharapin ko ang royal na pamilya ni Oakley, i can't breathe every time i remember that i will meet them"Di ba pwedeng mag back out, look i don't look presentable and i really look like a pornstar Oakley" tumawa sya hanggang sa bumukas ang pinto at naka simpleng long sleeves at pa
"Kailan ba tayo tatantanan ng problema, lagi nalang nakasunod saatin ang problema. We can't live in peace" nakapikit ako habang nakasandal lang, kakaalis lang namin sa bahay nila Oakley after kong apihin si veda na santaSanta santahan, deputa. Hindi sya marunong tumupad sa usapan, paiba iba sya ng gusto nyang mangyareShe's a real bitch, kung di nya makuha si Edward babalik sya kay Oakley, nakakahiyang uri ng babae"Don't worry, magiging ayos din ang lahat just trust me okay?" i nod and he smile at me while looking at my eyesHe gently lift my hands and kissed it"You don't know how lucky i am when i found you Elisha, after i saw and tasted you. Alam ko na hindi na ako makakawala pa sa kung ano man ang meron sayo na wala sa ibang babae na hindi ko nakita""You're so precious, a woman like you is hard to find. Para kang nag hahanap ng perlas sa disyerto
"Anak kumain ka muna habang inaantay nadin ang papa mo" i look at my mom while Edward is beside me holding my hands like he won't never let me goMy husband is so sweet, i really appreciate his effortHindi ko alam bakit ang tahimik ng nanay ko at parang naiinip na hindi nakikita ang tatay koWell, they love each other that's why"Ma, where is ate Zaraya, busy padin ba sya?" i ask saka ako sumubo ng sandwich"She's out of the town anak, pero bibisitahin kadin ng kapatid mo" tumango lang ako at tinignan si edward na may halos ipitin ako sa yakap"I miss you so damn much Elisha" he gently carress my hair and smile"I don't know what to say edward, hindi ko alam kung ano itong nararamdaman ko ngayon" he smile and kiss my head"It's happiness Elisha, you're happy because we will have another honeymoon trip after mong maka
"Sorry! shit, no Elisha, don't cry" he stop kissing me at umalis sa ibabaw ko habang di ko mapigilan ang pag hikbi ko, why i feel so weak"I want to go back where i am" i whisper when he help me to sit"Elisha" he said and i pushed edward"What do you want to me? Bakit parang iniiwas mo ako. Bakit ganto ang nangyayari saakin. I saw at the gallery on my phone, i am with other man. It's Oakley and marcist said him and i have a accident and now. Why i am with you, anong nangyari. You're acting differently, keeping me at this place makes me think that we broke up and you're being crazy now. Now tell me what happened to us? " maayos na tanong ko habang mas lalo syang hindi makasagot"Mahirap ba ang tinatanong ko?!""Hiwalay na tayo, and you cheated on me while i am on LA trip. Oakley is the guy you met on party, and have a one night stand with him, and i also cheated on you for so man