Chapter 12

"Why you're so stupid Harris!" 

I scream as I feel anger towards Harris. I can't believe he was trying to play me. And I feel so humiliated by that girl. She's right, I can't do make up. I'm not pretty so why would I assume Harris is being serious with me? Bakit ako umasa? Bakit hindi ko pinigilan ang sarili ko na umasa?

I hate Harris, I hate him so much. But I hate myself too. Bakit parang lahat ng lalaking handa na akong magtiwala ay hindi naman pala totoo?

Umiyak lang ako nang umiyak, feeling ko ilang beses pinukpok ng martilyo ang puso ko. Alam ko sa sarili kong hindi ko pa mahal si Harris, pero bakit ako nasasaktan? I admit that I like him, i thought he's being serious because he wants to know my mom. Gano'n na ba kakapal ang mukha ng mga fuck boy ngayon? Pati magulang ay kikilalanin para lang makuha nila ang tiwala ng babae? Fuck that shit!

I grew up telling myself that I don't nee