Pathetic

Raina~

I have never been a natural girl, all I do is try, try, and try. A lot of people judge me for who I am or the way I am. They say, whatever happened to me was my mistake and it should have made me sensible and mature now.

But to their discontent, it made me more obnoxious and boastful. I think sadness is the only real thing in my life that exists and every other thing is an illusion.

The way I have adopted sadness into every pore of my body and soul, I don't think any sort of happiness could remove it.

Even though I do try to change and be good but it all goes into vain, so why try either? It's not like my efforts would make any dent in Agastya's hatred for me.

He will always and forever hate me with every fiber of his body. Damn, he can't even bear to see my face. For the past two weeks, since he has come to his home, he has denied to see me.

He leave for the hospital, before I wake up, he eat his dinner in his room, it feels like even the existence of my name make him re