Chapter 08

War, bloods scattered around the burning Palace, dead bodies of the knights, and the loud growls of the monsters, that was all I've seen, standing on the brick of death while my eyes were burning with hatred, pain, sorrow, and loneliness. Looking at him while his eyes were glued on me, he was lying on the ground, his chest was struck by a sword, and his blood were dripping from his mouth. 

I killed him, I cursed him, he betrayed me. The desire of having him in my arms, the love I am obsessed, the man I thought was mine, but in the end, he betrayed me. 

I was the apple of the sinner tree, he caught me while I was clinging on the branch waiting to be eaten, he was there waiting for me to turn into a ripe apple that would boast his desire. 

I was stupid, stupidly in love with this man, that's why I killed him. If he's not meant for me as my man, then I'll gladly kill him and be with him in my next life. 

He's mine, he's no one's property but only mine. I would end everything and be with him without pests in our lives. 

I will curse the next generation until the last, and the one who will lift the curse would end everything.

I stunned realizing that I am burning, I don't know what I was thinking. I looked at the man and trembles as I stepped back from him. 

Who, who is he? Who did I just killed? 

I felt the thunder sensation from all over my body when I tried to breathe. My neck feels like it broke and my body feels numb when I tried to get up, the pain was much more heavy to bare. 

I opened my eyes and cried out in pain, my eyes were totally soaked with tears. My eyes... I can't open it. 

"Too young to jump off on the cliff and now you're crying in pain." 

I felt my body being carried by an unknown man. His arms were totally sweating but I smell the lingering smell of river and mist from him. 

"Who are you?" I asked. 

He didn't respond, I felt the heat from his breath, it doesn't smell thus it felt so warm. 

Who is this man? I can't really tell because I cannot open my eyes, it hurts, but I want to see him. 

"Where are you taking me?" I asked curiously. 

"My house," he simply answered. 

I wrapped my arms on his neck and sniff him to familiarize his scent.

He led me to the place where I can hear different sounds of goats, cows, and horses. The smell from the dirt of animals were scouting on my nose as I sniff heavily. 

"Where have you been? Jake was looking——who's that kid?" 

I heard the familiar name coming from the woman's mouth, realizing that it was the name that Jeneva was talking about, I tried opening my eyes and stopped when the unknown man put me down on a wooden chair. 

"Where's father?" he asked. 

"Jake is with Mariano, I heard that Jeneva went to Mariano's house to ask for something but they started to fight. By the way, who's that young girl you've taken?" She was pertaining to me. 

"I found her lying on the cliff, " he answered without a glint of worry. 

"Really? How pitiful, are you blind little girl?" I felt her presence beside me. 

I shook my head. "I'm not, my eyes were just hurt." I moved back when she tried holding my arms. 

They are humans. I mustn't let my guard down, especially when I still cannot open my eyes. 

"What's your name?" she asked.

"Finesia, " I answered. 

"Finesia? You are Finesia? Mariano and Jeneva was looking for your earlier, I thought it was just a random name, but here you are. Mathias, go find your father." I didn't expect that I am in the same person's house. I thought I was far away, but I was wrong. 

"Mother, it's better for me to stay here. I'm more suitable to stay with her, " I heard the unknown man said. His name is Mathias right? 

"Oh, that's right. Then, I should go. Prepare some soup for her, " She ordered. 

I felt her presence disappeared and I was left alone with Mathias. I flinched a bit when I felt his skin touched my left arm, what did he just do? 

I slowly opened my eyes and I saw him standing near the wooden table preparing the bowl of soup. It was a bit blurry but I can still see his familiar face, it was the same as the person whom I saw when I was falling down from the cliff. 

He turned his head on my direction and our eyes met. There, I met his unemotional face. His eyes starts to ablaze as the fire burning in my dream, but it was strangely cold. He looks more radiant at close. 

The more I see him, the more I became curious. He doesn't seems to care about my eyes, he was moving confidently while his upper body was naked. 

How old is he? 

"Why did you saved me?" I asked trying to get his attention. 

He placed the bowl of soup on the small table and turn around to walk back on the sink. He opened the faucet and starts washing the dishes, he looks normal yet he didn't take a glimpse of look from me. 

"You should've let me die, " I say. 

He stopped and glares at me. "You don't know how the people who died from the plague wanted to live and now you're just killing yourself just because of what? You're tired of living?" 

I let out a deep sigh and smiled softly, remembering the pillar memories of the fairies who died because of me, the scorching fire burning inside my heart when the pain kept telling me that they died because of me. 

"I-I better die than live like this. You should've known the consequence of saving a sinner, I was born with every eyes on me were only about killing me. Why... why would someone like you saved me?" I felt my tears coming out from my eyes making me whimper.

"I don't know, It's yours to feel. I don't intend to pity you, I saved you because I value every lives of the people. If you can't accept yours, then suffer without killing yourself." 

I felt like my heart skipped a bit because of his words, he doesn't understand my struggles and I don't understand his own too yet why is he giving me a look like I am pathetic? 

How heartless....