Chapter 3

Schazna's POV;

My senses awaken when I sniff a smell of IV fluid, I wake up in the white ceiling, I roam my sight everywhere and I saw mom and dad tht is sitting in the corner, I slowly pushes my body so i can seat.

"What happen?" I ask.

"We don't know, the doctor was not done yet with the examination" Mom told me and then I just nod. I remembered what happend a while ago. Dinugo ako. And then fear consumed my fiber bieng.

"Matagal pa ba ang doktor?" I asks and then mom just raised her eyebrows at me. And I acted innocent.

"Goodmorning Mr. and Mrs. Alcantara, Gising na po ba si miss Schazna?" A voice of a unfamiliar woman entered in the room.

"Yes, By the way doc do you have the result? My daughter can't wait about your findings" Mom casualy stated and then the doctor glance at me and she give me an akward smile.

"Miss Schazna did you already your state already?" Tanong nito, at tumingin sa aking tiyan, tumango lamang ako and she let out a heavy sigh.

"I'm sorry to tell you miss Schazna, You lost it. The baby is gone" My world was stunned after what I heard.

"No... Hindi totoo yan.... Is it a joke right doc? Please tell me it is not true" I pleaded and my parents are shock of what they knew.

"Sorry miss Schazna you had miscarriage, mahina rin kase ang kapit ng bata sa sinapupunan mo, and then you are lacking some sleep, and you are been stressed so it lead to miscarriage. I'm sorry for the loss miss" The doctor explained and then she excuse herself, kami nalang nina mom at dad ang natira dito sa loob ng private room ng hospital.

"You are pregnant?" Mom raised her voice at me, and I nod at her, wala nang saysay ang pagsinungaling, wala na ang anak ko.

"Who is the father?" Dad asks coldly at me.

"Zayn" I simply answered, and then I recieve a slap from my mom, sobrang lakas nun ay ramdam ko ang pamamanhid ng pisngi ko na sinampal niya.

"Now you are lying? Porket nalaman mo na malapit kami kay Zayn, Siya na ang iniipit mo?" She said and she slap me again. "Wala kang hiya. Wala ka na nganng respeto, wala ka pang hiya." She shouted.

"Then call her mom, tell her to bring Zayn here because I want to talk to him, f*ck her girlfriend, I want to talk to him right now." I hissed, and gladly mom dial someone, maybe Zayn's mom.

And she went out so she and Zayn's mom can talk privately. I caress my stomach and my tears starting to stream down my face, I wan so careless. Ni hindi ko manlang inisip na may buhay pa pala sa sinapupunan ko, nagiging masama na akong ina.

"They are on their way, Make sure that you are telling the truth, ayoko mapahiya sa amiga ko." She coldly uttered, at tumango naman ako sa kanya.

Makalipasang ilang oras ay dumating na rin sina Zayn kasama ang ina nito.

"What?" He coldly asks me.

"Can we talk privately?" I asks and he took a glance at my mom and her mom.

"Why keeping it private if you can let them know what is really happening" He coldly replied to me and then I remember what mom do at me a while ago, well I guess this could be a proof that I am telling the truth.

I let out a heavy sigh and then I speak up. "I... Had miscarraige Zayn, We lost the baby" I confessed. But he did not show any reaction at all.

"So what if you had miscarraige? As I said before when you tell me that we are having a baby, I lost my interest towards you, and I tell you to have an abortion, and besides ayoko ko rin na may dugo na magdudgtong sa atin." He said like it was a not bigdeal, he was lucky because god give him a baby but he doesn't like it?

Nangati ang mga kamay ko, kaya sinampal ko siya, hindi lang isa kundi mag asawang sampal. Dahil sa galit ko sa kanya wala talaga siyang pakialamsa bata.

"You are such a heartless person, sariling anak mo kaya mong patayin? Hindi na talaga kita kilala Zayn, Ibang iba ka na. Anak mo yun eh, galing yun sayo, bakit gusto mo na siyang mawala sa mundo? I you don't want it, I can raised the child alone, I don't care about your wealth, I just want you to know about the child, kase kahit ayaw mo sa kanya may karapatan ka parin sa kanya!" I shouted at his face.

"I am going to get married soon, At ayokong malaman ng magiging asawa ko na may anak ako sa labas, it will ruin my image." He uttered at mapakla naman akong napatawa roon.

"Isang buwan. Isang buwan palang simula na maghiwalay tayo Zayn, ngayon ikakasal ka na? Are you doing an affair behind my back when we are together?" I asks as my tears streaming down to my face.

Wala lamang siyang sagot, And I considered that silence as a yes, my fists crumpled habang walang tigil na umaagos ang mga luha sa aking pisngi.

"So that is the reason why you want to get rid of the baby?, So that's why you lost your interest towards me?, And the reason why you are not affected even you lost your own child?" I ask. Nakita ko na tumayo ang ina niya at hinawakan niya ang braso ng anak niya at parang naiiyak na ito.

"Hija please listen to me okay?" May bahid ng lungkot ang mukha ng ginang. Ngunit umiling lamang ako sa kanya.

"Please mrs. Montero wag na po muna kayo makialam, nakikiusap po ako sa inyo wag nalang po kayo makisali ngayon, we can talk in other time, wag muna ngayon." I pleaded to his mother, tumayo na rin si mom at upang daluhan ang ina ni Zayn.

"M-mare hayaan mo nalang muna sila, hayaan mo muna magpabas ng sama ng loob si Schazna." Tumango naman ang ina ni Zayn at bumalik sila sofa na inuupuan nila.

"You should be happy, kase wala na ang bata hindi ka na mapapahiya, hindi ka pa maakusahan na malandi" He said in boastful tone and I slap him again.

"Happy?, T*ngina mo Zayn, T*ngina mo. Hindi mo alam ang pakiramdam nang mawalan ng anak. Wala kang karapatan na sabihin na ganyan, kase hindi pa to naisisilang nasa kanya na ang mundo ko. Siya nalang sana ang meron ako, pero nawala na siya dahil sa inyo. Ngayon sasabihan mo ako na I should be happy?" I bursted out and then he become silent.

"Mare pwede bang umalis nalang kayo, kailangan na rin ni Schazna na mag pahinga." Mom said to Zayn's mom, at walang magawa ang mommy ni Zayn kundi umalis nalang din.

"Maybe we can talk some other time hija. Sorry I did not mean to lose my grandchild" Sinsero na paghingi ng tawad sa akin ng matanda, at mapakla naman akong tumawa roon.

"Ang anak niyo nga ho ang ama ng anak ko, pero nanggaling na mismo sa kanya dati na ayaw niya sa anak ko kaya hindi ko to pinipilit sa kanya. At dahil ayaw niya sa anak ko, hindi niyo rin ho apo ang anak kong nawala" I said harshly. Sobrang galit ko ay nakalimutan ko na ang nararadaman ng iba. I was clouded with anger and frustration. I just lost my angel! Who would not be sad about that?

"Aalis na kami mare, Sana ay makausap ko ng masinsinan si Schazna sa susunod. Hindi ko na muna siya pipilitin. I know she is still frustrated because she lost her first child. Look after her mare, her frustration can lead her to depression." Yun lang ang narinig ko na sinabi ng mommy ng Zayn.

I wipe off my tears that are streaming from my eyes. I can't just accept the fact that I lost my angel. Now I'm alone again.

"I'm so sorry anak, Hindi namin alam ng daddy mo that you are pregnant, if we just know hindi na sana kami naging harsh sayo. Sana hindi ka pa nawalan ng anak." There is a hint of sadness in my mom's voice, but I am not still convinced that she is really sorry.

Mapakla akong tumawa and then I look at her directly and I see in her eyes the sadness. "Wala rin naman magagawa ang sorry mo mom, I lost my angel, And you don't know the pain I'm into right now" Walang gana na tugon ko kay mommy.

"I know your pain anak" She said. At napatingin ako sa kanya. She is far from my mean mom. The mom infront of me right now is the caring mom that I'm craving for.

"I was also in your age when I had miscarriage, and that time your dad and I is not in good terms, mas lalo pang lumala ng makunan ako sa dapat nakakatanda mong kapatid. And it took almost five years bago ako mabuntis ulit, and that time pinangako ko sa sarili ko na kapag magkaka anak ako ng babae ay hindi niya dapat maranasan ang sakit ng makunan. But I failed." Hindi ako makapaniwala sa sinabi ni mom.

"Habang lumalaki ka, alam kong hindi ka talaga magiging negosyante you are into fashion and modelling, but we need an heir kaya pinilit ka namin sa bagay na hindi mo gusto. Your dad and I become mean because of desperation. Ayaw lang namin na maghirap tayo sa hinaharap kaya nasakal ka namin, And we did not known na pati ang apo namin ay madadamay" Mom was geniune and I can't help but to hug her.

"Let it out sweetie, alam ni mommy ang nararamdaman mo ngayon" She said as I cried in her arms. Now I know I was not alone along this journey.

My angel, please wag mong pabayaan si mommy. Gabayan mo parati si mommy. At mahal na mahal ka ni mommy always remember that.