登入"Ria, wait—" My voice comes out as a pathetic, dry rasp, completely lacking the strength to cut through the sudden spike of adrenaline in the air.Ria doesn't hear me. She steps directly into the stranger’s space, her small frame vibrating with a terrifying, protective fury. Her midnight-black hair practically crackles as she glares up at him, her hands clenched into tight fists at her sides.Her shoulders squared like she’s ready to commit a felony on my behalf. God, I love her. “What the fuck are you doing?” she demands.Only then does he take a step back.The movement creates space between us I’d barely realized he’d invaded. I suck in a steadier breath.He doesn’t look offended.Or intimidated.He simply turns to face Ria, one slow movement at a time, until I fully appreciate just how unfairly tall he is.Good Lord.He has at least half a foot on her.He raises both hands, palms open. A universal gesture of surrender. "I'm not touching her," he says. His voice has lost that heav
The numbers on the tablet are clean, logical, and entirely devoid of emotion. That is why I like them. Algorithmic forecasting models don’t have a fragile ego. They certainly don’t call you at midnight to remind you that your older brother has just successfully resected a glioblastoma while you are merely "playing with spreadsheets." I push my glasses up the bridge of my nose, ignoring the faint vibration of my phone in my breast pocket. It is my father. Again. Probably calling to recount the exact details of Julian’s celebratory dinner. The dinner I skipped because a room full of arrogant neurosurgeons is a special kind of hell I lack the patience for tonight. Instead, I sit on my barstool in the dim, leather-scented quiet of the financial district’s most discreet lounge, nursing a neat bourbon. It is supposed to be an escape. Until the air shifts right next to my stool. Two women step up to the very corner of the mahogany bar counter, right in my peripheral vision. One, a
Two Weeks Later The apartment is dead silent, save for the steady hum of the refrigerator. For two full weeks, I exist in a liminal space of heavy, dreamless sleep and waking numbness. I exist entirely in oversized sweatpants, watching the shadows shift across my bedroom ceiling while playing the last year of my life on a torturous loop. I try as much as I can to block out the world. I try not to look at social media, but I can’t help stalking Ken and Paula’s Instagram. Ken hasn’t posted anything since our breakup, but Paula has been keeping her 2,000+ followers updated with her life. I feel bitter envy as I scroll through the pretty selfies she’s posted, and I am very analytical in comparing her looks with mine. Maybe if I was thinner and had clearer skin, Ken wouldn’t have thought twice before setting those boundaries with her. I’m also ashamed to say this (and I can’t even let Ria know about it), but I unblocked him sometime ago, desperate to hear from him. H
The elevator ride down is torture. Thankfully, it was blessedly empty. The last thing I need right now is disintegrating in the presence of strangers. I spend all thirty seconds trying not to throw up. My reflection stares back at me from the mirrored wall. Red eyes. Trembling hands. Brown hair still messy from his fingers. From an hour ago. God. A fresh wave of nausea crashes over me. I lean one hand on the wall to keep myself upright. The elevator dings, and the doors slide open. I practically stumble into the lobby. “Miss? Are you okay?” The concierge’s voice follows me, concerned. I don’t answer. If I open my mouth, I’ll start crying again. The evening air hits me the second I step outside. It smells like a storm is brewing. Cars rush past. People laugh somewhere across the street. A couple walks by holding hands.The sight makes my chest ache. I force a deep breath into my lungs and yank my phone out of my pocket. My hands are still shak
“Paula is your ex?!” I screech like a banshee. Kenneth, my boyfriend, who’s just returned from the bathroom, stares at me like he’s just seen a ghost. And apparently that ghost must have gotten his tongue too because all the words he’s trying to string together come out sounding like he’s just got a stroke. “Jo…I, uh—It’s…not—“ My chest feels heavy, like an elephant has just sat on it. All that keeps running through my mind is You’re such a fool, Joanna! You’ve been fooled twice! Twice! Kenneth glances warily at the phone in my hand. It’s his phone. The one I’d just gone through while he was in the bathroom. I hate the way my hands are shaking as I keep scrolling through the texts he’d exchanged with his “best friend” just minutes ago. The weight on my chest becomes heavier with each line: Kenneth: you know i’ve always wanted it to be you, right? she’s lying here in my arms and all i can think about why we ever broke up. you were it for me. Paula❤







